I am going to try and get myself back into some sort of routine while I am on holidays.
I had my first physio yesterday, nothing too strenuous. It will be three times a week for a while I think.
Went back to pilates on Saturday. Not the normal teacher, in fact not a pilates instrutor, and while it resembled pilates it really wasnt. By Sunday night I couldnt lie down on the lounge and once I did get there couldnt get back up. So so sore. Who would have thought that 10 weeks of inactivity and eating would have done so much damage. I was okay on Monday so went back for another session (glutton for punishment) and this time it was beloved instructor and lots of old friends and it went fairly smoothly although last night my pelvic floor was a bit sad and required a heatpack.
Today I am getting my hair cut. Hasnt been done for over 10 weeks so I look abit wild and woolly. Looking at the time I had better get my skates on.
Put on 10 kilos (a kilo a week) mainly through boredom and inactivity. I am going to make up a very easy gym program, mainly upper body, today so that I can feel like I am doing something.
I need new gym shoes but have only been out of the aircast and slipper for a few days and my ankle swells up quite frighteninly. I need a least one new pair of pants to wear as nothing fits. I need new comfortable shoes to wear out and about. I need to do a lot of shopping in other words but after yesterdays activities my ankle is quite sore so other than haircut am staying at home today catching up on computer work.
We are off the the Hunter this Friday for our yearly visit with friends. We will be home on Monday. I am looking forward to going and catching up with everyone but I feel so blaah at the moment I wish I didnt have to go. But as blaah happens no matter where I am I mos well be with good company.
Next week is endoscopy and colonoscopy time. Can anything else go wrong with this poor old body. No really I am fine - heaps of people worse off than me.
I have read a few blogs - googlereader tells me I have over 160 unread ones and that is not including Anne. This may take a while.
Jess gave me a lesson in facebook last night. Lots of yelling involved. I really think that I am too old for this but I will keep trying.
Have a good week - off to get ready for hairdresser - hope it lifts me!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
I'm still here, sort of...
I am still here. On the mend extremely slowly. Still not driving, well only once but soon to increase. I am so freaking sick of relying on other people to get me places. That sounds really ungrateful and I'm not - just used to independence.
Still wearing the aircast, especially when I am outside but luckily not to bed anymore so sleeping is returning to normal after nearly 6 weeks of very little sleep.
I've been back to Queensland again with Jess to help clear out Mum's house. We drove there over 2 days, had 2 days of solid work, and 2 days home. It was a big wake up call and I am really going to try and get rid of stuff I no longer use. Who knows I may open an e-bay account. I know my children will certainly not want even a quarter of all the stuff I have amassed. AND it is only STUFf!
I am back at work full time as of this week. Glad to be back but am exhausted. Sooooo glad it is Friday.
My final visit with surgeon just over 2 weeks ago scared the s**t out of me. The operation went well but it will take me 12 months to recover and for the bone to grow around the space invader that now lives where my ankle joint used to be. The wound is not healing which is a worry and the rheumatologist took me off my arthritis medication this week because it might be the cause of the slow healing. Hopefully I can start physio in a couple of weeks. I walk like a penguin.
Havent been to pilates, yoga or the gym in two months.
I havent been visiting blogs and I dread to think what my google reader account looks like. Probably about to explode. Holidays are only two weeks away and I will definitely devote a lot of time to dear blends (as Zanna calls them).
Oh new King lounge arrived two weeks ago. It is so comfortable and there is always a fight for the prime spot. Because of all the rain, the new bathroom is still a month away. Should be nice and cold by then. Mark wont let me organise any other projects till this is done and it is going so slowly it is driving me loopy.
I saw the other night that Costco is opening in Australia soon (Melbourne somewhere). I have read about this store on US blogs. Looks very interesting but I fear it will be like Aldi and Bunnings to me - it is too hard to find things so I dont bother.
OK, dragging my crippled self back into my warm cave where I will hibernate for a bit longer. This whinge is officially finished now.
Love to you special people and thanks for the emails.
Still wearing the aircast, especially when I am outside but luckily not to bed anymore so sleeping is returning to normal after nearly 6 weeks of very little sleep.
I've been back to Queensland again with Jess to help clear out Mum's house. We drove there over 2 days, had 2 days of solid work, and 2 days home. It was a big wake up call and I am really going to try and get rid of stuff I no longer use. Who knows I may open an e-bay account. I know my children will certainly not want even a quarter of all the stuff I have amassed. AND it is only STUFf!
I am back at work full time as of this week. Glad to be back but am exhausted. Sooooo glad it is Friday.
My final visit with surgeon just over 2 weeks ago scared the s**t out of me. The operation went well but it will take me 12 months to recover and for the bone to grow around the space invader that now lives where my ankle joint used to be. The wound is not healing which is a worry and the rheumatologist took me off my arthritis medication this week because it might be the cause of the slow healing. Hopefully I can start physio in a couple of weeks. I walk like a penguin.
Havent been to pilates, yoga or the gym in two months.
I havent been visiting blogs and I dread to think what my google reader account looks like. Probably about to explode. Holidays are only two weeks away and I will definitely devote a lot of time to dear blends (as Zanna calls them).
Oh new King lounge arrived two weeks ago. It is so comfortable and there is always a fight for the prime spot. Because of all the rain, the new bathroom is still a month away. Should be nice and cold by then. Mark wont let me organise any other projects till this is done and it is going so slowly it is driving me loopy.
I saw the other night that Costco is opening in Australia soon (Melbourne somewhere). I have read about this store on US blogs. Looks very interesting but I fear it will be like Aldi and Bunnings to me - it is too hard to find things so I dont bother.
OK, dragging my crippled self back into my warm cave where I will hibernate for a bit longer. This whinge is officially finished now.
Love to you special people and thanks for the emails.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
I am my best person...
This week I was lucky enough to catch up with the second appearance of Elizabeth Gilbert on Oprah. She has moved back to the United States with Phillipe and lives in New Jersey now and is working on her new book about marriage.
I am sure everyone knows that she is the author of that wonderful book Eat Pray Love about the journey she took after several failed relationships. This book still sits in my bedside table and although I havent read it for a while the fact that it is there to be picked up when needed is comforting.
She said on the show the following:
"I am my best person when I have less on my plate"
This struck home with me - I am sure I am a much nicer person when I am not so busy/frantic etc. When I can take the time to meditate (and I am not good at it as I have a grasshopper mind), to stop and reflect, to let things go, to not worry over things I cannot change.
I am so looking forward to the movie of Eat Love and Pray that will star Julia Roberts as Elizabeth. I think it is down for release next year, I can only hope.
There is a Borders bookclub interview at here.
On a different topic but still related somehow, the decluttering is progressing slowly and the opening up of space in the house is quite liberating. Still a lot to do but I am moving forward at last, a direction for which I am so grateful.
I am sure everyone knows that she is the author of that wonderful book Eat Pray Love about the journey she took after several failed relationships. This book still sits in my bedside table and although I havent read it for a while the fact that it is there to be picked up when needed is comforting.
She said on the show the following:
"I am my best person when I have less on my plate"
This struck home with me - I am sure I am a much nicer person when I am not so busy/frantic etc. When I can take the time to meditate (and I am not good at it as I have a grasshopper mind), to stop and reflect, to let things go, to not worry over things I cannot change.
I am so looking forward to the movie of Eat Love and Pray that will star Julia Roberts as Elizabeth. I think it is down for release next year, I can only hope.
There is a Borders bookclub interview at here.
On a different topic but still related somehow, the decluttering is progressing slowly and the opening up of space in the house is quite liberating. Still a lot to do but I am moving forward at last, a direction for which I am so grateful.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Moving on
Life is slowly returning to normal.
Went back to work yesterday and was totally exhausted by the time I got home. Jess took me as I still cant drive and she brought me home, went to the pet shop for me, bought me Milo (secret weapon in fight against no sleep) and finally took me to the doctors. Luckily Mark out at a work dinner which I had opted out of so it was a quick dinner of leftovers and then to bed. Took half a sleeping tablet and for a change had a okay nights sleep. Dont remember him coming home although apparently I had a conversation with him.
I am working two days a week for the next three weeks and then I think I will have to go back to Queensland to sort out Mum's house. Trying to co-ordinate 4 other busy women so that we can all do it together is giving me a headache. This afternoon Mark, being her executor, has gone to the solicitors, who luckily are on the central coast. I think this is going to be a lengthy procedure. I am off to memorial park next Wednesday to pick out her final resting place for when we bring her back to NSW. Put her death notice into the Sydney papers. My little brain is starting to explode. It hasnt had to think this much in 4 weeks.
My job is to keep the peace between sisters and a slightly aggressive niece who told me last night (hopefully jokingly) that I was no longer her favourite aunt because I was too nice! Niggling is starting already. God give me strength.
Went back to work yesterday and was totally exhausted by the time I got home. Jess took me as I still cant drive and she brought me home, went to the pet shop for me, bought me Milo (secret weapon in fight against no sleep) and finally took me to the doctors. Luckily Mark out at a work dinner which I had opted out of so it was a quick dinner of leftovers and then to bed. Took half a sleeping tablet and for a change had a okay nights sleep. Dont remember him coming home although apparently I had a conversation with him.
I am working two days a week for the next three weeks and then I think I will have to go back to Queensland to sort out Mum's house. Trying to co-ordinate 4 other busy women so that we can all do it together is giving me a headache. This afternoon Mark, being her executor, has gone to the solicitors, who luckily are on the central coast. I think this is going to be a lengthy procedure. I am off to memorial park next Wednesday to pick out her final resting place for when we bring her back to NSW. Put her death notice into the Sydney papers. My little brain is starting to explode. It hasnt had to think this much in 4 weeks.
My job is to keep the peace between sisters and a slightly aggressive niece who told me last night (hopefully jokingly) that I was no longer her favourite aunt because I was too nice! Niggling is starting already. God give me strength.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Mum
Mum died yesterday. She slipped quietly away, never regaining consciousness. Just the way she wanted to go. No pain.
She was a difficult mother. A troublemaker, always stirring things up, she could be vicious and mean but she was still my mother. Perhaps not the mother I would have wished for but perhaps I was not the daughter she wished for. None of us were. It was not in my nature to let her ride roughshod over me or mine but in her own way I think she loved me.
She grew up in the difficult times of the depression. Dirt poor, with a father who took to the road and didnt provide for the family and I am sure this moulded her into what she became. Who knows.
My children's last grandparent has gone. An era has ended. I am grateful that Jess took me to Queensland the week before last to say goodbye. I know now that if I had not gone I would have regretted it for ever.
My eldest sister said that her face was so peaceful the last few days. I hope she is happy wherever she is. That she has found peace and contentment finally.
She was a difficult mother. A troublemaker, always stirring things up, she could be vicious and mean but she was still my mother. Perhaps not the mother I would have wished for but perhaps I was not the daughter she wished for. None of us were. It was not in my nature to let her ride roughshod over me or mine but in her own way I think she loved me.
She grew up in the difficult times of the depression. Dirt poor, with a father who took to the road and didnt provide for the family and I am sure this moulded her into what she became. Who knows.
My children's last grandparent has gone. An era has ended. I am grateful that Jess took me to Queensland the week before last to say goodbye. I know now that if I had not gone I would have regretted it for ever.
My eldest sister said that her face was so peaceful the last few days. I hope she is happy wherever she is. That she has found peace and contentment finally.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Nightmare or Bad Dream
My sleep was woken this morning by Jess's usual good morning phone call but she woke me from a bad dream. A perceived threat. It had something to do with blogging, friends and work. It left me with a strange and uncomfortable feeling - very unsettled.
I know I had been thinking about my blogroll and the number of people who dont blog anymore. I will really have to do some housekeeping soon.
Which leads me to another interesting fact. I signed up for facebook recently so that I could submit an article about, you guessed it, Lucy the Wonderdog. All very strange and scary but an interesting thing happened - a lot of people I know personally or used to know through blogs are doing or have done facebook. Their pages came up when I initially signed in. Not sure that I am going to follow this up as I feel I spend far too much time wasting on the computer as it is but I found it interesting.
The weather here is perfect for staying in bed lately. Torrential rain and a bit blowy (sorry for people who are out and about in it).
Today I am going to do the washing (see how exciting my life has become LOL). Of course I cant hang it out: a) it's raining and b) I cant get it down to the clothes line but I will have it washed and ready for DH to deal with when he comes home.
Oh well its midday and I must have a shower and then settle in to watch Ellen and Oprah and may even get my embroidery out today.
Life doesnt get anymore exciting than this - no I really mean it, it doesnt!
I know I had been thinking about my blogroll and the number of people who dont blog anymore. I will really have to do some housekeeping soon.
Which leads me to another interesting fact. I signed up for facebook recently so that I could submit an article about, you guessed it, Lucy the Wonderdog. All very strange and scary but an interesting thing happened - a lot of people I know personally or used to know through blogs are doing or have done facebook. Their pages came up when I initially signed in. Not sure that I am going to follow this up as I feel I spend far too much time wasting on the computer as it is but I found it interesting.
The weather here is perfect for staying in bed lately. Torrential rain and a bit blowy (sorry for people who are out and about in it).
Today I am going to do the washing (see how exciting my life has become LOL). Of course I cant hang it out: a) it's raining and b) I cant get it down to the clothes line but I will have it washed and ready for DH to deal with when he comes home.
Oh well its midday and I must have a shower and then settle in to watch Ellen and Oprah and may even get my embroidery out today.
Life doesnt get anymore exciting than this - no I really mean it, it doesnt!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
What's Happening
I am slowly trying to teach myself to walk again. Still use both crutches sometimes, still have the aircast on but sometimes I only use one crutch like a cane or in moments of sheer daredevilishness no crutches.
Still not sleeping well but at least do not wander the house as much at night.
Have decided that I am going back to work next week for two days. At least that is the plan and I will see how I go the first day. Have to work out how I am going to get there as I still cant drive.
Mum is being moved into palliative care wing in hospital. She has been in a room in the normal part of the hospital under palliative care but as this room in an acute response room it is needed for others. She spends a lot of her time sleeping now but she is hanging in there. As her doctor says "a tough old bird".
My sisters went to see the funeral directors yesterday before my middle sister (MS) flew home. We are going to bring her ashes back to NSW as requested. MS dropped in on way home from the airport and stayed for dinner so that they missed the peakhour traffic. Lovely night.
But still I'm not sleeping and it is driving me batty. Actually I probably am sleeping but just dozing and waking a lot.
New armchairs that I have ordered from Freedom are being delivered on Saturday week. They have been trying to deliver them for a while but with me being in hospital and then having to fly to Brisbane it has been impossible. Council clean up is the same weekend so it should work out okay.
Builder dropped in on Sunday to apologize for not starting the bathroom on time but really it is easier for me that it hasnt started. New date in a months time and by them I should be up and going again.
Am finally having a shower when I want to and not when there is someone around in case I have an accident. Mind you have to check in with daughter when I am going to have said shower and when I have finished. A brief look to life in the future.
Life is not terribly interesting when confined to home but I enjoy reading blogs. Off to attempt to make myself a cup of coffee. Have a good day.
Still not sleeping well but at least do not wander the house as much at night.
Have decided that I am going back to work next week for two days. At least that is the plan and I will see how I go the first day. Have to work out how I am going to get there as I still cant drive.
Mum is being moved into palliative care wing in hospital. She has been in a room in the normal part of the hospital under palliative care but as this room in an acute response room it is needed for others. She spends a lot of her time sleeping now but she is hanging in there. As her doctor says "a tough old bird".
My sisters went to see the funeral directors yesterday before my middle sister (MS) flew home. We are going to bring her ashes back to NSW as requested. MS dropped in on way home from the airport and stayed for dinner so that they missed the peakhour traffic. Lovely night.
But still I'm not sleeping and it is driving me batty. Actually I probably am sleeping but just dozing and waking a lot.
New armchairs that I have ordered from Freedom are being delivered on Saturday week. They have been trying to deliver them for a while but with me being in hospital and then having to fly to Brisbane it has been impossible. Council clean up is the same weekend so it should work out okay.
Builder dropped in on Sunday to apologize for not starting the bathroom on time but really it is easier for me that it hasnt started. New date in a months time and by them I should be up and going again.
Am finally having a shower when I want to and not when there is someone around in case I have an accident. Mind you have to check in with daughter when I am going to have said shower and when I have finished. A brief look to life in the future.
Life is not terribly interesting when confined to home but I enjoy reading blogs. Off to attempt to make myself a cup of coffee. Have a good day.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Autumn weather and other things
Driving to Chatswood today through perfect Autumn weather - gorgeous soft mellow sunshine and the beautiful autumn leaves swirling around the car - made me realise how long it has been since I have actually been out of the house. My life for the last 10 days has been housebound. Tomorrow I will go out onto the deck and try and soak up some autumn weather - cant believe I am missing my favourite season.
Went to the surgeon today and he took the plaster cast off and the stitches out. The stitches hurt so much. I sat there with my jumper over my head, whimpering and my gorgeous boy hugging me. My foot is now in an "air cast" (ski boot type of thing) for the next 4 weeks. I thought I might be able to take it off at night but he said no. Only time I can take it off is for a shower and even then I have to sit. Bugger, I hate having things on my feet at night. I like cold feet not warm feet. Oh well four weeks of very little sleep I guess. It is now up to me when I ditch the crutches but probably not for another two weeks. Sigh.
Problems with Mum. She has apparently recently given all her jewellery to a cousin for "safe keeping" but when contacted said cousin said no Mum gave her the jewellery. Some people are so sad. Preying on old people should be outlawed.
Will give my eldest sister a ring tonight to find out what is happening. May fly to Brisbane later in the week but it all seems so morbid.
Hope your Wednesday was uneventful.
Went to the surgeon today and he took the plaster cast off and the stitches out. The stitches hurt so much. I sat there with my jumper over my head, whimpering and my gorgeous boy hugging me. My foot is now in an "air cast" (ski boot type of thing) for the next 4 weeks. I thought I might be able to take it off at night but he said no. Only time I can take it off is for a shower and even then I have to sit. Bugger, I hate having things on my feet at night. I like cold feet not warm feet. Oh well four weeks of very little sleep I guess. It is now up to me when I ditch the crutches but probably not for another two weeks. Sigh.
Problems with Mum. She has apparently recently given all her jewellery to a cousin for "safe keeping" but when contacted said cousin said no Mum gave her the jewellery. Some people are so sad. Preying on old people should be outlawed.
Will give my eldest sister a ring tonight to find out what is happening. May fly to Brisbane later in the week but it all seems so morbid.
Hope your Wednesday was uneventful.
Monday, May 11, 2009
A new week
I've moved my laptop back into my study. No more bed blogging.
I'm daydreaming out the window - dark skies, sun's out but I know it is cold out there, green trees and bushes, noisy miners bickering on the deck, Lucy asleep on my bed because I have left the electric blanket on in case I have to go back to bed suddenly.
I had to laugh yesterday, Mark was absolutely exhausted after cooking dinner and lunch and doing all the ironing and putting all the washing away and cleaning up the kitchen. It was all I could do to not say "welcome to my world" but I didn't because I really appreciate what he is trying to do.
Jess is not working today and I am so looking forward to her visit. She always explodes onto the scene. Her entrances are always dramatic and make me laugh. She is like some little wild kitten, completely untamed. She will probably arrive bearing coffee (or she had just introduced me to vanilla chai skim latte which tastes too sweet to be good for my weight) and anything else that she thinks I might need. Actually while I love the coffee her presence is enough. I am so blessed to have her.
The nights are hardest although yesterday there were a few bumps during the day. You may have heard of the term "busy legs" (my doctor's term). I think only women in menopause have it. My definition is that when I am lying down, or even sometimes when I am sitting, I cannot keep my legs still. They have to be on the move all the time. Doesn't that conjure up a mad picture! Usually a dose of magnesium clears this up but it doesn't seem to be working at the moment and so I spend all night trying not to wake Mark and trying to get comfortable. Not conducive to a good nights sleep for anyone. If anyone has any other remedies I would appreciate it. This all might end on Wednesday when the plaster and stitches are removed. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Two more attempted sleeps!
Got my Rudd money the other day. Whoo hoo. Am going to buy a sewing machine. Nothing flash just for repairs and patchwork. I have a friend who is willing to teach me patchwork so this will be one of my aims this year. Something to keep my hands occupied. Oh, and knitting but I am kind of scared of knitting (ridiculous isn't it?).
Hope today travels well for you all. I'm off to iTunes to look up a calming mantra I read about on another blog. Music sometimes helps me as does yoga and breathing but as I said at the moment nothing is working.
I'm daydreaming out the window - dark skies, sun's out but I know it is cold out there, green trees and bushes, noisy miners bickering on the deck, Lucy asleep on my bed because I have left the electric blanket on in case I have to go back to bed suddenly.
I had to laugh yesterday, Mark was absolutely exhausted after cooking dinner and lunch and doing all the ironing and putting all the washing away and cleaning up the kitchen. It was all I could do to not say "welcome to my world" but I didn't because I really appreciate what he is trying to do.
Jess is not working today and I am so looking forward to her visit. She always explodes onto the scene. Her entrances are always dramatic and make me laugh. She is like some little wild kitten, completely untamed. She will probably arrive bearing coffee (or she had just introduced me to vanilla chai skim latte which tastes too sweet to be good for my weight) and anything else that she thinks I might need. Actually while I love the coffee her presence is enough. I am so blessed to have her.
The nights are hardest although yesterday there were a few bumps during the day. You may have heard of the term "busy legs" (my doctor's term). I think only women in menopause have it. My definition is that when I am lying down, or even sometimes when I am sitting, I cannot keep my legs still. They have to be on the move all the time. Doesn't that conjure up a mad picture! Usually a dose of magnesium clears this up but it doesn't seem to be working at the moment and so I spend all night trying not to wake Mark and trying to get comfortable. Not conducive to a good nights sleep for anyone. If anyone has any other remedies I would appreciate it. This all might end on Wednesday when the plaster and stitches are removed. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Two more attempted sleeps!
Got my Rudd money the other day. Whoo hoo. Am going to buy a sewing machine. Nothing flash just for repairs and patchwork. I have a friend who is willing to teach me patchwork so this will be one of my aims this year. Something to keep my hands occupied. Oh, and knitting but I am kind of scared of knitting (ridiculous isn't it?).
Hope today travels well for you all. I'm off to iTunes to look up a calming mantra I read about on another blog. Music sometimes helps me as does yoga and breathing but as I said at the moment nothing is working.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Whingey semi-bad patient
Believe it or not I am over being unable to walk and I have run out of pain killers and think that I am now suffering withdrawal symptons. Damn damn damn
Sick of being in bed, sick of sitting, sick of the effort of having a shower exhausting me.
Now I am going to be really unPC. I am tired of people visiting me. I cant do this. I am tired and while I love them all I have had to get out of my comfort zone twice in the past two days to have meals with friends.
Anyway..............
Happy Mothers Day to you all. Or Godmothers day or what a great aunt day. You all deserve to be fussed over as you are raising or helping to raise a generation of incredible children and grandchildren.
Gareth has arrived with another pandora charm and I know Jess will bring the same when she finishes work. My bracelets are filling up, each a wonderful memory of who and when it was given to me. Not the super expensive charms just charms that mean something to my beautiful children.
Sick of being in bed, sick of sitting, sick of the effort of having a shower exhausting me.
Now I am going to be really unPC. I am tired of people visiting me. I cant do this. I am tired and while I love them all I have had to get out of my comfort zone twice in the past two days to have meals with friends.
Anyway..............
Happy Mothers Day to you all. Or Godmothers day or what a great aunt day. You all deserve to be fussed over as you are raising or helping to raise a generation of incredible children and grandchildren.
Gareth has arrived with another pandora charm and I know Jess will bring the same when she finishes work. My bracelets are filling up, each a wonderful memory of who and when it was given to me. Not the super expensive charms just charms that mean something to my beautiful children.
Friday, May 08, 2009
I'm back
Well here I am. Bed bound but still here. The operation went well apparently. I can weight-bear on ankle with crutches. Painful but not too bad. Spent the first three days with a morphine drip and now am on endone and digesics which I am trying to decrease. Spend a lot of time being nauseous which means I am not eating much. Have discovered Mark is not a great carer. He rings me and asks me what's for dinner? Hello, I am in bed, nauseous, havent a clue what is left in freezer and couldnt care if I ate again at the moment. The questions I am being asked a sigh-worthy like, where are the vases? the milk carton is leaking what should I tip the milk into? Good god he is a grown man who I may have spoiled a little. He has no concept of what I am going through I dont think. Oh enough whinging.
Thank goodness Jess called in yesterday on her way home from work. She bought me coffee, I could have my shower and she stayed for dinner and put her father back into a good mood. She really is a ray of sunshine most of the time.
Back to see surgeon next Wednesday. Which seems really quick to me.
My mum has a form of leukemia prevalent in the elderly which is getting worse. She has returned to hospital yesterday and it looks like she will not be coming back home again. But she is a tough old bird so who knows.
Tiredness setting in. I have nearly read all the blogs but may not have commented. Zanna I am sure we have been sisters somewhere along the road and I will answer your tag as soon as I am able to.
Have a good day.
Thank goodness Jess called in yesterday on her way home from work. She bought me coffee, I could have my shower and she stayed for dinner and put her father back into a good mood. She really is a ray of sunshine most of the time.
Back to see surgeon next Wednesday. Which seems really quick to me.
My mum has a form of leukemia prevalent in the elderly which is getting worse. She has returned to hospital yesterday and it looks like she will not be coming back home again. But she is a tough old bird so who knows.
Tiredness setting in. I have nearly read all the blogs but may not have commented. Zanna I am sure we have been sisters somewhere along the road and I will answer your tag as soon as I am able to.
Have a good day.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Last post (not literally)
Well this will probably be my last post until after operation (God this has been a long time coming).
Returned to work on Tuesday for four days (1 day to go) and has it been hard getting there. On Tuesday I got up at 6, Wednesday, 6.15 and today 6.30. It is so hard but I am past caring and once I get there I am fine. It has kept my mind off the pain and, even though I thought everything was uptodate I have been so busy.
Yesterday, when I went for my monthly blood test I happened to meet Jess for coffee near the Freedom Home store and bit the bullet and ordered the two ivory leather armchairs that I have been coveting for so long. Sent Mark an email so that he has a few days to think about it before I see him.
He will be home tomorrow. Lucy and I have missed him so much. Got an email this morning (not sure whether it was his time or my time) saying he was in London awaiting his flight home via Bangkok. They had better not off load him.
Gareth rang today to tell me how awesome (his words) he is. Just got his latest uni assessment/assignment back and he got a high distinction. Both the kids have got their rudd money or as they put it "have been stimulated". Jess is heading to IKEA to buy new furniture for her home office.
Not a lot to say today. Boring things to do like ironing, tidying house etc and early to bed.
Have a great weekend and keep your fingers crossed for me.
Returned to work on Tuesday for four days (1 day to go) and has it been hard getting there. On Tuesday I got up at 6, Wednesday, 6.15 and today 6.30. It is so hard but I am past caring and once I get there I am fine. It has kept my mind off the pain and, even though I thought everything was uptodate I have been so busy.
Yesterday, when I went for my monthly blood test I happened to meet Jess for coffee near the Freedom Home store and bit the bullet and ordered the two ivory leather armchairs that I have been coveting for so long. Sent Mark an email so that he has a few days to think about it before I see him.
He will be home tomorrow. Lucy and I have missed him so much. Got an email this morning (not sure whether it was his time or my time) saying he was in London awaiting his flight home via Bangkok. They had better not off load him.
Gareth rang today to tell me how awesome (his words) he is. Just got his latest uni assessment/assignment back and he got a high distinction. Both the kids have got their rudd money or as they put it "have been stimulated". Jess is heading to IKEA to buy new furniture for her home office.
Not a lot to say today. Boring things to do like ironing, tidying house etc and early to bed.
Have a great weekend and keep your fingers crossed for me.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Secret
Jess doesnt want me to mention it to anybody until after I see if I get through this wedding tomorrow but my operation is scheduled for Saturday 2nd May as long as I dont have anymore blisters etc.
Visit to doctor a success.
This parking permit I have for 6 months is proving a godsend. Jess was able to park, in Chatswood (very very busy) virtually outside his building. It was also unlimited which is always good because doctors dont run on time.
I have just tried on my ski-boot thingy to wear tomorrow to protect my foot. I will look ridiculous but who cares. This is more important. If I could get out of going to the wedding I would because it is going to be a difficult day with taxis (on Anzac Day!), boats - getting on and off and a wedding party where I will have to sit (strictly no dancing allowed).
Had trouble finding something that fits me anymore because over the past two weeks I have blobbed out. Virtually no exercise and eating pretty much everything. Strange but I am looking forward to returning to my normal life hopefully within the month.
One more week before operation, two weeks in plaster and four weeks in my ski boot for real. At this stage the surgeon said I will be able to weight bear which I know means not walking the dog but hopefully means some movement.
Since all the children have sort of left home (visit often) I downgraded our internet because I thought we didnt need to have so much download stuff. Big mistake. Forgot Mark works from home and I have been visiting lots of those 'Britain you've got talent' sites lately and we have run out of download and are at dialup speed again. How did we ever put up with the slowness. Fought my way back onto the internet and upgraded again but it takes 24 hours. All should be back to normal soon thank goodness.
House is starting to look so good and clean. Study was a challenge and have not really resolved it but it looks better except I've just noticed the windowsill. Today is finishing the lounge and dining room which has proved bigger than I expected and maybe moving on to the family room.
Mark is supposed to ring up and order the new lounge for family room today so everybody keep your fingers crossed that he remembers/has time. If it had have been up to me this lounge would have been ordered in February but sometimes we have to step back and let our other half make a very expensive decision.
Have a great day.
Visit to doctor a success.
This parking permit I have for 6 months is proving a godsend. Jess was able to park, in Chatswood (very very busy) virtually outside his building. It was also unlimited which is always good because doctors dont run on time.
I have just tried on my ski-boot thingy to wear tomorrow to protect my foot. I will look ridiculous but who cares. This is more important. If I could get out of going to the wedding I would because it is going to be a difficult day with taxis (on Anzac Day!), boats - getting on and off and a wedding party where I will have to sit (strictly no dancing allowed).
Had trouble finding something that fits me anymore because over the past two weeks I have blobbed out. Virtually no exercise and eating pretty much everything. Strange but I am looking forward to returning to my normal life hopefully within the month.
One more week before operation, two weeks in plaster and four weeks in my ski boot for real. At this stage the surgeon said I will be able to weight bear which I know means not walking the dog but hopefully means some movement.
Since all the children have sort of left home (visit often) I downgraded our internet because I thought we didnt need to have so much download stuff. Big mistake. Forgot Mark works from home and I have been visiting lots of those 'Britain you've got talent' sites lately and we have run out of download and are at dialup speed again. How did we ever put up with the slowness. Fought my way back onto the internet and upgraded again but it takes 24 hours. All should be back to normal soon thank goodness.
House is starting to look so good and clean. Study was a challenge and have not really resolved it but it looks better except I've just noticed the windowsill. Today is finishing the lounge and dining room which has proved bigger than I expected and maybe moving on to the family room.
Mark is supposed to ring up and order the new lounge for family room today so everybody keep your fingers crossed that he remembers/has time. If it had have been up to me this lounge would have been ordered in February but sometimes we have to step back and let our other half make a very expensive decision.
Have a great day.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Where Do I start?
Am sitting in my study wondering where to start with the decluttering and cleaning.
How on earth did I manage to accumulate so much paper, books, magazines and craft stuff.
This must be the worst room in my house.
Feeling swamped and ready to give up before I start.
Or it could just be the weather and/or pain level.
Oh well, as my daughter says "pump up princess".
Time to start but maybe a cup of tea first.
How on earth did I manage to accumulate so much paper, books, magazines and craft stuff.
This must be the worst room in my house.
Feeling swamped and ready to give up before I start.
Or it could just be the weather and/or pain level.
Oh well, as my daughter says "pump up princess".
Time to start but maybe a cup of tea first.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Just another Tuesday
Am posting late today because woke up very very late after Mark went to work. Lots of pain but found some stronger digesics which seem to have taken the edge of it.
Pain maybe coming from yesterdays Pilates but I doubt it. Dont extend myself too much at the moment and Deb watches me like a hawk to make sure I am okay. She teaches the Menezes method and I have sent away for a DVD of this type of pilates so that I can keep doing it while I hopefully am recuperating - soon.
No word yet. Still tentatively booked for 2nd May.
Talked to the person I have decided to be my personal trainer as soon as the gym lets her have that position. We get on really really well and she knows all about me and is going to work out a rehabilitation program when she is officially a PT. I was going to wait until the gym offered a special on PTs but have decided that as soon as I am able to I am going to recommence exercising. I miss it soooo much.
Gave myself a quick kick up the backside today. I have been letting things slide lately (secretly hoping that someone will pick up the slack) but got in today and vacuumed and dusted our bedroom and the guest room. Moved furniture (dont tell anyone or I could be in big trouble), pulled things out from under the bed etc. Have a huge stack of stuff to go out in council cleanup at the end of the next month. The decluttering is starting to work.
I am wasting time while tonights Biggest Loser records. I cant stand watching it in live time with all the recapping and ads. So I record it and then fast forward. I must admit that this year's bunch are quite nice. Must have been hard for the scriptwriters to drum up any "shock horrors". I suppose Tiff and Bob have been my favourites. The thing I cant stand is the tears but I suppose it must be emotional to be away from loved ones for that long.
Mark is still at work and probably wont be home for another hour or so. He works incredibly long hours either at work or at home. The joys of dealing with people on the other side of the world. He is off to Toulouse on Sunday but will hopefully be home the following Friday.
It is still raining here but not as much. Bad accident at lunchtime on the F3. Truck driver killed. Heard all the sirens, then a police car went down the street and then a helicopter was hovering overhead. Thought something was wrong but not sure what so locked the doors (usually when helicopters are that low they are looking for someone). Jess rang so I asked her what was happening as there had been nothing on the radio and she checked and rang me back with news about the accident. Thought it was cute that I had locked all the doors. I guess I will be show and tell at the station tonight.
I'm off to the nursery tomorrow to buy some more plants to replace 3 that insisted on dying.
Hope you all had a good day today.
Pain maybe coming from yesterdays Pilates but I doubt it. Dont extend myself too much at the moment and Deb watches me like a hawk to make sure I am okay. She teaches the Menezes method and I have sent away for a DVD of this type of pilates so that I can keep doing it while I hopefully am recuperating - soon.
No word yet. Still tentatively booked for 2nd May.
Talked to the person I have decided to be my personal trainer as soon as the gym lets her have that position. We get on really really well and she knows all about me and is going to work out a rehabilitation program when she is officially a PT. I was going to wait until the gym offered a special on PTs but have decided that as soon as I am able to I am going to recommence exercising. I miss it soooo much.
Gave myself a quick kick up the backside today. I have been letting things slide lately (secretly hoping that someone will pick up the slack) but got in today and vacuumed and dusted our bedroom and the guest room. Moved furniture (dont tell anyone or I could be in big trouble), pulled things out from under the bed etc. Have a huge stack of stuff to go out in council cleanup at the end of the next month. The decluttering is starting to work.
I am wasting time while tonights Biggest Loser records. I cant stand watching it in live time with all the recapping and ads. So I record it and then fast forward. I must admit that this year's bunch are quite nice. Must have been hard for the scriptwriters to drum up any "shock horrors". I suppose Tiff and Bob have been my favourites. The thing I cant stand is the tears but I suppose it must be emotional to be away from loved ones for that long.
Mark is still at work and probably wont be home for another hour or so. He works incredibly long hours either at work or at home. The joys of dealing with people on the other side of the world. He is off to Toulouse on Sunday but will hopefully be home the following Friday.
It is still raining here but not as much. Bad accident at lunchtime on the F3. Truck driver killed. Heard all the sirens, then a police car went down the street and then a helicopter was hovering overhead. Thought something was wrong but not sure what so locked the doors (usually when helicopters are that low they are looking for someone). Jess rang so I asked her what was happening as there had been nothing on the radio and she checked and rang me back with news about the accident. Thought it was cute that I had locked all the doors. I guess I will be show and tell at the station tonight.
I'm off to the nursery tomorrow to buy some more plants to replace 3 that insisted on dying.
Hope you all had a good day today.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Another week
We had a good weekend. Friday night was a spur of the moment dinner with friends. Steamed barra, small roasted potatoes and steamed greens and homemade tartare sauce. It was the nices meal I have had for a while.
Saturday I was going to try and get to pilates but Jess needed a new tyre on her car and for some reason was stressing out about having to do organise it. I dont understand her sometimes. Anyway visited one tyre shop and they didnt have it in stock but gave her a price and then came home and I rang around until I found the best price and who also had it in stock. Made appointment for Saturday morning before pilates thinking this wont take long. An hour and a half, two new tyres and a wheel alignment later all thoughts of pilates had disappeared. Oh, and I also paid for them as this was not in her budget. She is good with her budgetting so suggested she might see what she could put away for car maintenance in future.
Went to the rugby on Saturday night. Another lacklustre game. I dont know whether it is the new rules or what but Super 14 rugby is appalling and boring. I cant believe that I made the effort and trust me it was a big effort considering the state of my ankle to go and watch them again but I have decided that we are going to save ourselves $600 odd dollars next year and not bother. We can watch it on TV in the comfort of our own home.
Because of all the unwanted exercise I spent yesterday in bed. And it was a great day to spend in bed too. Raining and blowy. Actually I can hear the rain hitting the deck roof now but unfortunately I have things to do today. So up the painkillers and off I go. Might just finish my rereading of an old favourite book first.
Winter seems to have finally thought about arriving here although it is not that cold. Might dig out the long sleeved tshirts today.
Have a marvellous Monday.
Saturday I was going to try and get to pilates but Jess needed a new tyre on her car and for some reason was stressing out about having to do organise it. I dont understand her sometimes. Anyway visited one tyre shop and they didnt have it in stock but gave her a price and then came home and I rang around until I found the best price and who also had it in stock. Made appointment for Saturday morning before pilates thinking this wont take long. An hour and a half, two new tyres and a wheel alignment later all thoughts of pilates had disappeared. Oh, and I also paid for them as this was not in her budget. She is good with her budgetting so suggested she might see what she could put away for car maintenance in future.
Went to the rugby on Saturday night. Another lacklustre game. I dont know whether it is the new rules or what but Super 14 rugby is appalling and boring. I cant believe that I made the effort and trust me it was a big effort considering the state of my ankle to go and watch them again but I have decided that we are going to save ourselves $600 odd dollars next year and not bother. We can watch it on TV in the comfort of our own home.
Because of all the unwanted exercise I spent yesterday in bed. And it was a great day to spend in bed too. Raining and blowy. Actually I can hear the rain hitting the deck roof now but unfortunately I have things to do today. So up the painkillers and off I go. Might just finish my rereading of an old favourite book first.
Winter seems to have finally thought about arriving here although it is not that cold. Might dig out the long sleeved tshirts today.
Have a marvellous Monday.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Best not talk about it
Went to weight watchers last night. Recorded loss of 100g but I manipulated the figures. I usually wear my sneakers but I wore thongs instead. I have probably put weight on but we wont talk about that. I miss exercising so much especially now that the weather has turned autumnal (that may be a made up word).
Last night was not a good night food wise again and the wine wagon fell on me again. I am either going to have to go to bed at 7 or work out a strategy to get me through this time of night. Suggestions welcomed.
My google reader count is steadily going down. It was up to a massive 198 but now down to well under 100. The only thing that stops me is that it keeps playing up and signing me out so after a while I give up for the day.
A friend called in yesterday and I was talking about my efforts to reduce the number of magazines lying around the house and how I didnt seem to be able to just recycle them. I had to flick through them again and pull out recipes, hints etc that "might come in handy". I am going to have to now go through this pile again too as it is growing quite large. She was the same but she also said that it had dawned on her that she could probably find a recipe on the internet so why was she clipping recipes. Good point.
I emailed the builder about the extra project we wanted done. His wife said he was lying in the corner of the room in a foetal position sobbing. Apparently he has more work than he needs which is great for him but not so good for me. I may have to kidnap him.
Spoke to my resident handyman about changing my study around and lowering benches. Seems willing to comply. Of course I would like it to happen this weekend but I think I have Buckleys. I have decided that I have just about finished folkarting. I have a couple of projects to finish and that will be that but I dont want to give up the group. So I may take my embroidery with me sometime and just sit and sip tea, sew and chat.
Further jobs accomplished yesterday - glass jars to pickle lady at local markets, box of surplus mugs to Lifeline and clothes that had been bagged and dumped in lounge room months ago finally sent to charity bins and of course, more mags disposed of.
Another beautiful day here - planning gym session with the weights and grocery shopping and coffee with Jess. She is working at the Show this afternoon. Pilates tomorrow morning (new instructor) and rugby tomorrow night.
Have a good weekend.
Last night was not a good night food wise again and the wine wagon fell on me again. I am either going to have to go to bed at 7 or work out a strategy to get me through this time of night. Suggestions welcomed.
My google reader count is steadily going down. It was up to a massive 198 but now down to well under 100. The only thing that stops me is that it keeps playing up and signing me out so after a while I give up for the day.
A friend called in yesterday and I was talking about my efforts to reduce the number of magazines lying around the house and how I didnt seem to be able to just recycle them. I had to flick through them again and pull out recipes, hints etc that "might come in handy". I am going to have to now go through this pile again too as it is growing quite large. She was the same but she also said that it had dawned on her that she could probably find a recipe on the internet so why was she clipping recipes. Good point.
I emailed the builder about the extra project we wanted done. His wife said he was lying in the corner of the room in a foetal position sobbing. Apparently he has more work than he needs which is great for him but not so good for me. I may have to kidnap him.
Spoke to my resident handyman about changing my study around and lowering benches. Seems willing to comply. Of course I would like it to happen this weekend but I think I have Buckleys. I have decided that I have just about finished folkarting. I have a couple of projects to finish and that will be that but I dont want to give up the group. So I may take my embroidery with me sometime and just sit and sip tea, sew and chat.
Further jobs accomplished yesterday - glass jars to pickle lady at local markets, box of surplus mugs to Lifeline and clothes that had been bagged and dumped in lounge room months ago finally sent to charity bins and of course, more mags disposed of.
Another beautiful day here - planning gym session with the weights and grocery shopping and coffee with Jess. She is working at the Show this afternoon. Pilates tomorrow morning (new instructor) and rugby tomorrow night.
Have a good weekend.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Cold roast potatoes with spicy tomato sauce....
Cold roast potatoes with spicy tomato sauce, 2 slices of pumpkin seed bread, orange slice and shortbread cream. Yesterday or more importantly from 6 pm onwards was not a good day and my stomach didn't think so either. Am still paying for these indiscretions. Enough said!
Went back to GP. She couldn't believe what had happened to me. Quite comical now. Results of monthly blood test show that I am anemic (although I was taking 2 iron tablets a day), low sodium and low protein levels. Have to eat more protein because protein reduces swelling apparently and have to get my iron levels back up somehow or I may need a blood transfusion when I eventually make the operating theatre.
Actually got into the garden for a little while yesterday. Just doing some judicious pruning. Not sure whether it is the right time to be doing it but looks tidier.
Visited the gym. Just did strength training - upper body plus some stomach crunching and stretches. I think it was the gym session you have when you aren't having a gym session - a Clayton's gym session.
More magazines hit the recycled bin. Even though I did tear out a few more pages yesterday than previously have done will go through those pages today and probably cull. I always have good intentions about these articles or recipes but in all fact life is usually too busy to revisit them and I forget about them.
Finished the Demon crossword in this month's Lovatts BIG Crossword book.
Had coffee with Jess.
Got rid of some clothes in the charity bins. Still more to take but Mark has stuffed them in a big big bag which I can hardly lift so will have to make some smaller bags.
As you can see, life is very slow and fairly relaxed at the moment. Boring to some but to me it is really bliss. I am normally so busy and so tired that I can barely function so I am enjoying this time immensely. My sister wants me to come to Queensland, my girlfriend wants me to come to the Gold Coast but I have thanked them all for their kind invitations but I am going nowhere. I am happy to be at home and since I am briefly back on my meds, even Mark has remarked on the fact that the permanently pained look has gone from my face. Mind you it will be back next week when meds stop again in preparation for surgery but I am determined to take it easy. I am not going to jeopardise another chance. Slippers or sneakers is my mantra now.
Happy days to you all.
Went back to GP. She couldn't believe what had happened to me. Quite comical now. Results of monthly blood test show that I am anemic (although I was taking 2 iron tablets a day), low sodium and low protein levels. Have to eat more protein because protein reduces swelling apparently and have to get my iron levels back up somehow or I may need a blood transfusion when I eventually make the operating theatre.
Actually got into the garden for a little while yesterday. Just doing some judicious pruning. Not sure whether it is the right time to be doing it but looks tidier.
Visited the gym. Just did strength training - upper body plus some stomach crunching and stretches. I think it was the gym session you have when you aren't having a gym session - a Clayton's gym session.
More magazines hit the recycled bin. Even though I did tear out a few more pages yesterday than previously have done will go through those pages today and probably cull. I always have good intentions about these articles or recipes but in all fact life is usually too busy to revisit them and I forget about them.
Finished the Demon crossword in this month's Lovatts BIG Crossword book.
Had coffee with Jess.
Got rid of some clothes in the charity bins. Still more to take but Mark has stuffed them in a big big bag which I can hardly lift so will have to make some smaller bags.
As you can see, life is very slow and fairly relaxed at the moment. Boring to some but to me it is really bliss. I am normally so busy and so tired that I can barely function so I am enjoying this time immensely. My sister wants me to come to Queensland, my girlfriend wants me to come to the Gold Coast but I have thanked them all for their kind invitations but I am going nowhere. I am happy to be at home and since I am briefly back on my meds, even Mark has remarked on the fact that the permanently pained look has gone from my face. Mind you it will be back next week when meds stop again in preparation for surgery but I am determined to take it easy. I am not going to jeopardise another chance. Slippers or sneakers is my mantra now.
Happy days to you all.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Holidays - Bliss
You can tell I'm on holidays - I have lots of time to do stuff. The days are beautiful (sometimes still a bit too hot and humid - it is April after all) and I love being at home.
Have deferred all my deferrals for a couple of weeks until next attempt at operation.
Yesterday's baby step was okay. A couple of very thinly sliced homemade bread with a little bit of butter was my biggest sin. No wine - Day 2.
Lots of little jobs done:
More magazines into the recycling bin
Light bulbs replaced and glass covers washed
Kitchen benches tidied up so I have more room to spread out when I am cooking
Pencil/pen container near phone cleaned out (the stuff that gets shoved in here is mind boggling)
House generally tidied and things put away.
Finally sent our tax papers back to the accountant
Things I would like to purchase this holidays (but maybe not):
A dehumidifier for the house
A new sewing machine
A small camera
A new computer (working on the powers that be for this one)
Have a happy day!
A
Onwards and upwards today.
Have deferred all my deferrals for a couple of weeks until next attempt at operation.
Yesterday's baby step was okay. A couple of very thinly sliced homemade bread with a little bit of butter was my biggest sin. No wine - Day 2.
Lots of little jobs done:
More magazines into the recycling bin
Light bulbs replaced and glass covers washed
Kitchen benches tidied up so I have more room to spread out when I am cooking
Pencil/pen container near phone cleaned out (the stuff that gets shoved in here is mind boggling)
House generally tidied and things put away.
Finally sent our tax papers back to the accountant
Things I would like to purchase this holidays (but maybe not):
A dehumidifier for the house
A new sewing machine
A small camera
A new computer (working on the powers that be for this one)
Have a happy day!
A
Onwards and upwards today.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
A Baby Step
After three days of trying unsuccessfully to get myself back on track I was finally successful yesterday. I felt good that I managed it but I physically felt sick. Now this may sound strange but I know it was my body trying to trick me again. Whenever I feel nauseau I eat carbs and everything settles down. I dont know why it happens and I dont know why I do it but it is a cycle I have fallen into. Anyway I survived Day 1 - here I go on Day 2.
Have worked out my meals for this week and hopefully will be able to follow it without too many spanners being thrown into the works.
Am going to have to sort out all my deferrals from the gym and weight watchers. See if I can defer the defferals for a couple of weeks.
Sore on foot is healing well and should be gone by time of next appointment with surgeon. I am afraid I am a sneaker and ugg boot girl from now until I reach hospital except for the wedding in a couple of weeks where I will wear my skiboot thingey to protect my foot. I am now officially paranoid.
Am using this time to sort out a few things. Have finally signed my tax and all ready to be posted off today. Getting rid of magazines that I have kept for years. Being ruthless. Still having a look through them before trashing but am pulling less things out. I love recipes but know I will never get to cook half of them so what is the point and nowadays there is always the internet.
Have told builder what we would like in the bathroom. Awaiting his response. We may have to defer this project a couple of weeks too as cant quite comprehend foot in plaster, crutches and no bathroom.
Happy Easter Tuesday everyone. Many many moons ago (and I am showing my age now) this used to be childrens day at the Royal Easter Show. Have a great day.
Have worked out my meals for this week and hopefully will be able to follow it without too many spanners being thrown into the works.
Am going to have to sort out all my deferrals from the gym and weight watchers. See if I can defer the defferals for a couple of weeks.
Sore on foot is healing well and should be gone by time of next appointment with surgeon. I am afraid I am a sneaker and ugg boot girl from now until I reach hospital except for the wedding in a couple of weeks where I will wear my skiboot thingey to protect my foot. I am now officially paranoid.
Am using this time to sort out a few things. Have finally signed my tax and all ready to be posted off today. Getting rid of magazines that I have kept for years. Being ruthless. Still having a look through them before trashing but am pulling less things out. I love recipes but know I will never get to cook half of them so what is the point and nowadays there is always the internet.
Have told builder what we would like in the bathroom. Awaiting his response. We may have to defer this project a couple of weeks too as cant quite comprehend foot in plaster, crutches and no bathroom.
Happy Easter Tuesday everyone. Many many moons ago (and I am showing my age now) this used to be childrens day at the Royal Easter Show. Have a great day.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Update - Bad News
Hey guys
Bad News
Arrived at hospital today at 6 a.m. for operation. They couldn't do it.
Had a sore on my foot from my foot being so swollen that shoe rubbed skin off. Not worth the infection potential to my ankle.
I was so disappointed and in tears but I knew deep down it was the right decision. Shit I need this ankle so that I can at least start walking again eventually.
The hospital staff was wonderful and of course my surgeon was diligent. Anyone in Sydney area needs a good foot and ankle surgeon let me know. I can recommend one.
My daughter drove me there this morning and has stayed with me all day. God how did I manage to have such a wonderful person.
For a while it looked bleak (and might still be). Surgeon is booked out until after June but he is trying to arrange "out of hours" surgery time, maybe on Saturday 2nd May. Foot will be hopefully healed by then. Slippers are the derigeur footwear from now till then.
I have a wedding to go to but Jess and I discussed it today and I am going to wear my skibootie thingy to protect my ankle and foot and a normal shoe on the left foot.
I have been slack as far as the diet has gone but as of tomorrow I will be back on the wagon again. To use an Oprah phrase "I think the wagon fell on me" during the past two weeks. I am going to weight myself tonight so I once again have a starting point. I had suspended my weight watchers membership but will give them a ring on Tuesday and try on work it out. Also my gym.
I was at work until some ungodly hour last night organising everything for the next month but the way things stand at the moment after the school holidays I will work a week and then have a month at least off.
Anyway, just an update. Am going to take it easy and will catch up with everyone soon. Expect a lot of comments on old blogs. I have a lot of reading to do.
Love to you all.
Bad News
Arrived at hospital today at 6 a.m. for operation. They couldn't do it.
Had a sore on my foot from my foot being so swollen that shoe rubbed skin off. Not worth the infection potential to my ankle.
I was so disappointed and in tears but I knew deep down it was the right decision. Shit I need this ankle so that I can at least start walking again eventually.
The hospital staff was wonderful and of course my surgeon was diligent. Anyone in Sydney area needs a good foot and ankle surgeon let me know. I can recommend one.
My daughter drove me there this morning and has stayed with me all day. God how did I manage to have such a wonderful person.
For a while it looked bleak (and might still be). Surgeon is booked out until after June but he is trying to arrange "out of hours" surgery time, maybe on Saturday 2nd May. Foot will be hopefully healed by then. Slippers are the derigeur footwear from now till then.
I have a wedding to go to but Jess and I discussed it today and I am going to wear my skibootie thingy to protect my ankle and foot and a normal shoe on the left foot.
I have been slack as far as the diet has gone but as of tomorrow I will be back on the wagon again. To use an Oprah phrase "I think the wagon fell on me" during the past two weeks. I am going to weight myself tonight so I once again have a starting point. I had suspended my weight watchers membership but will give them a ring on Tuesday and try on work it out. Also my gym.
I was at work until some ungodly hour last night organising everything for the next month but the way things stand at the moment after the school holidays I will work a week and then have a month at least off.
Anyway, just an update. Am going to take it easy and will catch up with everyone soon. Expect a lot of comments on old blogs. I have a lot of reading to do.
Love to you all.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Apologies
Hey guys, I can only say sorry for not blogging or reading lately. I am so focussed on losing weight (not always successfully), trying to fit in exercise, bringing all at work uptodate and more, getting my house in order before I go into hospital that there are just not enough hours in the day.
Anne I hope everything is going well with Peter.
Zanna, everytime I hear something about RioTinto I worry about you.
Suzy, you caring makes me smile.
Jen, I hope your son is behaving himself and everything is fine on your side of the country.
Molly, I miss your photographs.
Linda, I hope you have found your dream job.
The good news is I will soon have unlimited time to catch up and read. Expect lots of comments. I will be two weeks in plaster and then back into my big skiboot. I am so looking forward to being about to lie around for a month. Mind you nothing will get done at home and not sure how we will survive food wise but I dont care at this moment.
Must be off, boss has just rung in with urgent email to go now.
Anne I hope everything is going well with Peter.
Zanna, everytime I hear something about RioTinto I worry about you.
Suzy, you caring makes me smile.
Jen, I hope your son is behaving himself and everything is fine on your side of the country.
Molly, I miss your photographs.
Linda, I hope you have found your dream job.
The good news is I will soon have unlimited time to catch up and read. Expect lots of comments. I will be two weeks in plaster and then back into my big skiboot. I am so looking forward to being about to lie around for a month. Mind you nothing will get done at home and not sure how we will survive food wise but I dont care at this moment.
Must be off, boss has just rung in with urgent email to go now.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Patience
Sorry I have been a bit slack lately but I have been catching up and reading lots and lots of blogs. Interesting blogs, old friends blogs, about food, about weight loss, about life. I dont always comment but I am there. Probably could be classed as lurking but I try not to.
I have been busy at work trying to get everything done before I go into hospital. Only four weeks to go now and am looking forward to the rest. Trying to keep up with friends, exercise and doing the bare minimum in housework, keeping up to date with the ironing and washing and the biggest loser. My Foxtel IQ is chockablock full of programs I have recorded but not had time to watch.
Weight loss has slowed down but still happening and that is my fault. Too many social engagements where I cant or dont say no. Enjoying the Weight Watchers meetings and am making an effort to stay after I weigh-in as I like the leader and I find the people (wont say women because there are a few men there too which surprised me) inspiring.
I have to understand that it is going to take time to get this small amount of weight off. I have to have patience. I also have to get into the mindset that I am worth it. I am not depriving myself by not eating junk food (chippies hmmmmm) or drinking wine (have switched to low alcohol). I am making a choice or at least trying to. My body doesnt need it - my mind does.
Latest hurdle is waking up in the middle of the night hungry. I drink water, have a half a cup of warm skim milk and sometimes eat a biscuit or a slice of bread or some potato chips. (I didnt bring that last temptation into the house for obvious reasons.) I know I dont need it but I do it anyway. And then..... I get annoyed with myself. Move on I say, but it will happen again tomorrow night and the next and the next. Maybe my hormone meds need tweeking.
Enough whining more wining - damn no, that's what got me in this little mess in the first place and I havent even mentioned my love of cheese.
Wandering off into the sunset......
I have been busy at work trying to get everything done before I go into hospital. Only four weeks to go now and am looking forward to the rest. Trying to keep up with friends, exercise and doing the bare minimum in housework, keeping up to date with the ironing and washing and the biggest loser. My Foxtel IQ is chockablock full of programs I have recorded but not had time to watch.
Weight loss has slowed down but still happening and that is my fault. Too many social engagements where I cant or dont say no. Enjoying the Weight Watchers meetings and am making an effort to stay after I weigh-in as I like the leader and I find the people (wont say women because there are a few men there too which surprised me) inspiring.
I have to understand that it is going to take time to get this small amount of weight off. I have to have patience. I also have to get into the mindset that I am worth it. I am not depriving myself by not eating junk food (chippies hmmmmm) or drinking wine (have switched to low alcohol). I am making a choice or at least trying to. My body doesnt need it - my mind does.
Latest hurdle is waking up in the middle of the night hungry. I drink water, have a half a cup of warm skim milk and sometimes eat a biscuit or a slice of bread or some potato chips. (I didnt bring that last temptation into the house for obvious reasons.) I know I dont need it but I do it anyway. And then..... I get annoyed with myself. Move on I say, but it will happen again tomorrow night and the next and the next. Maybe my hormone meds need tweeking.
Enough whining more wining - damn no, that's what got me in this little mess in the first place and I havent even mentioned my love of cheese.
Wandering off into the sunset......
Friday, February 13, 2009
Biggest Loser Synopsis
I love this series.
There are so many nice people on this show this time.
Amanda is my favourite. She is the person I call to mind when I am at the gym and dont think I can finish my set. Bloody Hell! This woman can do it, so the bloody hell I can I.
People I like (who cares?)
Teresa
Bob
Meagan and Julie
The younger of the brothers, Andrew I think (the older may win them the series)
Amanda and Shaun (the hold hands all the time and I am so impressed by her determination)
I have just watched nearly a whole week of BL. Girls night by myself. Mark watching rugby with workmates. Me drank wine tonight. Did ironing.
This year they appear so more positive then they have in previous years.
Anyway in Sydney it is pouring with rain. I have once again put it out to the universe to send something to Victoria to help them. I am at the point when I cant read anymore about the fires. The mega money that has been donated and the govt assistance better get to them fast and the insurance companies had better step up and the banks better back off.
Anyway I have lost another 900 g this week. I know it doesnt work for everyone but weight watchers seems to work for me. I know how to do it but I need the meetings. My goal is to reduce my weight so when I am on crutches I dont have too much weight to carry around.
In three weeks I have managed 2.8kg (not boasting) it has been extremely hard.
Bought a Wii this week. I know I know I got a WiiFit for Christmas but as you all probably know I am a luddite. Anyway, the kids wil turn up and sort it out for me or else I will step up and work it out myself.
Anyway, BL has finally finished for this week. Am catching up on Desperate Housewives now.
Should really go and sort out my house. Grocery shopping everywhere, ironing finished (hallelujah), washing half done and drying (because it is raining) quarter done.
Guys I will catch up with you all this weekend I promise (rainy Sunday forecast). I am either so slack or bloody busy trying to stay fit, run a house (more badly than I have ever done before) and work full time.
But life is wonderful at the moment (scary to say that) and I hope you all are in a similar position.
PS: Jess's partner has found a job and started this week. So proud in these difficult times, she loves him so much. This may be the start of something big. Keep fingers crossed.
There are so many nice people on this show this time.
Amanda is my favourite. She is the person I call to mind when I am at the gym and dont think I can finish my set. Bloody Hell! This woman can do it, so the bloody hell I can I.
People I like (who cares?)
Teresa
Bob
Meagan and Julie
The younger of the brothers, Andrew I think (the older may win them the series)
Amanda and Shaun (the hold hands all the time and I am so impressed by her determination)
I have just watched nearly a whole week of BL. Girls night by myself. Mark watching rugby with workmates. Me drank wine tonight. Did ironing.
This year they appear so more positive then they have in previous years.
Anyway in Sydney it is pouring with rain. I have once again put it out to the universe to send something to Victoria to help them. I am at the point when I cant read anymore about the fires. The mega money that has been donated and the govt assistance better get to them fast and the insurance companies had better step up and the banks better back off.
Anyway I have lost another 900 g this week. I know it doesnt work for everyone but weight watchers seems to work for me. I know how to do it but I need the meetings. My goal is to reduce my weight so when I am on crutches I dont have too much weight to carry around.
In three weeks I have managed 2.8kg (not boasting) it has been extremely hard.
Bought a Wii this week. I know I know I got a WiiFit for Christmas but as you all probably know I am a luddite. Anyway, the kids wil turn up and sort it out for me or else I will step up and work it out myself.
Anyway, BL has finally finished for this week. Am catching up on Desperate Housewives now.
Should really go and sort out my house. Grocery shopping everywhere, ironing finished (hallelujah), washing half done and drying (because it is raining) quarter done.
Guys I will catch up with you all this weekend I promise (rainy Sunday forecast). I am either so slack or bloody busy trying to stay fit, run a house (more badly than I have ever done before) and work full time.
But life is wonderful at the moment (scary to say that) and I hope you all are in a similar position.
PS: Jess's partner has found a job and started this week. So proud in these difficult times, she loves him so much. This may be the start of something big. Keep fingers crossed.
Friday, February 06, 2009
The Universe
I know this will sound sort of loopy but about a week ago, on the spur of the moment, I addressed the Universe on behalf of my daughter and her partner. He desperately needed to find a job, had applied for lots and lots of jobs with few responses and my baby was starting to stress with carrying the burden of being the sole wage earner.
Well.....
the interview started, and today he was offered a job. I am so happy for them although I think they are considering moving closer to the city (and further from me).
Lost another 500g this week even though I went out to a work dinner on Tuesday night and ate and drank everything that was put in front of me. I was a bit worried because I thought I had blown it but two days of back on track helped. I was hoping for just maintaining but a loss was a bonus.
I know how to do this (I am sure we all do) so why do I keep ambushing myself? It's like: I lost 500g this week I can have a glass of wine with dinner tonight. 'bout time I realised the implications.
Anyway the other good news is that I fitted back into my skinny black jeans (could get them over my thighs). Of course I had to wear a loose top as there was still a bit of muffintop going on but hey, I was so happy.
Ankle operation has been put forward to 2nd April. Got the paperwork yesterday.
Mark has said that I can order the lounge I want. The problem is me. It is soooo expensive. He said get what I want this time. The builder is coming tomorrow to talk about the renovations. All happening in our household.
Looks like it is going to be a scorcher this weekend. Temps in the 30s and 40s. I know I will regret this statement in August but I am so over summer and we still have February to go. Looking forward to autumn - my favourite season.
Hope everyone has had a great week and will have a great weekend too. My wish for you all.
Well.....
the interview started, and today he was offered a job. I am so happy for them although I think they are considering moving closer to the city (and further from me).
Lost another 500g this week even though I went out to a work dinner on Tuesday night and ate and drank everything that was put in front of me. I was a bit worried because I thought I had blown it but two days of back on track helped. I was hoping for just maintaining but a loss was a bonus.
I know how to do this (I am sure we all do) so why do I keep ambushing myself? It's like: I lost 500g this week I can have a glass of wine with dinner tonight. 'bout time I realised the implications.
Anyway the other good news is that I fitted back into my skinny black jeans (could get them over my thighs). Of course I had to wear a loose top as there was still a bit of muffintop going on but hey, I was so happy.
Ankle operation has been put forward to 2nd April. Got the paperwork yesterday.
Mark has said that I can order the lounge I want. The problem is me. It is soooo expensive. He said get what I want this time. The builder is coming tomorrow to talk about the renovations. All happening in our household.
Looks like it is going to be a scorcher this weekend. Temps in the 30s and 40s. I know I will regret this statement in August but I am so over summer and we still have February to go. Looking forward to autumn - my favourite season.
Hope everyone has had a great week and will have a great weekend too. My wish for you all.
Friday, January 30, 2009
The week that was plus more
Well, you could have knocked me over with a feather. Mark actually suggested that we go looking at lounges on Australia Day. I suppose there is a first for everything. So off we went to King Furniture and even though they are horrendously priced I knew he would love the construction (engineers are like that). We had a great time with a great salesperson who wasnt too pushy and left with leather samples and catalogues. Much measuring later (Mark measuring not me) and I sent off an email last night with a request for a new price because the suite we had liked was a bit too big so just awaiting that and step one in the remodelling of the family room has been completed. It wont be delivered until after Easter but that will fit in with the plans for knocking walls out and polishing floors (I hope).
Back at work this week after 5 weeks holiday and chaos has reigned. My office looks like a cyclone has blown through it and I dont work well in mess but at the moment both work and home offices are disgraceful. Didnt help that I had to take a day off for a first aid course so actually only worked three days and got pulled off normal work today to work on another project. I have a headache!
Good news - no injection this week. Side effects becoming too great so GP refused to give it to me. So nice not to be the one pulling the plug on this stuff this time. Off today to have more blood tests to see what damaged has been done if any. But for the first Friday in months feel human.
Lost 1.4kgs this week.
Jess and I saw Marley and Me last week and cried ourselves silly. A lovely movie. Mark and I finally got to see Gran Torino on Sunday after months of waiting for it to be released in Australia. I will have to buy it for him when it comes out on DVD he really enjoyed it but then he is a rabid Clint Eastwood fan.
Had lunch with Catherine aka Caramel KitKat when we went to IKEA. This gorgeous woman is moving to Melbourne so I can only say it is Sydney's loss. Jess came with me and I dont know what she was expecting (yes I do, someone my age) but she thought Catherine was a stunner. Mind you so did I - she is looking so well. Thanks Catherine for taking the time to catch up and come out in that terrible heat.
I am back to being slack again with reading blogs just because I am a bit time poor at the moment and as mentioned before dont work well in chaos so I am going to instigate lists again until I can get back on top of the stuff at home and keep in contact with everyone at the same time.
My gym program is fairly basic at the moment but I am trying to go everyday. Doing cycling to get some cardio into my routine every day (sometimes easy and long or sometimes short and hard) and weights twice a week. Pilates and yoga once a week and on Sunday I am going to try to go swimming unless we have to go out. I dont know what else I can do. Hopefully I will be able to walk again after the op.
Now to put everything I have written into practice must go and do housework. Have a great weekend.
Back at work this week after 5 weeks holiday and chaos has reigned. My office looks like a cyclone has blown through it and I dont work well in mess but at the moment both work and home offices are disgraceful. Didnt help that I had to take a day off for a first aid course so actually only worked three days and got pulled off normal work today to work on another project. I have a headache!
Good news - no injection this week. Side effects becoming too great so GP refused to give it to me. So nice not to be the one pulling the plug on this stuff this time. Off today to have more blood tests to see what damaged has been done if any. But for the first Friday in months feel human.
Lost 1.4kgs this week.
Jess and I saw Marley and Me last week and cried ourselves silly. A lovely movie. Mark and I finally got to see Gran Torino on Sunday after months of waiting for it to be released in Australia. I will have to buy it for him when it comes out on DVD he really enjoyed it but then he is a rabid Clint Eastwood fan.
Had lunch with Catherine aka Caramel KitKat when we went to IKEA. This gorgeous woman is moving to Melbourne so I can only say it is Sydney's loss. Jess came with me and I dont know what she was expecting (yes I do, someone my age) but she thought Catherine was a stunner. Mind you so did I - she is looking so well. Thanks Catherine for taking the time to catch up and come out in that terrible heat.
I am back to being slack again with reading blogs just because I am a bit time poor at the moment and as mentioned before dont work well in chaos so I am going to instigate lists again until I can get back on top of the stuff at home and keep in contact with everyone at the same time.
My gym program is fairly basic at the moment but I am trying to go everyday. Doing cycling to get some cardio into my routine every day (sometimes easy and long or sometimes short and hard) and weights twice a week. Pilates and yoga once a week and on Sunday I am going to try to go swimming unless we have to go out. I dont know what else I can do. Hopefully I will be able to walk again after the op.
Now to put everything I have written into practice must go and do housework. Have a great weekend.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
A Lunching Lady
Sorry if I appear to have dropped off the edge of the earth but I have been a lunching lady for January. I have caught up with stacks of people, heard their news, imparted mine and just generally chilled.
All coming to an end next Tuesday when I finally return to work. In a funny way I am looking forward to it I think.
Anyway my news:
Finally went to seek ankle doctor yesterday (cant remember what they are actually called). Lovely man, not so lovely news.
As of 9th April I am going into hospital for an ankle replacement. Bummer that it is at Easter but that was how the dates worked out. I'll be in plaster for two weeks and then into my big ski boot thingey (great that I get to use it again). Have asked to go into rehabilitation locally when I get into hospital and that is dependant on me getting some scooter chair to support my leg. Dont ask me why but I will have to arrange with friends who live at Bondi to get it for me because that is the only place I can hire it from.
Bad news is that apparently it will take me 6 to 12 months to recover so our trip to Europe will have to be deferred once again until next year. Also bad news is that I will have to give myself injections daily for a while to counteract DVT which is scarey but I am sure I will be able to do it. Not much choice actually.
Weight has gone up and down but stayed basically the same which is not good because it was too much but I will just keep trying and hopefully I can fit back into my jeans by winter.
Re previous topic of grumpy old men - well I told my darling this morning that he was "a bad tempered prick" and that is a direct quote. I became a grumpy old woman and surprising he turned into a nice person again. I have had enough of grumpiness and walking on eggshells so that I dont upset the equilibrium. I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR! and if someone is going to act like a spoiled child they will be treated like a spoiled child.
Im off to read everyone else news now, have a good long weekend Australians...
All coming to an end next Tuesday when I finally return to work. In a funny way I am looking forward to it I think.
Anyway my news:
Finally went to seek ankle doctor yesterday (cant remember what they are actually called). Lovely man, not so lovely news.
As of 9th April I am going into hospital for an ankle replacement. Bummer that it is at Easter but that was how the dates worked out. I'll be in plaster for two weeks and then into my big ski boot thingey (great that I get to use it again). Have asked to go into rehabilitation locally when I get into hospital and that is dependant on me getting some scooter chair to support my leg. Dont ask me why but I will have to arrange with friends who live at Bondi to get it for me because that is the only place I can hire it from.
Bad news is that apparently it will take me 6 to 12 months to recover so our trip to Europe will have to be deferred once again until next year. Also bad news is that I will have to give myself injections daily for a while to counteract DVT which is scarey but I am sure I will be able to do it. Not much choice actually.
Weight has gone up and down but stayed basically the same which is not good because it was too much but I will just keep trying and hopefully I can fit back into my jeans by winter.
Re previous topic of grumpy old men - well I told my darling this morning that he was "a bad tempered prick" and that is a direct quote. I became a grumpy old woman and surprising he turned into a nice person again. I have had enough of grumpiness and walking on eggshells so that I dont upset the equilibrium. I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR! and if someone is going to act like a spoiled child they will be treated like a spoiled child.
Im off to read everyone else news now, have a good long weekend Australians...
Friday, January 02, 2009
Happy New Year
Well I seemed to have survived yet another New Years Eve.
7 hours of solid partying (when will I remember how old and infirmed I am) and a day spent sleeping and recovering.
On New Years Eve finally got around to buying Shauna's book - The Amazing
Adventures of Dietgirl. This amazing woman has realised something that even though I kind of know it too, still hasnt sunk into my head properly.
Just eat well, exercise to the best of your ability (I especially like the vampire training method) and dont give yourself a trip to guiltsville when you do, allow yourself some leeway. It is not the end of the world.
I really really recommend reading this book - beg, borrow or steal - no dont do any of these because she wont get any royalities. It is uplifting and inspiring.
So what am I going to do different this year - well for a start, no resolutions. They only make me feel bad when I dont keep them.
I am going to try and jump off this diet mousewheel I have been on for nearly 40 years. Really it has been feast or famine, literally. I just have to not eat mindlessly for no reason (how's that for bad grammar)! It is my choice.
I am going to try and learn how to meditate - damn this little grasshopper mind of mine. Never lets up! Apparently, according to the Mayo clinic, I can use the mind to control pain. Hey we all know that really, look at childbirth and that wonderful breathing technique. Still use it to this day when something is hurting.
And that's it. May 2009 be a year that all the little mousie treadmills fall over and we all learn to just enjoy life as it happens. Mind you this is a big call coming from this super control freak but I will try.......
7 hours of solid partying (when will I remember how old and infirmed I am) and a day spent sleeping and recovering.
On New Years Eve finally got around to buying Shauna's book - The Amazing
Adventures of Dietgirl. This amazing woman has realised something that even though I kind of know it too, still hasnt sunk into my head properly.
Just eat well, exercise to the best of your ability (I especially like the vampire training method) and dont give yourself a trip to guiltsville when you do, allow yourself some leeway. It is not the end of the world.
I really really recommend reading this book - beg, borrow or steal - no dont do any of these because she wont get any royalities. It is uplifting and inspiring.
So what am I going to do different this year - well for a start, no resolutions. They only make me feel bad when I dont keep them.
I am going to try and jump off this diet mousewheel I have been on for nearly 40 years. Really it has been feast or famine, literally. I just have to not eat mindlessly for no reason (how's that for bad grammar)! It is my choice.
I am going to try and learn how to meditate - damn this little grasshopper mind of mine. Never lets up! Apparently, according to the Mayo clinic, I can use the mind to control pain. Hey we all know that really, look at childbirth and that wonderful breathing technique. Still use it to this day when something is hurting.
And that's it. May 2009 be a year that all the little mousie treadmills fall over and we all learn to just enjoy life as it happens. Mind you this is a big call coming from this super control freak but I will try.......
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Busy bee
Have been confined to my study today finalising our tax. Boring. I dont think I am too late. Only time will tell. Will drop it off to accountant tomorrow on my next expedition into the local shopping centre. Already have a long list of things to do within my 3 hours parking limit.
Over the last week have put on 700g. Damn Damn Damn. Will I never learn - I can be such a moron sometimes.
I am taking Lucy the Wonderdog for a walk nearly every day although she now walks faster than me, the little show off. And I have to remember to take painkillers before I go and hope they work. Must remember to take mobile phone with me in future in case I need rescuing. Lucy the Wonderdog not up to going for help like RinTinTin or Lassie used to.
Am also trying to swim everyday - gradually increasing laps everytime in readiness for Sunday swimming when private big pool reopens when school starts. Doing aqua exercises too (supplied by Anne) but havent actually got around to using flotation belt yet. Another box to open.
Also havent had time to open WiiFit yet.
Visited Officeworks yesterday - bliss - a stationery store. Bought a new chair for study and guess what, they come in flat packs. It took me forever to put the bloody thing together but I was determined to do it ON MY OWN. This is not rocket science (much muttering and occasional swearing) but it took me forever and I really needed another set of hands a one stage but I managed on the lounge with cushions stacked under it. Put arms on the wrong way first but ended up with it all together and no pieces left over.
I also bought pretty lime green star paper clips, bright orange pack of pocket files, a new file holder, a fake plant (I know, I know - but I cant kill this one and it looked so stylish in the shop), a pack of reduced Christmas cards, print cartridges and a red stamp pad for next Christmas. All in all a satisfying trip. Also on the agenda soon is my yearly trip to IKEA.
Have gone through the Target sale catalogue and highlighted all the DVDs I want to buy that have been reduced. Plus new quilt cover for spare room.
Beloved daughter away with friends until after new year but we had the future son-in-law for dinner last night. He drove up the coast today to surprise her. She wasnt expecting him until late on new years eve. They are going to a fancy dress on new years eve - she is a giant strawberry and he is spartacus (its an S party).
I am catching up with all the unread posts on googlereader. Only 60 odd left. Sigh.
Anyway my lovelies I had better get this study sorted out a bit and I have promised to do some ironing today. The husband had to actually iron his own shirt this morning and while he did a good job it took him forever. The alarm kept going off on the iron and I thought something was wrong but I think it was just taking him an age to arrange the shirt properly on the ironing board so that he could iron it and the iron kept thinking that it had been forgotten. LOL.
Im waffling again - catch up with you all soon and have a wonderful New Years Eve.
Over the last week have put on 700g. Damn Damn Damn. Will I never learn - I can be such a moron sometimes.
I am taking Lucy the Wonderdog for a walk nearly every day although she now walks faster than me, the little show off. And I have to remember to take painkillers before I go and hope they work. Must remember to take mobile phone with me in future in case I need rescuing. Lucy the Wonderdog not up to going for help like RinTinTin or Lassie used to.
Am also trying to swim everyday - gradually increasing laps everytime in readiness for Sunday swimming when private big pool reopens when school starts. Doing aqua exercises too (supplied by Anne) but havent actually got around to using flotation belt yet. Another box to open.
Also havent had time to open WiiFit yet.
Visited Officeworks yesterday - bliss - a stationery store. Bought a new chair for study and guess what, they come in flat packs. It took me forever to put the bloody thing together but I was determined to do it ON MY OWN. This is not rocket science (much muttering and occasional swearing) but it took me forever and I really needed another set of hands a one stage but I managed on the lounge with cushions stacked under it. Put arms on the wrong way first but ended up with it all together and no pieces left over.
I also bought pretty lime green star paper clips, bright orange pack of pocket files, a new file holder, a fake plant (I know, I know - but I cant kill this one and it looked so stylish in the shop), a pack of reduced Christmas cards, print cartridges and a red stamp pad for next Christmas. All in all a satisfying trip. Also on the agenda soon is my yearly trip to IKEA.
Have gone through the Target sale catalogue and highlighted all the DVDs I want to buy that have been reduced. Plus new quilt cover for spare room.
Beloved daughter away with friends until after new year but we had the future son-in-law for dinner last night. He drove up the coast today to surprise her. She wasnt expecting him until late on new years eve. They are going to a fancy dress on new years eve - she is a giant strawberry and he is spartacus (its an S party).
I am catching up with all the unread posts on googlereader. Only 60 odd left. Sigh.
Anyway my lovelies I had better get this study sorted out a bit and I have promised to do some ironing today. The husband had to actually iron his own shirt this morning and while he did a good job it took him forever. The alarm kept going off on the iron and I thought something was wrong but I think it was just taking him an age to arrange the shirt properly on the ironing board so that he could iron it and the iron kept thinking that it had been forgotten. LOL.
Im waffling again - catch up with you all soon and have a wonderful New Years Eve.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Survived (but dont look at the scales)!
Well I have survived Christmas, just!
I still havent got the house quite back to normal. We have stacks of food left over. Next year I will keep a tighter rein on the ordering - this year not well enough to worry but it is worrying me now.
Still a lot of socializing to go. Dinner tonight and tomorrow night. Diet is the "see food diet" again but I think the pudding has gone, there is no more pavlova, quite a lot of mini brandy puds left but the children will make short work of them.
I had better get to work remaking the beds, putting away all the platters and things I dragged out to use.
The success of Christmas was Lucy the Wonderdog. Small child arrived last night with his parents for dinner and he was absolutely terrified of dogs. But beautiful calm Lucy and her beautiful human sister Jess won this small child over. The boy's grandmother couldnt believe her eyes and it made me so proud of my beautiful girls.
Looking out my study window at the late afternoon sunshine and watching the breeze play in the leaves of the trees I am feeling extremely lucky. Pain or no pain life is good and I am grateful. Grateful for my family and friends.
Peace to you all and so looking forward to 2009. A big year ahead. Hope it doesnt fly like this one. I want to savour it.
I still havent got the house quite back to normal. We have stacks of food left over. Next year I will keep a tighter rein on the ordering - this year not well enough to worry but it is worrying me now.
Still a lot of socializing to go. Dinner tonight and tomorrow night. Diet is the "see food diet" again but I think the pudding has gone, there is no more pavlova, quite a lot of mini brandy puds left but the children will make short work of them.
I had better get to work remaking the beds, putting away all the platters and things I dragged out to use.
The success of Christmas was Lucy the Wonderdog. Small child arrived last night with his parents for dinner and he was absolutely terrified of dogs. But beautiful calm Lucy and her beautiful human sister Jess won this small child over. The boy's grandmother couldnt believe her eyes and it made me so proud of my beautiful girls.
Looking out my study window at the late afternoon sunshine and watching the breeze play in the leaves of the trees I am feeling extremely lucky. Pain or no pain life is good and I am grateful. Grateful for my family and friends.
Peace to you all and so looking forward to 2009. A big year ahead. Hope it doesnt fly like this one. I want to savour it.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
I hope that Santa brings you all.......
whatever you want!
Good news:
I know which joint in my ankle needs the operation now after the last injections. Back to the surgeon towards the end of January. Hopefully a successful operation will be on the cards in March. Just got to put up with the pain until then.
Looks like we are ready to start talking and planning the renovations. Will let you know how I go about winning the series of arguments that I am sure are going to arise. Love him dearly but he has no idea (probably thinks the same about me). I am going for the wars - will let the minor battles slide. I have a very long list of things that need changing, updating, fixing, etc etc.
I am now on 5 and a half weeks holiday.
I have bought myself a WiiFit for Christmas just in case everyone else forgets me. Dont laugh it has happened before. Not from the beloved Jess - she is like me in this regard and really makes an effort. Anyway, Margaret there may be a few emails coming your way.
Anyway, I must go out and deadhead those beautiful gardenias so that they look their best for Christmas day. Breakfast at Jess's, quiet lunch here and then our seafood spectacular for dinner with lots of rellies and of course my beautiful family.
Girls, I wish you all, happiness and health for Christmas and the New Year. You are a large part of my life now so take care of yourselves.
Lots of love
Julie
xxxxx
Good news:
I know which joint in my ankle needs the operation now after the last injections. Back to the surgeon towards the end of January. Hopefully a successful operation will be on the cards in March. Just got to put up with the pain until then.
Looks like we are ready to start talking and planning the renovations. Will let you know how I go about winning the series of arguments that I am sure are going to arise. Love him dearly but he has no idea (probably thinks the same about me). I am going for the wars - will let the minor battles slide. I have a very long list of things that need changing, updating, fixing, etc etc.
I am now on 5 and a half weeks holiday.
I have bought myself a WiiFit for Christmas just in case everyone else forgets me. Dont laugh it has happened before. Not from the beloved Jess - she is like me in this regard and really makes an effort. Anyway, Margaret there may be a few emails coming your way.
Anyway, I must go out and deadhead those beautiful gardenias so that they look their best for Christmas day. Breakfast at Jess's, quiet lunch here and then our seafood spectacular for dinner with lots of rellies and of course my beautiful family.
Girls, I wish you all, happiness and health for Christmas and the New Year. You are a large part of my life now so take care of yourselves.
Lots of love
Julie
xxxxx
Sunday, December 07, 2008
My Lips Are Sealed (I wish)
Who were the two slightly mad people outside in the rain in their jammies at 4:30 am today spotlighting possums?
My Lips are sealed.
My Lips are sealed.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Struggle
Today has been a struggle. Tired and hot.
Came home from work and lay down and went to sleep.
Woke up feeling no better and ate 10-15 jatz and a slice of cake.
What in the hell am I doing? Talked to myself sternly and got off my backside and went and got the washing in. Feel better. Dont know whether it was the stern talking too or the food. Made a cup of coffee.
On another subject altogether - we have a baby brush turkey wandering around at work. Lots of goannas and water dragons too. They love the warm weather.
One of the guys I work with saw two things today on his way to work - one made him laugh and the other made him sad.
The first one is driving along Bobbin Head Road at North Turramurra saw an adult brush turkey cross the road. Even though it is near the national park is was still a funny sight in surburbia. Five years ago they were fairly rare but the fox baiting program must be working.
The second one was terribly sad. Furthr along there was a women standing with a leash in her hand and at the other end her obviously dead old golden retriever. She looked like she was in shock and was surrounded by people comforting her and trying to help. His heart must have just given up.
Made me like him even more for the softness of his heart. He is a nice man.
Going out to dinner tonight for girlfriends birthday. There will be cake, food and drinks. Have to think of some kind of strategy to get through tonight without drawing attention to the fact that I cant eat too much after todays binge. Might just tell them I am feeling a bit unwell. Am feeling this way so often these days that no one ever questions it.
Came home from work and lay down and went to sleep.
Woke up feeling no better and ate 10-15 jatz and a slice of cake.
What in the hell am I doing? Talked to myself sternly and got off my backside and went and got the washing in. Feel better. Dont know whether it was the stern talking too or the food. Made a cup of coffee.
On another subject altogether - we have a baby brush turkey wandering around at work. Lots of goannas and water dragons too. They love the warm weather.
One of the guys I work with saw two things today on his way to work - one made him laugh and the other made him sad.
The first one is driving along Bobbin Head Road at North Turramurra saw an adult brush turkey cross the road. Even though it is near the national park is was still a funny sight in surburbia. Five years ago they were fairly rare but the fox baiting program must be working.
The second one was terribly sad. Furthr along there was a women standing with a leash in her hand and at the other end her obviously dead old golden retriever. She looked like she was in shock and was surrounded by people comforting her and trying to help. His heart must have just given up.
Made me like him even more for the softness of his heart. He is a nice man.
Going out to dinner tonight for girlfriends birthday. There will be cake, food and drinks. Have to think of some kind of strategy to get through tonight without drawing attention to the fact that I cant eat too much after todays binge. Might just tell them I am feeling a bit unwell. Am feeling this way so often these days that no one ever questions it.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I can smell gardenias
Its that time of year again, I can smell gardenias. Ive picked some of the first ones and they are in my bedroom and everytime I walk in the perfume hits me. The garden smells wonderful too. Makes me feel good.
The jacarandas are out too (nearly finished) and they look wonderful against the stormy grey skies. Such a beautiful colour.
Everything good.
BP down for the first time in ages so meds are working.
Still having to have methotrexate injection (am tempted to say metho injection but people might get the wrong idea)
Dr has sent letter to gym so I am back in there tomorrow.
Off to walk Lucy and tire her out before the next storm hits so she doesnt keep us awake tonight guarding us against those bloody possums. I wonder if daughter would lend me her tasar or her gun. (Just joking - She doesnt have a tasar yet.)
Three weeks before school holidays start - 5 glorious weeks off - yippee!
The jacarandas are out too (nearly finished) and they look wonderful against the stormy grey skies. Such a beautiful colour.
Everything good.
BP down for the first time in ages so meds are working.
Still having to have methotrexate injection (am tempted to say metho injection but people might get the wrong idea)
Dr has sent letter to gym so I am back in there tomorrow.
Off to walk Lucy and tire her out before the next storm hits so she doesnt keep us awake tonight guarding us against those bloody possums. I wonder if daughter would lend me her tasar or her gun. (Just joking - She doesnt have a tasar yet.)
Three weeks before school holidays start - 5 glorious weeks off - yippee!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Gran Torino
Gran Torino
Click on above for trailer I think. This has taken me forever.
Have seen the trailer for this movie and if looks good especially if you are a Clint Eastwood fan. It reminds me so much of the Dirty Harry films - just a lot older. I think the guys would love it. It is being released in USA in December so hopefully it wont be too much later that it comes to Australia.
Post edit: Thought for a while this morning they were not going to let me do pilates but in the end they did.
Click on above for trailer I think. This has taken me forever.
Have seen the trailer for this movie and if looks good especially if you are a Clint Eastwood fan. It reminds me so much of the Dirty Harry films - just a lot older. I think the guys would love it. It is being released in USA in December so hopefully it wont be too much later that it comes to Australia.
Post edit: Thought for a while this morning they were not going to let me do pilates but in the end they did.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Venting
Guess what, because of my new blood pressure problem the gym wont let me work out until I give them a letter from my GP. I know they are just covering their backsides but hells bells, if I hadnt mentioned it in passing to someone then they would never have known and I could have done my session today. I'm a bit pissed off!
Ive been stewing about it since I got back home and I had no one to tell. The husband is off being a lightening rod somewhere (I mean playing golf), the daughter is on duty and not answering her phone (how inconsiderate) and sisters seem to be incommunicado. So....... I thought about you all. I am sure that this will make me feel better.
Oh and the house looks like a bombs gone off in it - so much for a day at a time. Lucy the wonderdog is worrying the hell out of me with her new squeaky toy. Wants to play but wont give it over.
Regarding messy house - a while ago there was that email going around something along the lines of - went to wash my car, found my keys in the study, noticed that bills had to be paid, turned computer on
I JUST LOST THIS POST OR MOST OF IT AND I AM NOT DOING IT AGAIN. NOW I AM REALLY PISSED OFF.
Ive been stewing about it since I got back home and I had no one to tell. The husband is off being a lightening rod somewhere (I mean playing golf), the daughter is on duty and not answering her phone (how inconsiderate) and sisters seem to be incommunicado. So....... I thought about you all. I am sure that this will make me feel better.
Oh and the house looks like a bombs gone off in it - so much for a day at a time. Lucy the wonderdog is worrying the hell out of me with her new squeaky toy. Wants to play but wont give it over.
Regarding messy house - a while ago there was that email going around something along the lines of - went to wash my car, found my keys in the study, noticed that bills had to be paid, turned computer on
I JUST LOST THIS POST OR MOST OF IT AND I AM NOT DOING IT AGAIN. NOW I AM REALLY PISSED OFF.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Doom and Gloom - You have been warned
Home is slowly getting sorted out. Ive started cleaning a room a day when I get home from work so that I am not spending one day of the weekend cleaning the house. Seems to be working out okay but for how long?
Weight still terrible but I am starting something new probably on Thursday. Talk about putting off the inevitable. If successful will share - if not you will never hear me mention this latest attempt again.
Blood pressure is now officially through the roof and am on tablets. When I went to doctors last week for methotrexate injection (a 15 minute visit) was there for 50 minutes as they took my blood pressure 7 times in various positions. Ending up ringing the husband and telling him I was being held hostage at the doctors just in case he was worried about me - should have known better.
Made appointments yesterday for radiologist to do anesthetics under xray and fluoroscope. Am taking the first two Fridays in December off to do these injections and maybe some Christmas shopping.
Am tired, irritable and not terribly good company at the moment.
Molly, am making another attempt at Enbrel next week when I see the rheumotologist and am definitely stopping methotrexate as I dont think it is doing me any good and when the person doing the injection wears gloves because the stuff is pure poison then I think enoughs enough
Have a great weekend and remember I would be lost without you.
In the words of Jeff Fenech - "I luvs you all"
Weight still terrible but I am starting something new probably on Thursday. Talk about putting off the inevitable. If successful will share - if not you will never hear me mention this latest attempt again.
Blood pressure is now officially through the roof and am on tablets. When I went to doctors last week for methotrexate injection (a 15 minute visit) was there for 50 minutes as they took my blood pressure 7 times in various positions. Ending up ringing the husband and telling him I was being held hostage at the doctors just in case he was worried about me - should have known better.
Made appointments yesterday for radiologist to do anesthetics under xray and fluoroscope. Am taking the first two Fridays in December off to do these injections and maybe some Christmas shopping.
Am tired, irritable and not terribly good company at the moment.
Molly, am making another attempt at Enbrel next week when I see the rheumotologist and am definitely stopping methotrexate as I dont think it is doing me any good and when the person doing the injection wears gloves because the stuff is pure poison then I think enoughs enough
Have a great weekend and remember I would be lost without you.
In the words of Jeff Fenech - "I luvs you all"
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
SICK SICK SICK
I am sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick of it!
(Imagine foot stamping and clenched fists and a little red face)
What I am about to tell you is true -
At forty I was overweight but I lost it all in 6 weeks without too much angst.
BUT I noticed the subtle changes in my body. Boobs sagged. Not major not big.
At fifty I lost my waist. I have always had big hips (good childbearing hips - yeah right - how wrong could they have been) but I had a very very small waist. Gone disappeared.
Weight battle still going on but not too onerous although getting harder.
Let me tell you, at fifty five this is not fun. Not only has waist disappeared but have developed almost overnight a large roll around my middle.
This is really giving me the shits.
And by the way Zanna, gave up on scattergories. Do you know how hard it is to find words starting with "j". Ended up was cheating and putting in words like jirrafe and jidnapped etc. I am sure that smarter people than me could have done it but not this jittle jlack juck.
Hope everyone else is having a good week. For me, its the pits.
Im off to work out what in the hell I am going to wear to this wedding on Saturday and take the recalcitrant dog for a walk. I am going to tire her out somehow. She keeps us awake all night chasing brushtails in hobnail boots who have started tap dancing on our roof in the wee small hours of the night. And she is not too fond of the milkman either.
Disclaimer: I am crochety, fat and old and entitled to a whingey post every now and again.
Postscript: This has made me feel better but I bet you could have told me that.
(Imagine foot stamping and clenched fists and a little red face)
What I am about to tell you is true -
At forty I was overweight but I lost it all in 6 weeks without too much angst.
BUT I noticed the subtle changes in my body. Boobs sagged. Not major not big.
At fifty I lost my waist. I have always had big hips (good childbearing hips - yeah right - how wrong could they have been) but I had a very very small waist. Gone disappeared.
Weight battle still going on but not too onerous although getting harder.
Let me tell you, at fifty five this is not fun. Not only has waist disappeared but have developed almost overnight a large roll around my middle.
This is really giving me the shits.
And by the way Zanna, gave up on scattergories. Do you know how hard it is to find words starting with "j". Ended up was cheating and putting in words like jirrafe and jidnapped etc. I am sure that smarter people than me could have done it but not this jittle jlack juck.
Hope everyone else is having a good week. For me, its the pits.
Im off to work out what in the hell I am going to wear to this wedding on Saturday and take the recalcitrant dog for a walk. I am going to tire her out somehow. She keeps us awake all night chasing brushtails in hobnail boots who have started tap dancing on our roof in the wee small hours of the night. And she is not too fond of the milkman either.
Disclaimer: I am crochety, fat and old and entitled to a whingey post every now and again.
Postscript: This has made me feel better but I bet you could have told me that.
Monday, October 27, 2008
You Can Tell.....
You can tell that I am back at work again due to the lack of posts and comments.
This last term of the year is always busy as some person (read moron) decided that the financial year for schools should end on 30 November. Now it is hectic for me and I dont have students preparing for exams, end of year festivities etc etc. I just have teachers who have forgotten that they were supposed to do fieldwork activities ringing up begging a day but what can I do - we are just about booked out or should I say booked. Every year it is the same thing, book early I tell them but no. Oh well maybe one day the planets will align and everything will slot into place.
Weight is stable at too much. Wedding is two weeks away so it doesnt look like I will reach my goal started all those months ago.
Weather is back to broiling again. But I dont mind after all it is spring/summer.
So I will apologise for my slackness yet again.
Folk art and yoga and pilates and Princess Lucy take up so much time not to mention work.
Off I go once again as the tribe is descending on the house tonight for their weekly baked dinner. They never miss it if they are in town and our week wouldnt be the same without them especially now that they have all flown the coop.
This last term of the year is always busy as some person (read moron) decided that the financial year for schools should end on 30 November. Now it is hectic for me and I dont have students preparing for exams, end of year festivities etc etc. I just have teachers who have forgotten that they were supposed to do fieldwork activities ringing up begging a day but what can I do - we are just about booked out or should I say booked. Every year it is the same thing, book early I tell them but no. Oh well maybe one day the planets will align and everything will slot into place.
Weight is stable at too much. Wedding is two weeks away so it doesnt look like I will reach my goal started all those months ago.
Weather is back to broiling again. But I dont mind after all it is spring/summer.
So I will apologise for my slackness yet again.
Folk art and yoga and pilates and Princess Lucy take up so much time not to mention work.
Off I go once again as the tribe is descending on the house tonight for their weekly baked dinner. They never miss it if they are in town and our week wouldnt be the same without them especially now that they have all flown the coop.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Waffling
Was I waffling on the other day about it being Spring.
Then it serves me right!
It's bloody freezing today.
It's snowing up in the Blue Mountains.
It is pouring rain and blowing a gale.
The people across the road have lit their fire again.
I have to go out in it again to yoga!
I will sleep well tonight.
They have promised back to hot by the weekend although I could do with a wet Sunday. Still havent done my tax stuff for the accountant.
Should get a phone call any day now.
Waffling again - I'm off.
Then it serves me right!
It's bloody freezing today.
It's snowing up in the Blue Mountains.
It is pouring rain and blowing a gale.
The people across the road have lit their fire again.
I have to go out in it again to yoga!
I will sleep well tonight.
They have promised back to hot by the weekend although I could do with a wet Sunday. Still havent done my tax stuff for the accountant.
Should get a phone call any day now.
Waffling again - I'm off.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Black and Blue
I have noticed this week that I have a few large bruises on the left side of my body - legs and arms.
This morning when I was straightening my hair I saw more enormous bruises on my arm and innocently asked The Husband if he had taken to beating me when I was asleep.
The look I got was priceless - didnt I remember falling over in the hallway last Sunday night (see previous post for that day), then getting angry with him for no reason and he just threw his hands up in the air and let me go my merry (or not merry) way.
Oh I was bad - I dont remember at all.
Mind you I only have his word for this event happening and even though he is so trustworthy I think my explanation sounds better and doesnt reflect badly on me so that is the one I am going with.
Have been dress shopping this morning for a wedding that is coming up - bought him 4 new business shirts and an attachment for the vacuum but no dress.
I hate dress shopping!
This morning when I was straightening my hair I saw more enormous bruises on my arm and innocently asked The Husband if he had taken to beating me when I was asleep.
The look I got was priceless - didnt I remember falling over in the hallway last Sunday night (see previous post for that day), then getting angry with him for no reason and he just threw his hands up in the air and let me go my merry (or not merry) way.
Oh I was bad - I dont remember at all.
Mind you I only have his word for this event happening and even though he is so trustworthy I think my explanation sounds better and doesnt reflect badly on me so that is the one I am going with.
Have been dress shopping this morning for a wedding that is coming up - bought him 4 new business shirts and an attachment for the vacuum but no dress.
I hate dress shopping!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Sigh
I had some free time at work today so I typed out my post and emailed it home.
*Sigh*
At work I use Macs and I have been upgraded to Leopard 2008 (sounds cute doesnt it) but when I tried to open the doc here at home it comes through as hieroglyphics.
*Sigh*
Have to wait until Monday when I can convert it back to a usable old word document.
*Sigh*
Is it just me or are the computers of the world ganging up on us.
PS: Felt the "Christmas Shiver" today. It is pure pleasure and I dont know what brings it on - probably the weather or the colour of the sky or the green green trees, but I have felt this feeling since I was little. I feel like purring.
*Sigh*
At work I use Macs and I have been upgraded to Leopard 2008 (sounds cute doesnt it) but when I tried to open the doc here at home it comes through as hieroglyphics.
*Sigh*
Have to wait until Monday when I can convert it back to a usable old word document.
*Sigh*
Is it just me or are the computers of the world ganging up on us.
PS: Felt the "Christmas Shiver" today. It is pure pleasure and I dont know what brings it on - probably the weather or the colour of the sky or the green green trees, but I have felt this feeling since I was little. I feel like purring.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Trust Me
Trust me, it may have been alright on Saturday night but drinking a bottle of wine (probably more) on Sunday night was definitely not a good idea.
Walked (or should I say danced) home with The Husband holding on to me to make sure I didnt kill myself or run out into the traffic, in my socks, because I couldnt get my boots back on.
You would hope that I would be passed this phase by now but NOOOOOOO!
Very very very very unwell and turned into the bitch from hell (why dont I realise that alcohol makes me agressive).
I slept in the spare room as I was very very very cross.
All in all a hell of a night. Very little to eat today. Went back to bed after The Husband left for work and was late for said work. But I really think they were lucky I was there at all considering all I wanted to do was lie down and die.
I only went because there was supposed to be a group attending a 4 night course arriving and if I didnt turn up they would be milling around outside waiting for my workmates who get to sleep in. Nobody turned up. Convenor had thought he had told me that the course had been cancelled (maybe he told the other Julie from the other planet - the nice one).
And I looked like hell - still do. BUT I did go the gym after work and I have finally had something to eat.
I think I am still married although this morning I didnt get a goodbye kiss *sigh*.
Walked (or should I say danced) home with The Husband holding on to me to make sure I didnt kill myself or run out into the traffic, in my socks, because I couldnt get my boots back on.
You would hope that I would be passed this phase by now but NOOOOOOO!
Very very very very unwell and turned into the bitch from hell (why dont I realise that alcohol makes me agressive).
I slept in the spare room as I was very very very cross.
All in all a hell of a night. Very little to eat today. Went back to bed after The Husband left for work and was late for said work. But I really think they were lucky I was there at all considering all I wanted to do was lie down and die.
I only went because there was supposed to be a group attending a 4 night course arriving and if I didnt turn up they would be milling around outside waiting for my workmates who get to sleep in. Nobody turned up. Convenor had thought he had told me that the course had been cancelled (maybe he told the other Julie from the other planet - the nice one).
And I looked like hell - still do. BUT I did go the gym after work and I have finally had something to eat.
I think I am still married although this morning I didnt get a goodbye kiss *sigh*.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Day in the life
Yesterday started out all bright and shiny and full of hope.
Weighed myself "gasp", wrote it down and commenced Plan Z.
Turned up at gym late because The Husband had once again left his computer powerpack eons away at work and heaven forbid that his computer battery would die and he wouldnt be able to do his usual overload of work. I had to try and find a powerpack to buy or borrow which would fit his computer "thanks IBM for changing your powerpack jacks from normal to obscure - morons".
Missed breakfast with girls as they were all hurrying off to do important things like go to weddings and have meetings with accountants (which reminds me I must do somethiing about our tax).
Gym girl wouldnt give me my pilates pass because I was 5 minutes too early (good grief) so sat and had a calming cup of green tea and waited.
Got pass. Went into pilates class - Deb didnt turn up - sick apparently. This lovely old lady who talked like her teeth were missing did however but couldnt teach pilates so we were going to do yoga. Now I love yoga, I do it everyday and go to classes on Wednesdays but, dammit, I wanted to do pilates but my father brought me up the right way so I just smiled and got on with it and hated every single second of it. What a waste of an hour when I could have been secret shopping instead.
Went to the postoffice 30 minutes before it closed and the queue went out the door. I went to stand in the line and somehow managed to queue jump in front of a policeman. This little plaintiff voice said behind me "but I was in the queue". Stupid cute policeman, as I walked up he stepped back and I thought he was just getting out of my way. We swopped spots and 1o minutes later he gave up and told me I could have his spot afterall. When I eventually left there he was at the back of the queue again. Maybe I scared him or reminded him of his mother.
After shopping came home, had lunch, a nice healthy prawn salad and then laid down for a rest. I have to stop doing this as I am back at work on Monday and I dont think the boss will be impressed finding me having a nanna nap after lunch.
House didnt get cleaned but as I have said before I dont think anybody has ever died of dust and it looks tidy although my sister visited the other day and said that it didnt look like my decluttering was working. Sometimes sisters can be too honest. (Warning: dont try being honest with them)
The phone rang next to napping husband (hard day at the golf course) and we missed the call. So did last caller thing and it was a friend of his so I called the number and put the phone against his ear - a sure way to wake him up. Did we want to go to their place for dinner? There goes my well laid plans *sigh*.
Dinner was lovely, I only had olives pre dinner and white wine of course even though the large cheese platter was calling to me (funny how cheese knows my name). More wine with dinner and water and more wine and of course dessert and coffee. The wife who luckily happens to be a good friend of mine too drank copious quantities of red wine and I had a lovely time ragging her about her spoonerisms. It is usually me that starts speaking a strange archaic dialect. All in all I drank a bottle of white wine all by myself (do I sound proud - children dont try this at home) which I probably shouldnt have but it was fun and I didnt feel at all sick when i went to bed (translation - bed did not start spinning madly out of control).
The Daughter left today on road trip with boyfriend for two weeks to South Australia with instructions to play nice and bring him back. I think he is being really brave - she is a feisty firey redhead who likes her own way - you'd all love her after you got over the initial thing of wanting to strangle her.
Am now off into the garden and am going to ignore the calls of the bathroom to clean it. It is too nice a day to be inside anymore. See ya!
Weighed myself "gasp", wrote it down and commenced Plan Z.
Turned up at gym late because The Husband had once again left his computer powerpack eons away at work and heaven forbid that his computer battery would die and he wouldnt be able to do his usual overload of work. I had to try and find a powerpack to buy or borrow which would fit his computer "thanks IBM for changing your powerpack jacks from normal to obscure - morons".
Missed breakfast with girls as they were all hurrying off to do important things like go to weddings and have meetings with accountants (which reminds me I must do somethiing about our tax).
Gym girl wouldnt give me my pilates pass because I was 5 minutes too early (good grief) so sat and had a calming cup of green tea and waited.
Got pass. Went into pilates class - Deb didnt turn up - sick apparently. This lovely old lady who talked like her teeth were missing did however but couldnt teach pilates so we were going to do yoga. Now I love yoga, I do it everyday and go to classes on Wednesdays but, dammit, I wanted to do pilates but my father brought me up the right way so I just smiled and got on with it and hated every single second of it. What a waste of an hour when I could have been secret shopping instead.
Went to the postoffice 30 minutes before it closed and the queue went out the door. I went to stand in the line and somehow managed to queue jump in front of a policeman. This little plaintiff voice said behind me "but I was in the queue". Stupid cute policeman, as I walked up he stepped back and I thought he was just getting out of my way. We swopped spots and 1o minutes later he gave up and told me I could have his spot afterall. When I eventually left there he was at the back of the queue again. Maybe I scared him or reminded him of his mother.
After shopping came home, had lunch, a nice healthy prawn salad and then laid down for a rest. I have to stop doing this as I am back at work on Monday and I dont think the boss will be impressed finding me having a nanna nap after lunch.
House didnt get cleaned but as I have said before I dont think anybody has ever died of dust and it looks tidy although my sister visited the other day and said that it didnt look like my decluttering was working. Sometimes sisters can be too honest. (Warning: dont try being honest with them)
The phone rang next to napping husband (hard day at the golf course) and we missed the call. So did last caller thing and it was a friend of his so I called the number and put the phone against his ear - a sure way to wake him up. Did we want to go to their place for dinner? There goes my well laid plans *sigh*.
Dinner was lovely, I only had olives pre dinner and white wine of course even though the large cheese platter was calling to me (funny how cheese knows my name). More wine with dinner and water and more wine and of course dessert and coffee. The wife who luckily happens to be a good friend of mine too drank copious quantities of red wine and I had a lovely time ragging her about her spoonerisms. It is usually me that starts speaking a strange archaic dialect. All in all I drank a bottle of white wine all by myself (do I sound proud - children dont try this at home) which I probably shouldnt have but it was fun and I didnt feel at all sick when i went to bed (translation - bed did not start spinning madly out of control).
The Daughter left today on road trip with boyfriend for two weeks to South Australia with instructions to play nice and bring him back. I think he is being really brave - she is a feisty firey redhead who likes her own way - you'd all love her after you got over the initial thing of wanting to strangle her.
Am now off into the garden and am going to ignore the calls of the bathroom to clean it. It is too nice a day to be inside anymore. See ya!
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Shoes Glorious Shoes
I went shoe shopping today. I needed a pair of navy blue flat shoes for work. I might as well have been asking for the moon.
My trusty comfy navy blue flat shoes I wear to work have developed a squeak. I dont think it is me. Im pretty sure it is the shoes.
The only navy blue flat shoes I could find would have looked great if I was 120 years old but not on a bit overweight hip 55 year old. Hip not hippy though the second also applies at the moment.
I got to look at all the gorgeous shoes that you wear in your 20s and 30s and sighed and moved on. Ended up buying a pair of flat tan pointy toed shoes. They are comfortable, look reasonable modern and I figure that they will sort of go with my uniform.
Next time I see a pair of suitable navy blue shoes I am going to buy two pairs!
I will dream tonight of gorgeous high heeled sandals in the latest styles and be content.
My trusty comfy navy blue flat shoes I wear to work have developed a squeak. I dont think it is me. Im pretty sure it is the shoes.
The only navy blue flat shoes I could find would have looked great if I was 120 years old but not on a bit overweight hip 55 year old. Hip not hippy though the second also applies at the moment.
I got to look at all the gorgeous shoes that you wear in your 20s and 30s and sighed and moved on. Ended up buying a pair of flat tan pointy toed shoes. They are comfortable, look reasonable modern and I figure that they will sort of go with my uniform.
Next time I see a pair of suitable navy blue shoes I am going to buy two pairs!
I will dream tonight of gorgeous high heeled sandals in the latest styles and be content.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Problems problems
So sorry dear friends I have been remiss but I have once again been fighting the demons or kilos. For some reason I have begun stacking on the weight again. I know I am having trouble with exercise but I dont think I have been eating too badly for the last month but instead of losing weight it is still creeping up.
I am at my wits end as nothing fits me anymore and I look lumpy. It would be quite easy to ignore, move up a clothes size or two but I really dont want to. I got through winter unscathed and cant believe that I am putting weight on in spring. Not the way it is supposed to happen.
I am at my wits end as nothing fits me anymore and I look lumpy. It would be quite easy to ignore, move up a clothes size or two but I really dont want to. I got through winter unscathed and cant believe that I am putting weight on in spring. Not the way it is supposed to happen.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Today’s the day
I have 10 weeks to get myself back in shape for a wedding. That’s the goal anyway.
I don’t want to diet anymore. I don’t want there to be anything that I cant have. In moderation. I want to reprogram my brain and body to eat slowly and eat in moderation (that word again) rather than vacuuming any and all food up throughout the day.
I am doing this with a friend except I think she is dieting.
I am going to try to exercise each day (baby steps but I will get there). DD is coming to the gym with me today and helping me on the exercise bike – not the one that everyone rides but the one that looks like a real bike – I don’t know what it is called but for some reason it scares me. So she is going to help me get past this fear or laugh herself silly at my attempts. Also aiming for 10,000 steps per day.
Drink more water. Of late have not been drinking water. Have been eating instead so will use this as a deterrent to eating. Will try to drink 2 litres a day but not to have any after maybe 4 as I will be up all night wearing a track between bed and bathroom.
Eat food that I know is good for me. I know what it is – I have been doing this for centuries. Except in my mind I think this food is not fun. Sausage rolls, chiko roll, hot chips, any carbs, wine etc = fun. Have to change this mindset. Don’t know how to do this as yet but am going to try.
Okay weighed in this morning and got a bit of a shock. I knew my work clothes were getting tighter but didn’t quite realise how much I had put on. I actually think I was in denial.
I am going to try to lose 1kg a week. That might put me into the ballpark of the weight I want to be especially for summer. It means I will have to refocus on me for a while.
DS is finally making moves to move out of home. I love him dearly but he is driving me mad. Cant seem to have normal conversations with him – it is all centred on him: his job, his girlfriend, his moods, his friends, the fact that he doesn’t earn enough money etc etc. It just goes on and on. He has kind of overstayed his welcome and I gravitate between really enjoying his company to hiding from him which is hard to do as our house is not that big.
DH has gone away for a weekend with the guys to play golf up the coast. Believe it or not he actually took his computer with him. I hope he relaxes and enjoys himself. He really needs a break.
Have nearly decluttered/cleaned out my study and it is wonderful. Still have a bit to do but ran out of bin room in both the rubbish bin and the recycling bin. Cupboards and drawers seem to be my weakness although once they get full I do branch out. I think the key to decluttering for dyed-in-the-heart hoarders is to do it more than once, maybe every month. It is way too hard to get rid of everything in one go but if you do one big clean out (the first) and then say every month a minor one it might work out easier. Had to laugh though, DD went through my Lifeline box and took heaps of stuff home. Her partner was probably not too impressed.
So a quiet weekend ahead. Just Lucy the Wonderdog and me unless DS hangs around. Hope I don’t have to do too much cooking.
Take care and wish me luck this week.
I don’t want to diet anymore. I don’t want there to be anything that I cant have. In moderation. I want to reprogram my brain and body to eat slowly and eat in moderation (that word again) rather than vacuuming any and all food up throughout the day.
I am doing this with a friend except I think she is dieting.
I am going to try to exercise each day (baby steps but I will get there). DD is coming to the gym with me today and helping me on the exercise bike – not the one that everyone rides but the one that looks like a real bike – I don’t know what it is called but for some reason it scares me. So she is going to help me get past this fear or laugh herself silly at my attempts. Also aiming for 10,000 steps per day.
Drink more water. Of late have not been drinking water. Have been eating instead so will use this as a deterrent to eating. Will try to drink 2 litres a day but not to have any after maybe 4 as I will be up all night wearing a track between bed and bathroom.
Eat food that I know is good for me. I know what it is – I have been doing this for centuries. Except in my mind I think this food is not fun. Sausage rolls, chiko roll, hot chips, any carbs, wine etc = fun. Have to change this mindset. Don’t know how to do this as yet but am going to try.
Okay weighed in this morning and got a bit of a shock. I knew my work clothes were getting tighter but didn’t quite realise how much I had put on. I actually think I was in denial.
I am going to try to lose 1kg a week. That might put me into the ballpark of the weight I want to be especially for summer. It means I will have to refocus on me for a while.
DS is finally making moves to move out of home. I love him dearly but he is driving me mad. Cant seem to have normal conversations with him – it is all centred on him: his job, his girlfriend, his moods, his friends, the fact that he doesn’t earn enough money etc etc. It just goes on and on. He has kind of overstayed his welcome and I gravitate between really enjoying his company to hiding from him which is hard to do as our house is not that big.
DH has gone away for a weekend with the guys to play golf up the coast. Believe it or not he actually took his computer with him. I hope he relaxes and enjoys himself. He really needs a break.
Have nearly decluttered/cleaned out my study and it is wonderful. Still have a bit to do but ran out of bin room in both the rubbish bin and the recycling bin. Cupboards and drawers seem to be my weakness although once they get full I do branch out. I think the key to decluttering for dyed-in-the-heart hoarders is to do it more than once, maybe every month. It is way too hard to get rid of everything in one go but if you do one big clean out (the first) and then say every month a minor one it might work out easier. Had to laugh though, DD went through my Lifeline box and took heaps of stuff home. Her partner was probably not too impressed.
So a quiet weekend ahead. Just Lucy the Wonderdog and me unless DS hangs around. Hope I don’t have to do too much cooking.
Take care and wish me luck this week.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Declutterbug
Well it is still cold here but I have the spring cleaning bug. Not really spring cleaning because, well, it's still too cold to be out washing windows and blinds etc. but I have started decluttering. This is going to take a while with the culmination here in my study which is progressively getting harder and harder to get into.
This Friday coming is the start of my 10 week plan to get back into some sort of shape for a friends sons wedding. No set plan about how I am going to do this. Maybe drink more water, wear my pedometer and aim for 10,000 steps a day and eat less rubbish. Should do it.
There is so much to do - crosswords to finish, ironing to finish, plants to water, clothes to put away, bathrooms to clean, books to read, knitting to start, folk art project to finish and I am sitting here typing my blog.
I had better get back to decluttering - family room and lounge/dining room almost done. Only came in here to shred some papers. I just cant be trusted.
Have a great week. I am getting back in the swing of reading blogs again so you will hear from me soon.
This Friday coming is the start of my 10 week plan to get back into some sort of shape for a friends sons wedding. No set plan about how I am going to do this. Maybe drink more water, wear my pedometer and aim for 10,000 steps a day and eat less rubbish. Should do it.
There is so much to do - crosswords to finish, ironing to finish, plants to water, clothes to put away, bathrooms to clean, books to read, knitting to start, folk art project to finish and I am sitting here typing my blog.
I had better get back to decluttering - family room and lounge/dining room almost done. Only came in here to shred some papers. I just cant be trusted.
Have a great week. I am getting back in the swing of reading blogs again so you will hear from me soon.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I'M WALKING ON SUNSHINE
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
And don't it feel good (HEY!) Alright now
And don't it feel good (HEY!) Alright now
All right now yeah! (HEY!)
I am feeling better inside myself. My “positivity” has returned. Who would have thought that a medication that was supposed to be helping my RA would have such a detrimental effect on my mind and thank goodness, in a way, that the doctor increased the dose and I got so sick and had to stop taking it otherwise I might never have known the cause of the problem. I am back to seeing the good side in everything and am so thankful although I know that this attitude irritates some people enormously (my mother in particular).
Have not been watching what I eat and as a result have put on a number of kilos yet again. Well actually I have been watching, I look at it all just before I put it in my mouth. Have cut back on alcohol quite a bit (none during the week unless it is a special occasion) for no other reason than I don’t think it agrees with the medication I am still taking. Not much exercise as cant really walk but still keeping up the yoga and pilates with a bit of stationery bike riding and some upper body weights.
Am attending the son of a friends wedding in November so I have set the start date for getting back on the wagon as Friday, 29th August 2008. That gives me 10 weeks to lose however many kilos I am up to by then.
Thank you Molly for your kind advice. I will ask my doctor about that medication, it sounds so promising but I might not meet the criteria to get it on the PBS and therefore the cost is prohibitive. But it doesn’t hurt to ask.
Congratulations Zanna on joining the gym not that I think you need it. You are looking wonderful and are as usual a great inspiration to us all.
I am behind in my google reader reading (try to say that fast) but I promise I will get there and get up-to-date with everyone’s posts. That was part of my sickness I think – I was reading posts but felt I didn’t have anything to say. Well that has gone now so watch out.
And speaking of looking at my google reader, I cant help but notice the number of people who don’t blog anymore: Margaret, Catherine, Chris, Mary, Phillipa, Michelle, Linda, Jodie Sue etc etc. I do miss reading your news and hope that if you are at least still reading that all is going well in your lives.
Am off this weekend to see Cirque du Soleil’s latest show, Dralion. DS is supposed to be coming with me but he may get a better offer. Somehow I don’t think he will get away with that. His father may kill him or at least give him a severe talking too.
DDs partner has been retrenched and she is so worried about their financial position. He is going for an interview this Friday so everybody keep everything crossed. I have told her that I will help out with expenses if they need it.
DS is finally having his shoulder surgery in September. We are paying for that as well or at least the part not covered by his medical fund.
I love my two immensely, but someone tell me, do they ever truly become independent? Probably my fault but sometimes it becomes exhausting.
My renovations may be moving into the next stage soon rather than the just dreaming and talking about it. DH arranged for the builder to visit this week for preliminary talks. I will believe it when it happens though. It must be getting closer.
It is still cold here (the coldest winter we have had in quite a number of years I think) but the jasmine is out and I can feel spring in the air. I feel a bit like Moley in Wind in the Willows .
Hope my dear ones that you are all okay…….talk soon.
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
And don't it feel good (HEY!) Alright now
And don't it feel good (HEY!) Alright now
All right now yeah! (HEY!)
I am feeling better inside myself. My “positivity” has returned. Who would have thought that a medication that was supposed to be helping my RA would have such a detrimental effect on my mind and thank goodness, in a way, that the doctor increased the dose and I got so sick and had to stop taking it otherwise I might never have known the cause of the problem. I am back to seeing the good side in everything and am so thankful although I know that this attitude irritates some people enormously (my mother in particular).
Have not been watching what I eat and as a result have put on a number of kilos yet again. Well actually I have been watching, I look at it all just before I put it in my mouth. Have cut back on alcohol quite a bit (none during the week unless it is a special occasion) for no other reason than I don’t think it agrees with the medication I am still taking. Not much exercise as cant really walk but still keeping up the yoga and pilates with a bit of stationery bike riding and some upper body weights.
Am attending the son of a friends wedding in November so I have set the start date for getting back on the wagon as Friday, 29th August 2008. That gives me 10 weeks to lose however many kilos I am up to by then.
Thank you Molly for your kind advice. I will ask my doctor about that medication, it sounds so promising but I might not meet the criteria to get it on the PBS and therefore the cost is prohibitive. But it doesn’t hurt to ask.
Congratulations Zanna on joining the gym not that I think you need it. You are looking wonderful and are as usual a great inspiration to us all.
I am behind in my google reader reading (try to say that fast) but I promise I will get there and get up-to-date with everyone’s posts. That was part of my sickness I think – I was reading posts but felt I didn’t have anything to say. Well that has gone now so watch out.
And speaking of looking at my google reader, I cant help but notice the number of people who don’t blog anymore: Margaret, Catherine, Chris, Mary, Phillipa, Michelle, Linda, Jodie Sue etc etc. I do miss reading your news and hope that if you are at least still reading that all is going well in your lives.
Am off this weekend to see Cirque du Soleil’s latest show, Dralion. DS is supposed to be coming with me but he may get a better offer. Somehow I don’t think he will get away with that. His father may kill him or at least give him a severe talking too.
DDs partner has been retrenched and she is so worried about their financial position. He is going for an interview this Friday so everybody keep everything crossed. I have told her that I will help out with expenses if they need it.
DS is finally having his shoulder surgery in September. We are paying for that as well or at least the part not covered by his medical fund.
I love my two immensely, but someone tell me, do they ever truly become independent? Probably my fault but sometimes it becomes exhausting.
My renovations may be moving into the next stage soon rather than the just dreaming and talking about it. DH arranged for the builder to visit this week for preliminary talks. I will believe it when it happens though. It must be getting closer.
It is still cold here (the coldest winter we have had in quite a number of years I think) but the jasmine is out and I can feel spring in the air. I feel a bit like Moley in Wind in the Willows .
Hope my dear ones that you are all okay…….talk soon.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
One hell of a year thus far
Well here I am again. It has been one hell of a year healthwise. I can remember feeling pretty good in January/February and then it all went pearshaped.
Have spent the last two weeks on holidays and sick. It culminated with me getting out of the car last Friday and suddenly finding the world shifting focus and becoming very light headed. Soldiered on as I know we all do but when I got up the next morning I was lucky to make it out of the shower. Rang doctor and got an appointment and since I couldnt really drive thought I would try walking. As I waited to leave I got progressively worse and then a miracle occurred - my beautiful telepathetic daughter rang home from softball, realised how sick I was, drove straight home, made me some toast, took me to doctors, went and got prescription and then took me home and tucked me into bed. Spent another day in bed and today I have been a bit better.
What did the GP put it down to - rheumotologist had increased RA medication yet again and I had a severe reaction. Looked it up when we got home and yep, I had all the symptons - dizziness, nausea, fatigue, gastro and guess what, it also can cause depression. F*** a duck, I'd rather have the RA which really, when I think about it, just keeps chugging along medication or not.
Am supposed to be going to a conference tomorrow but will have to wait and see how I feel in the morning. Of course I stopped taking the salazopyrin and the GP suggested I start again on Monday when I have flushed it out of my system. I dont think so. So here we go again - another battle with the rheumatologist about medication. This would be the third medication I have had a bad reaction to.
I must be starting to feel better because I am starting to get feisty or else it is just old age.
Anyway, since I am also anaemic and my haemoglobin count is down (excuse spelling), my ankle at times resembles an elephants ankle and I have virtually done no exercise for a long long time to speak of I have decided that I am not going to worry about my diet anymore. That doesnt mean that I am going to go completely off the rails but I am not going to become anal about it anymore. Good food in hopefully the right quantities. Drastically reduce alcohol consumption due to the fact that it reacts with medication quite badly.
But I am not going to make any promises either about anything. It is all too hard and I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I am going to try and take care of myself by eating good food and when the pain subsides a bit, exercise gently.
So ends this latest........ I was going to put whinge but I dont think that is the right word.
Have spent the last two weeks on holidays and sick. It culminated with me getting out of the car last Friday and suddenly finding the world shifting focus and becoming very light headed. Soldiered on as I know we all do but when I got up the next morning I was lucky to make it out of the shower. Rang doctor and got an appointment and since I couldnt really drive thought I would try walking. As I waited to leave I got progressively worse and then a miracle occurred - my beautiful telepathetic daughter rang home from softball, realised how sick I was, drove straight home, made me some toast, took me to doctors, went and got prescription and then took me home and tucked me into bed. Spent another day in bed and today I have been a bit better.
What did the GP put it down to - rheumotologist had increased RA medication yet again and I had a severe reaction. Looked it up when we got home and yep, I had all the symptons - dizziness, nausea, fatigue, gastro and guess what, it also can cause depression. F*** a duck, I'd rather have the RA which really, when I think about it, just keeps chugging along medication or not.
Am supposed to be going to a conference tomorrow but will have to wait and see how I feel in the morning. Of course I stopped taking the salazopyrin and the GP suggested I start again on Monday when I have flushed it out of my system. I dont think so. So here we go again - another battle with the rheumatologist about medication. This would be the third medication I have had a bad reaction to.
I must be starting to feel better because I am starting to get feisty or else it is just old age.
Anyway, since I am also anaemic and my haemoglobin count is down (excuse spelling), my ankle at times resembles an elephants ankle and I have virtually done no exercise for a long long time to speak of I have decided that I am not going to worry about my diet anymore. That doesnt mean that I am going to go completely off the rails but I am not going to become anal about it anymore. Good food in hopefully the right quantities. Drastically reduce alcohol consumption due to the fact that it reacts with medication quite badly.
But I am not going to make any promises either about anything. It is all too hard and I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I am going to try and take care of myself by eating good food and when the pain subsides a bit, exercise gently.
So ends this latest........ I was going to put whinge but I dont think that is the right word.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Tough times
I cant remember how long ago, well over a month, I crashed and burned.
Ended up at doctors in the middle of the morning on a work day crying.
She prescribed tablets and sent me to a physcologist.
Am feeling better now but still not 100%.
Hurt my back at pilates last Saturday (first day holidays) and have spent the weekend not doing much and taking painkillers.
Have read a few posts but not commented. At the moment, I have nothing to say. Am trying to get my life back on track.
The RA is still not responding to treatment and I dont think it ever will.
We are going away to the Hunter Valley this weekend.
I have disabled comments. Dont want you to feel sorry for me just wanted you to know I was still alive.
Ended up at doctors in the middle of the morning on a work day crying.
She prescribed tablets and sent me to a physcologist.
Am feeling better now but still not 100%.
Hurt my back at pilates last Saturday (first day holidays) and have spent the weekend not doing much and taking painkillers.
Have read a few posts but not commented. At the moment, I have nothing to say. Am trying to get my life back on track.
The RA is still not responding to treatment and I dont think it ever will.
We are going away to the Hunter Valley this weekend.
I have disabled comments. Dont want you to feel sorry for me just wanted you to know I was still alive.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Didnt see it coming......
Have been travelling okay this week. Still cant walk very well and Lucy (my little keg on legs) is suffering although Mark takes her for runs on the week end if he has time.
Except for yesterday – Really don’t know what happened. Started eating and just couldn’t stop. Ate so much all day that by 5 pm was feeling ill. Even tossed up about not going to yoga and just going to bed but knew it would do me good (and it did). Don’t know where the brain snap came from – was I cold, bored, in pain – I don’t know and it is driving me mad. Probably undid the good I have done all week in that one long binge.
Anyway have hopefully moved on and today will be better although rugby semi-final on Saturday night could be another hiccup.
Have been preparing myself for winter. Bought a new navy wool coat/jacket to wear to work (navy and stone/beige are the colours). Really toasty warm. This week I am looking for gloves to wear to work (I have my fingerless gloves to wear at work so that I can still type).
Also I have bought a new work bag. I found I was carrying lots of bags so I have consolidated. Saw an article in Notebook magazine this month for Spencer and Rutherford bags and check them out on the internet and ordered a business bag. It arrived this week and is absolutely gorgeous. It has been made from the most beautiful materials, very lush looking and makes me smile everytime I look at it because of its sheer gorgeousness. It is called Eleanor (tranquillity). It will fit my laptop too if I feel inclined to lug it around.
http://www.spencerandrutherford.com/store/eleanor-tranquility-p99029.html (here is hopefully a link to it).
Postscript: Well rugby semi-final was okay. Tahs won and so it is onwards and upwards to play the Crusaders this weekend in NZ. Didnt eat or drink too much but spent much of the weekend lying down and when we had to go out on Saturday night I dosed up on painkillers. Spent most of Sunday on the lounge which I think didnt hurt me. I dont think anybody has died of a messy house.
GP has prescribed some tablets to help me get through this rough period which I think are helping although I didnt really want to go down that road. Also have a referral to a psycologist (?) to talk about getting some coping skills but cant seem to link up with her. I am feeling better within myself (my mind is calmer) although still aching which is to be expected. My GP says to feel this way when you have a chronic illness is to be expected but I still dont like the sadness.
Am just going to try and keep my weight level at the moment without worrying too much about diet. Too many things to think of at once and I am really craving cheese. Go figure.
Except for yesterday – Really don’t know what happened. Started eating and just couldn’t stop. Ate so much all day that by 5 pm was feeling ill. Even tossed up about not going to yoga and just going to bed but knew it would do me good (and it did). Don’t know where the brain snap came from – was I cold, bored, in pain – I don’t know and it is driving me mad. Probably undid the good I have done all week in that one long binge.
Anyway have hopefully moved on and today will be better although rugby semi-final on Saturday night could be another hiccup.
Have been preparing myself for winter. Bought a new navy wool coat/jacket to wear to work (navy and stone/beige are the colours). Really toasty warm. This week I am looking for gloves to wear to work (I have my fingerless gloves to wear at work so that I can still type).
Also I have bought a new work bag. I found I was carrying lots of bags so I have consolidated. Saw an article in Notebook magazine this month for Spencer and Rutherford bags and check them out on the internet and ordered a business bag. It arrived this week and is absolutely gorgeous. It has been made from the most beautiful materials, very lush looking and makes me smile everytime I look at it because of its sheer gorgeousness. It is called Eleanor (tranquillity). It will fit my laptop too if I feel inclined to lug it around.
http://www.spencerandrutherford.com/store/eleanor-tranquility-p99029.html (here is hopefully a link to it).
Postscript: Well rugby semi-final was okay. Tahs won and so it is onwards and upwards to play the Crusaders this weekend in NZ. Didnt eat or drink too much but spent much of the weekend lying down and when we had to go out on Saturday night I dosed up on painkillers. Spent most of Sunday on the lounge which I think didnt hurt me. I dont think anybody has died of a messy house.
GP has prescribed some tablets to help me get through this rough period which I think are helping although I didnt really want to go down that road. Also have a referral to a psycologist (?) to talk about getting some coping skills but cant seem to link up with her. I am feeling better within myself (my mind is calmer) although still aching which is to be expected. My GP says to feel this way when you have a chronic illness is to be expected but I still dont like the sadness.
Am just going to try and keep my weight level at the moment without worrying too much about diet. Too many things to think of at once and I am really craving cheese. Go figure.
Friday, May 16, 2008
My week
Last week was not a great week. Jess was asked to read a story at the end of the funeral service and I was never so proud of her as I was that day. She spoke clearly and strongly, something I couldnt have done if I had been in her shoes and she has shown an inner strength although she is still grieving. The family released 19 butterflies and 19 balloons after Jess had finished - one for every year of Ash's life. It was very moving.
Food has not been great lately. Actually I have been eating everything and anything. Ankles so swollen that I cant exercise at all - can hardly walk. Self inflicted I am afraid - too much alcohol at girlfriends 60th and thought I was young again and danced all night. I have been such a sad little old lady this week. Thinking about going to have a chinese massage to see if that will help reduce the pain.
Rheumatologist has taken me off methotrexate for the time being and put me on something else. I just learn the name of one drug and he changes it on me. I had too many side effects for no gain was the reason for the change.
Anyway, have drawn a line in the sand (figuratively speaking). Have tried to eat sensibly today and have a big pot of vegetable soup on the stove bubbling away for those moments when I have to eat something. Hopefully I will make wise choices this week.
Apparently going to be very cold on Sunday here - a taste of winter. So am planning a quiet day with sleep-in and book reading as well as the usual ironing and cleaning. Just no outside stuff. Although if the weather forecast is wrong I will try to be out in the garden and a trip to the nursery is on the cards. Can't be bothered with annuals anymore, so will buy some bushy plants (maybe small lavendars) to plant among the roses and fill up the gaps.
Mum is in hospital in Brisbane. She has been there on and off for over a week because she was having trouble breathing. They have found that she has asthma, a lung cancer the size of a 50 cent piece which they have removed and is also suffering from MDS, a blood disorder. My eldest sister says she is in quite good spirits and has been enjoying her stay in hospital for the company and meals.
Friday night here and I am going to have a glass of low alcohol wine - the Lindemans Early Harvest semillion sauvignon blanc, when Mark gets home. Quite nice really. Off to make another recipe from the "Core Plan" cook book and then an early night. I cant seem to get over the tiredness and except for having to go the bathroom many times during the night am sleeping like the proverbial log. I wish the bathroom stuff would stop - the trials of growing old!
Have a great weekend......
Food has not been great lately. Actually I have been eating everything and anything. Ankles so swollen that I cant exercise at all - can hardly walk. Self inflicted I am afraid - too much alcohol at girlfriends 60th and thought I was young again and danced all night. I have been such a sad little old lady this week. Thinking about going to have a chinese massage to see if that will help reduce the pain.
Rheumatologist has taken me off methotrexate for the time being and put me on something else. I just learn the name of one drug and he changes it on me. I had too many side effects for no gain was the reason for the change.
Anyway, have drawn a line in the sand (figuratively speaking). Have tried to eat sensibly today and have a big pot of vegetable soup on the stove bubbling away for those moments when I have to eat something. Hopefully I will make wise choices this week.
Apparently going to be very cold on Sunday here - a taste of winter. So am planning a quiet day with sleep-in and book reading as well as the usual ironing and cleaning. Just no outside stuff. Although if the weather forecast is wrong I will try to be out in the garden and a trip to the nursery is on the cards. Can't be bothered with annuals anymore, so will buy some bushy plants (maybe small lavendars) to plant among the roses and fill up the gaps.
Mum is in hospital in Brisbane. She has been there on and off for over a week because she was having trouble breathing. They have found that she has asthma, a lung cancer the size of a 50 cent piece which they have removed and is also suffering from MDS, a blood disorder. My eldest sister says she is in quite good spirits and has been enjoying her stay in hospital for the company and meals.
Friday night here and I am going to have a glass of low alcohol wine - the Lindemans Early Harvest semillion sauvignon blanc, when Mark gets home. Quite nice really. Off to make another recipe from the "Core Plan" cook book and then an early night. I cant seem to get over the tiredness and except for having to go the bathroom many times during the night am sleeping like the proverbial log. I wish the bathroom stuff would stop - the trials of growing old!
Have a great weekend......
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Coping or not coping
I have tried to check emails and blogs but just cant. We are not functioning well at the moment.
My daughters best friend/little sister was killed on Monday night in a motorcycle accident.
Jess met her in primary school when Jess was a buddy to the kindergarten students and they have been friends ever since. Like sisters in a lot of ways.
She is just coping with the grief and I am not doing much better. I remember Jess teaching her to dive in our pool. I remember so many things from the last 14 years.
I am so extremely sorry that a family has lost a daughter, especially at this time of year, just before mothers day.
Life is certainly crappy sometimes.
To a girl who's smile could light up a room - vale Ash.............
My daughters best friend/little sister was killed on Monday night in a motorcycle accident.
Jess met her in primary school when Jess was a buddy to the kindergarten students and they have been friends ever since. Like sisters in a lot of ways.
She is just coping with the grief and I am not doing much better. I remember Jess teaching her to dive in our pool. I remember so many things from the last 14 years.
I am so extremely sorry that a family has lost a daughter, especially at this time of year, just before mothers day.
Life is certainly crappy sometimes.
To a girl who's smile could light up a room - vale Ash.............
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