Life is slowly returning to normal.
Went back to work yesterday and was totally exhausted by the time I got home. Jess took me as I still cant drive and she brought me home, went to the pet shop for me, bought me Milo (secret weapon in fight against no sleep) and finally took me to the doctors. Luckily Mark out at a work dinner which I had opted out of so it was a quick dinner of leftovers and then to bed. Took half a sleeping tablet and for a change had a okay nights sleep. Dont remember him coming home although apparently I had a conversation with him.
I am working two days a week for the next three weeks and then I think I will have to go back to Queensland to sort out Mum's house. Trying to co-ordinate 4 other busy women so that we can all do it together is giving me a headache. This afternoon Mark, being her executor, has gone to the solicitors, who luckily are on the central coast. I think this is going to be a lengthy procedure. I am off to memorial park next Wednesday to pick out her final resting place for when we bring her back to NSW. Put her death notice into the Sydney papers. My little brain is starting to explode. It hasnt had to think this much in 4 weeks.
My job is to keep the peace between sisters and a slightly aggressive niece who told me last night (hopefully jokingly) that I was no longer her favourite aunt because I was too nice! Niggling is starting already. God give me strength.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Mum
Mum died yesterday. She slipped quietly away, never regaining consciousness. Just the way she wanted to go. No pain.
She was a difficult mother. A troublemaker, always stirring things up, she could be vicious and mean but she was still my mother. Perhaps not the mother I would have wished for but perhaps I was not the daughter she wished for. None of us were. It was not in my nature to let her ride roughshod over me or mine but in her own way I think she loved me.
She grew up in the difficult times of the depression. Dirt poor, with a father who took to the road and didnt provide for the family and I am sure this moulded her into what she became. Who knows.
My children's last grandparent has gone. An era has ended. I am grateful that Jess took me to Queensland the week before last to say goodbye. I know now that if I had not gone I would have regretted it for ever.
My eldest sister said that her face was so peaceful the last few days. I hope she is happy wherever she is. That she has found peace and contentment finally.
She was a difficult mother. A troublemaker, always stirring things up, she could be vicious and mean but she was still my mother. Perhaps not the mother I would have wished for but perhaps I was not the daughter she wished for. None of us were. It was not in my nature to let her ride roughshod over me or mine but in her own way I think she loved me.
She grew up in the difficult times of the depression. Dirt poor, with a father who took to the road and didnt provide for the family and I am sure this moulded her into what she became. Who knows.
My children's last grandparent has gone. An era has ended. I am grateful that Jess took me to Queensland the week before last to say goodbye. I know now that if I had not gone I would have regretted it for ever.
My eldest sister said that her face was so peaceful the last few days. I hope she is happy wherever she is. That she has found peace and contentment finally.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Nightmare or Bad Dream
My sleep was woken this morning by Jess's usual good morning phone call but she woke me from a bad dream. A perceived threat. It had something to do with blogging, friends and work. It left me with a strange and uncomfortable feeling - very unsettled.
I know I had been thinking about my blogroll and the number of people who dont blog anymore. I will really have to do some housekeeping soon.
Which leads me to another interesting fact. I signed up for facebook recently so that I could submit an article about, you guessed it, Lucy the Wonderdog. All very strange and scary but an interesting thing happened - a lot of people I know personally or used to know through blogs are doing or have done facebook. Their pages came up when I initially signed in. Not sure that I am going to follow this up as I feel I spend far too much time wasting on the computer as it is but I found it interesting.
The weather here is perfect for staying in bed lately. Torrential rain and a bit blowy (sorry for people who are out and about in it).
Today I am going to do the washing (see how exciting my life has become LOL). Of course I cant hang it out: a) it's raining and b) I cant get it down to the clothes line but I will have it washed and ready for DH to deal with when he comes home.
Oh well its midday and I must have a shower and then settle in to watch Ellen and Oprah and may even get my embroidery out today.
Life doesnt get anymore exciting than this - no I really mean it, it doesnt!
I know I had been thinking about my blogroll and the number of people who dont blog anymore. I will really have to do some housekeeping soon.
Which leads me to another interesting fact. I signed up for facebook recently so that I could submit an article about, you guessed it, Lucy the Wonderdog. All very strange and scary but an interesting thing happened - a lot of people I know personally or used to know through blogs are doing or have done facebook. Their pages came up when I initially signed in. Not sure that I am going to follow this up as I feel I spend far too much time wasting on the computer as it is but I found it interesting.
The weather here is perfect for staying in bed lately. Torrential rain and a bit blowy (sorry for people who are out and about in it).
Today I am going to do the washing (see how exciting my life has become LOL). Of course I cant hang it out: a) it's raining and b) I cant get it down to the clothes line but I will have it washed and ready for DH to deal with when he comes home.
Oh well its midday and I must have a shower and then settle in to watch Ellen and Oprah and may even get my embroidery out today.
Life doesnt get anymore exciting than this - no I really mean it, it doesnt!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
What's Happening
I am slowly trying to teach myself to walk again. Still use both crutches sometimes, still have the aircast on but sometimes I only use one crutch like a cane or in moments of sheer daredevilishness no crutches.
Still not sleeping well but at least do not wander the house as much at night.
Have decided that I am going back to work next week for two days. At least that is the plan and I will see how I go the first day. Have to work out how I am going to get there as I still cant drive.
Mum is being moved into palliative care wing in hospital. She has been in a room in the normal part of the hospital under palliative care but as this room in an acute response room it is needed for others. She spends a lot of her time sleeping now but she is hanging in there. As her doctor says "a tough old bird".
My sisters went to see the funeral directors yesterday before my middle sister (MS) flew home. We are going to bring her ashes back to NSW as requested. MS dropped in on way home from the airport and stayed for dinner so that they missed the peakhour traffic. Lovely night.
But still I'm not sleeping and it is driving me batty. Actually I probably am sleeping but just dozing and waking a lot.
New armchairs that I have ordered from Freedom are being delivered on Saturday week. They have been trying to deliver them for a while but with me being in hospital and then having to fly to Brisbane it has been impossible. Council clean up is the same weekend so it should work out okay.
Builder dropped in on Sunday to apologize for not starting the bathroom on time but really it is easier for me that it hasnt started. New date in a months time and by them I should be up and going again.
Am finally having a shower when I want to and not when there is someone around in case I have an accident. Mind you have to check in with daughter when I am going to have said shower and when I have finished. A brief look to life in the future.
Life is not terribly interesting when confined to home but I enjoy reading blogs. Off to attempt to make myself a cup of coffee. Have a good day.
Still not sleeping well but at least do not wander the house as much at night.
Have decided that I am going back to work next week for two days. At least that is the plan and I will see how I go the first day. Have to work out how I am going to get there as I still cant drive.
Mum is being moved into palliative care wing in hospital. She has been in a room in the normal part of the hospital under palliative care but as this room in an acute response room it is needed for others. She spends a lot of her time sleeping now but she is hanging in there. As her doctor says "a tough old bird".
My sisters went to see the funeral directors yesterday before my middle sister (MS) flew home. We are going to bring her ashes back to NSW as requested. MS dropped in on way home from the airport and stayed for dinner so that they missed the peakhour traffic. Lovely night.
But still I'm not sleeping and it is driving me batty. Actually I probably am sleeping but just dozing and waking a lot.
New armchairs that I have ordered from Freedom are being delivered on Saturday week. They have been trying to deliver them for a while but with me being in hospital and then having to fly to Brisbane it has been impossible. Council clean up is the same weekend so it should work out okay.
Builder dropped in on Sunday to apologize for not starting the bathroom on time but really it is easier for me that it hasnt started. New date in a months time and by them I should be up and going again.
Am finally having a shower when I want to and not when there is someone around in case I have an accident. Mind you have to check in with daughter when I am going to have said shower and when I have finished. A brief look to life in the future.
Life is not terribly interesting when confined to home but I enjoy reading blogs. Off to attempt to make myself a cup of coffee. Have a good day.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Autumn weather and other things
Driving to Chatswood today through perfect Autumn weather - gorgeous soft mellow sunshine and the beautiful autumn leaves swirling around the car - made me realise how long it has been since I have actually been out of the house. My life for the last 10 days has been housebound. Tomorrow I will go out onto the deck and try and soak up some autumn weather - cant believe I am missing my favourite season.
Went to the surgeon today and he took the plaster cast off and the stitches out. The stitches hurt so much. I sat there with my jumper over my head, whimpering and my gorgeous boy hugging me. My foot is now in an "air cast" (ski boot type of thing) for the next 4 weeks. I thought I might be able to take it off at night but he said no. Only time I can take it off is for a shower and even then I have to sit. Bugger, I hate having things on my feet at night. I like cold feet not warm feet. Oh well four weeks of very little sleep I guess. It is now up to me when I ditch the crutches but probably not for another two weeks. Sigh.
Problems with Mum. She has apparently recently given all her jewellery to a cousin for "safe keeping" but when contacted said cousin said no Mum gave her the jewellery. Some people are so sad. Preying on old people should be outlawed.
Will give my eldest sister a ring tonight to find out what is happening. May fly to Brisbane later in the week but it all seems so morbid.
Hope your Wednesday was uneventful.
Went to the surgeon today and he took the plaster cast off and the stitches out. The stitches hurt so much. I sat there with my jumper over my head, whimpering and my gorgeous boy hugging me. My foot is now in an "air cast" (ski boot type of thing) for the next 4 weeks. I thought I might be able to take it off at night but he said no. Only time I can take it off is for a shower and even then I have to sit. Bugger, I hate having things on my feet at night. I like cold feet not warm feet. Oh well four weeks of very little sleep I guess. It is now up to me when I ditch the crutches but probably not for another two weeks. Sigh.
Problems with Mum. She has apparently recently given all her jewellery to a cousin for "safe keeping" but when contacted said cousin said no Mum gave her the jewellery. Some people are so sad. Preying on old people should be outlawed.
Will give my eldest sister a ring tonight to find out what is happening. May fly to Brisbane later in the week but it all seems so morbid.
Hope your Wednesday was uneventful.
Monday, May 11, 2009
A new week
I've moved my laptop back into my study. No more bed blogging.
I'm daydreaming out the window - dark skies, sun's out but I know it is cold out there, green trees and bushes, noisy miners bickering on the deck, Lucy asleep on my bed because I have left the electric blanket on in case I have to go back to bed suddenly.
I had to laugh yesterday, Mark was absolutely exhausted after cooking dinner and lunch and doing all the ironing and putting all the washing away and cleaning up the kitchen. It was all I could do to not say "welcome to my world" but I didn't because I really appreciate what he is trying to do.
Jess is not working today and I am so looking forward to her visit. She always explodes onto the scene. Her entrances are always dramatic and make me laugh. She is like some little wild kitten, completely untamed. She will probably arrive bearing coffee (or she had just introduced me to vanilla chai skim latte which tastes too sweet to be good for my weight) and anything else that she thinks I might need. Actually while I love the coffee her presence is enough. I am so blessed to have her.
The nights are hardest although yesterday there were a few bumps during the day. You may have heard of the term "busy legs" (my doctor's term). I think only women in menopause have it. My definition is that when I am lying down, or even sometimes when I am sitting, I cannot keep my legs still. They have to be on the move all the time. Doesn't that conjure up a mad picture! Usually a dose of magnesium clears this up but it doesn't seem to be working at the moment and so I spend all night trying not to wake Mark and trying to get comfortable. Not conducive to a good nights sleep for anyone. If anyone has any other remedies I would appreciate it. This all might end on Wednesday when the plaster and stitches are removed. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Two more attempted sleeps!
Got my Rudd money the other day. Whoo hoo. Am going to buy a sewing machine. Nothing flash just for repairs and patchwork. I have a friend who is willing to teach me patchwork so this will be one of my aims this year. Something to keep my hands occupied. Oh, and knitting but I am kind of scared of knitting (ridiculous isn't it?).
Hope today travels well for you all. I'm off to iTunes to look up a calming mantra I read about on another blog. Music sometimes helps me as does yoga and breathing but as I said at the moment nothing is working.
I'm daydreaming out the window - dark skies, sun's out but I know it is cold out there, green trees and bushes, noisy miners bickering on the deck, Lucy asleep on my bed because I have left the electric blanket on in case I have to go back to bed suddenly.
I had to laugh yesterday, Mark was absolutely exhausted after cooking dinner and lunch and doing all the ironing and putting all the washing away and cleaning up the kitchen. It was all I could do to not say "welcome to my world" but I didn't because I really appreciate what he is trying to do.
Jess is not working today and I am so looking forward to her visit. She always explodes onto the scene. Her entrances are always dramatic and make me laugh. She is like some little wild kitten, completely untamed. She will probably arrive bearing coffee (or she had just introduced me to vanilla chai skim latte which tastes too sweet to be good for my weight) and anything else that she thinks I might need. Actually while I love the coffee her presence is enough. I am so blessed to have her.
The nights are hardest although yesterday there were a few bumps during the day. You may have heard of the term "busy legs" (my doctor's term). I think only women in menopause have it. My definition is that when I am lying down, or even sometimes when I am sitting, I cannot keep my legs still. They have to be on the move all the time. Doesn't that conjure up a mad picture! Usually a dose of magnesium clears this up but it doesn't seem to be working at the moment and so I spend all night trying not to wake Mark and trying to get comfortable. Not conducive to a good nights sleep for anyone. If anyone has any other remedies I would appreciate it. This all might end on Wednesday when the plaster and stitches are removed. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Two more attempted sleeps!
Got my Rudd money the other day. Whoo hoo. Am going to buy a sewing machine. Nothing flash just for repairs and patchwork. I have a friend who is willing to teach me patchwork so this will be one of my aims this year. Something to keep my hands occupied. Oh, and knitting but I am kind of scared of knitting (ridiculous isn't it?).
Hope today travels well for you all. I'm off to iTunes to look up a calming mantra I read about on another blog. Music sometimes helps me as does yoga and breathing but as I said at the moment nothing is working.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Whingey semi-bad patient
Believe it or not I am over being unable to walk and I have run out of pain killers and think that I am now suffering withdrawal symptons. Damn damn damn
Sick of being in bed, sick of sitting, sick of the effort of having a shower exhausting me.
Now I am going to be really unPC. I am tired of people visiting me. I cant do this. I am tired and while I love them all I have had to get out of my comfort zone twice in the past two days to have meals with friends.
Anyway..............
Happy Mothers Day to you all. Or Godmothers day or what a great aunt day. You all deserve to be fussed over as you are raising or helping to raise a generation of incredible children and grandchildren.
Gareth has arrived with another pandora charm and I know Jess will bring the same when she finishes work. My bracelets are filling up, each a wonderful memory of who and when it was given to me. Not the super expensive charms just charms that mean something to my beautiful children.
Sick of being in bed, sick of sitting, sick of the effort of having a shower exhausting me.
Now I am going to be really unPC. I am tired of people visiting me. I cant do this. I am tired and while I love them all I have had to get out of my comfort zone twice in the past two days to have meals with friends.
Anyway..............
Happy Mothers Day to you all. Or Godmothers day or what a great aunt day. You all deserve to be fussed over as you are raising or helping to raise a generation of incredible children and grandchildren.
Gareth has arrived with another pandora charm and I know Jess will bring the same when she finishes work. My bracelets are filling up, each a wonderful memory of who and when it was given to me. Not the super expensive charms just charms that mean something to my beautiful children.
Friday, May 08, 2009
I'm back
Well here I am. Bed bound but still here. The operation went well apparently. I can weight-bear on ankle with crutches. Painful but not too bad. Spent the first three days with a morphine drip and now am on endone and digesics which I am trying to decrease. Spend a lot of time being nauseous which means I am not eating much. Have discovered Mark is not a great carer. He rings me and asks me what's for dinner? Hello, I am in bed, nauseous, havent a clue what is left in freezer and couldnt care if I ate again at the moment. The questions I am being asked a sigh-worthy like, where are the vases? the milk carton is leaking what should I tip the milk into? Good god he is a grown man who I may have spoiled a little. He has no concept of what I am going through I dont think. Oh enough whinging.
Thank goodness Jess called in yesterday on her way home from work. She bought me coffee, I could have my shower and she stayed for dinner and put her father back into a good mood. She really is a ray of sunshine most of the time.
Back to see surgeon next Wednesday. Which seems really quick to me.
My mum has a form of leukemia prevalent in the elderly which is getting worse. She has returned to hospital yesterday and it looks like she will not be coming back home again. But she is a tough old bird so who knows.
Tiredness setting in. I have nearly read all the blogs but may not have commented. Zanna I am sure we have been sisters somewhere along the road and I will answer your tag as soon as I am able to.
Have a good day.
Thank goodness Jess called in yesterday on her way home from work. She bought me coffee, I could have my shower and she stayed for dinner and put her father back into a good mood. She really is a ray of sunshine most of the time.
Back to see surgeon next Wednesday. Which seems really quick to me.
My mum has a form of leukemia prevalent in the elderly which is getting worse. She has returned to hospital yesterday and it looks like she will not be coming back home again. But she is a tough old bird so who knows.
Tiredness setting in. I have nearly read all the blogs but may not have commented. Zanna I am sure we have been sisters somewhere along the road and I will answer your tag as soon as I am able to.
Have a good day.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Last post (not literally)
Well this will probably be my last post until after operation (God this has been a long time coming).
Returned to work on Tuesday for four days (1 day to go) and has it been hard getting there. On Tuesday I got up at 6, Wednesday, 6.15 and today 6.30. It is so hard but I am past caring and once I get there I am fine. It has kept my mind off the pain and, even though I thought everything was uptodate I have been so busy.
Yesterday, when I went for my monthly blood test I happened to meet Jess for coffee near the Freedom Home store and bit the bullet and ordered the two ivory leather armchairs that I have been coveting for so long. Sent Mark an email so that he has a few days to think about it before I see him.
He will be home tomorrow. Lucy and I have missed him so much. Got an email this morning (not sure whether it was his time or my time) saying he was in London awaiting his flight home via Bangkok. They had better not off load him.
Gareth rang today to tell me how awesome (his words) he is. Just got his latest uni assessment/assignment back and he got a high distinction. Both the kids have got their rudd money or as they put it "have been stimulated". Jess is heading to IKEA to buy new furniture for her home office.
Not a lot to say today. Boring things to do like ironing, tidying house etc and early to bed.
Have a great weekend and keep your fingers crossed for me.
Returned to work on Tuesday for four days (1 day to go) and has it been hard getting there. On Tuesday I got up at 6, Wednesday, 6.15 and today 6.30. It is so hard but I am past caring and once I get there I am fine. It has kept my mind off the pain and, even though I thought everything was uptodate I have been so busy.
Yesterday, when I went for my monthly blood test I happened to meet Jess for coffee near the Freedom Home store and bit the bullet and ordered the two ivory leather armchairs that I have been coveting for so long. Sent Mark an email so that he has a few days to think about it before I see him.
He will be home tomorrow. Lucy and I have missed him so much. Got an email this morning (not sure whether it was his time or my time) saying he was in London awaiting his flight home via Bangkok. They had better not off load him.
Gareth rang today to tell me how awesome (his words) he is. Just got his latest uni assessment/assignment back and he got a high distinction. Both the kids have got their rudd money or as they put it "have been stimulated". Jess is heading to IKEA to buy new furniture for her home office.
Not a lot to say today. Boring things to do like ironing, tidying house etc and early to bed.
Have a great weekend and keep your fingers crossed for me.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Secret
Jess doesnt want me to mention it to anybody until after I see if I get through this wedding tomorrow but my operation is scheduled for Saturday 2nd May as long as I dont have anymore blisters etc.
Visit to doctor a success.
This parking permit I have for 6 months is proving a godsend. Jess was able to park, in Chatswood (very very busy) virtually outside his building. It was also unlimited which is always good because doctors dont run on time.
I have just tried on my ski-boot thingy to wear tomorrow to protect my foot. I will look ridiculous but who cares. This is more important. If I could get out of going to the wedding I would because it is going to be a difficult day with taxis (on Anzac Day!), boats - getting on and off and a wedding party where I will have to sit (strictly no dancing allowed).
Had trouble finding something that fits me anymore because over the past two weeks I have blobbed out. Virtually no exercise and eating pretty much everything. Strange but I am looking forward to returning to my normal life hopefully within the month.
One more week before operation, two weeks in plaster and four weeks in my ski boot for real. At this stage the surgeon said I will be able to weight bear which I know means not walking the dog but hopefully means some movement.
Since all the children have sort of left home (visit often) I downgraded our internet because I thought we didnt need to have so much download stuff. Big mistake. Forgot Mark works from home and I have been visiting lots of those 'Britain you've got talent' sites lately and we have run out of download and are at dialup speed again. How did we ever put up with the slowness. Fought my way back onto the internet and upgraded again but it takes 24 hours. All should be back to normal soon thank goodness.
House is starting to look so good and clean. Study was a challenge and have not really resolved it but it looks better except I've just noticed the windowsill. Today is finishing the lounge and dining room which has proved bigger than I expected and maybe moving on to the family room.
Mark is supposed to ring up and order the new lounge for family room today so everybody keep your fingers crossed that he remembers/has time. If it had have been up to me this lounge would have been ordered in February but sometimes we have to step back and let our other half make a very expensive decision.
Have a great day.
Visit to doctor a success.
This parking permit I have for 6 months is proving a godsend. Jess was able to park, in Chatswood (very very busy) virtually outside his building. It was also unlimited which is always good because doctors dont run on time.
I have just tried on my ski-boot thingy to wear tomorrow to protect my foot. I will look ridiculous but who cares. This is more important. If I could get out of going to the wedding I would because it is going to be a difficult day with taxis (on Anzac Day!), boats - getting on and off and a wedding party where I will have to sit (strictly no dancing allowed).
Had trouble finding something that fits me anymore because over the past two weeks I have blobbed out. Virtually no exercise and eating pretty much everything. Strange but I am looking forward to returning to my normal life hopefully within the month.
One more week before operation, two weeks in plaster and four weeks in my ski boot for real. At this stage the surgeon said I will be able to weight bear which I know means not walking the dog but hopefully means some movement.
Since all the children have sort of left home (visit often) I downgraded our internet because I thought we didnt need to have so much download stuff. Big mistake. Forgot Mark works from home and I have been visiting lots of those 'Britain you've got talent' sites lately and we have run out of download and are at dialup speed again. How did we ever put up with the slowness. Fought my way back onto the internet and upgraded again but it takes 24 hours. All should be back to normal soon thank goodness.
House is starting to look so good and clean. Study was a challenge and have not really resolved it but it looks better except I've just noticed the windowsill. Today is finishing the lounge and dining room which has proved bigger than I expected and maybe moving on to the family room.
Mark is supposed to ring up and order the new lounge for family room today so everybody keep your fingers crossed that he remembers/has time. If it had have been up to me this lounge would have been ordered in February but sometimes we have to step back and let our other half make a very expensive decision.
Have a great day.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Where Do I start?
Am sitting in my study wondering where to start with the decluttering and cleaning.
How on earth did I manage to accumulate so much paper, books, magazines and craft stuff.
This must be the worst room in my house.
Feeling swamped and ready to give up before I start.
Or it could just be the weather and/or pain level.
Oh well, as my daughter says "pump up princess".
Time to start but maybe a cup of tea first.
How on earth did I manage to accumulate so much paper, books, magazines and craft stuff.
This must be the worst room in my house.
Feeling swamped and ready to give up before I start.
Or it could just be the weather and/or pain level.
Oh well, as my daughter says "pump up princess".
Time to start but maybe a cup of tea first.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Just another Tuesday
Am posting late today because woke up very very late after Mark went to work. Lots of pain but found some stronger digesics which seem to have taken the edge of it.
Pain maybe coming from yesterdays Pilates but I doubt it. Dont extend myself too much at the moment and Deb watches me like a hawk to make sure I am okay. She teaches the Menezes method and I have sent away for a DVD of this type of pilates so that I can keep doing it while I hopefully am recuperating - soon.
No word yet. Still tentatively booked for 2nd May.
Talked to the person I have decided to be my personal trainer as soon as the gym lets her have that position. We get on really really well and she knows all about me and is going to work out a rehabilitation program when she is officially a PT. I was going to wait until the gym offered a special on PTs but have decided that as soon as I am able to I am going to recommence exercising. I miss it soooo much.
Gave myself a quick kick up the backside today. I have been letting things slide lately (secretly hoping that someone will pick up the slack) but got in today and vacuumed and dusted our bedroom and the guest room. Moved furniture (dont tell anyone or I could be in big trouble), pulled things out from under the bed etc. Have a huge stack of stuff to go out in council cleanup at the end of the next month. The decluttering is starting to work.
I am wasting time while tonights Biggest Loser records. I cant stand watching it in live time with all the recapping and ads. So I record it and then fast forward. I must admit that this year's bunch are quite nice. Must have been hard for the scriptwriters to drum up any "shock horrors". I suppose Tiff and Bob have been my favourites. The thing I cant stand is the tears but I suppose it must be emotional to be away from loved ones for that long.
Mark is still at work and probably wont be home for another hour or so. He works incredibly long hours either at work or at home. The joys of dealing with people on the other side of the world. He is off to Toulouse on Sunday but will hopefully be home the following Friday.
It is still raining here but not as much. Bad accident at lunchtime on the F3. Truck driver killed. Heard all the sirens, then a police car went down the street and then a helicopter was hovering overhead. Thought something was wrong but not sure what so locked the doors (usually when helicopters are that low they are looking for someone). Jess rang so I asked her what was happening as there had been nothing on the radio and she checked and rang me back with news about the accident. Thought it was cute that I had locked all the doors. I guess I will be show and tell at the station tonight.
I'm off to the nursery tomorrow to buy some more plants to replace 3 that insisted on dying.
Hope you all had a good day today.
Pain maybe coming from yesterdays Pilates but I doubt it. Dont extend myself too much at the moment and Deb watches me like a hawk to make sure I am okay. She teaches the Menezes method and I have sent away for a DVD of this type of pilates so that I can keep doing it while I hopefully am recuperating - soon.
No word yet. Still tentatively booked for 2nd May.
Talked to the person I have decided to be my personal trainer as soon as the gym lets her have that position. We get on really really well and she knows all about me and is going to work out a rehabilitation program when she is officially a PT. I was going to wait until the gym offered a special on PTs but have decided that as soon as I am able to I am going to recommence exercising. I miss it soooo much.
Gave myself a quick kick up the backside today. I have been letting things slide lately (secretly hoping that someone will pick up the slack) but got in today and vacuumed and dusted our bedroom and the guest room. Moved furniture (dont tell anyone or I could be in big trouble), pulled things out from under the bed etc. Have a huge stack of stuff to go out in council cleanup at the end of the next month. The decluttering is starting to work.
I am wasting time while tonights Biggest Loser records. I cant stand watching it in live time with all the recapping and ads. So I record it and then fast forward. I must admit that this year's bunch are quite nice. Must have been hard for the scriptwriters to drum up any "shock horrors". I suppose Tiff and Bob have been my favourites. The thing I cant stand is the tears but I suppose it must be emotional to be away from loved ones for that long.
Mark is still at work and probably wont be home for another hour or so. He works incredibly long hours either at work or at home. The joys of dealing with people on the other side of the world. He is off to Toulouse on Sunday but will hopefully be home the following Friday.
It is still raining here but not as much. Bad accident at lunchtime on the F3. Truck driver killed. Heard all the sirens, then a police car went down the street and then a helicopter was hovering overhead. Thought something was wrong but not sure what so locked the doors (usually when helicopters are that low they are looking for someone). Jess rang so I asked her what was happening as there had been nothing on the radio and she checked and rang me back with news about the accident. Thought it was cute that I had locked all the doors. I guess I will be show and tell at the station tonight.
I'm off to the nursery tomorrow to buy some more plants to replace 3 that insisted on dying.
Hope you all had a good day today.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Another week
We had a good weekend. Friday night was a spur of the moment dinner with friends. Steamed barra, small roasted potatoes and steamed greens and homemade tartare sauce. It was the nices meal I have had for a while.
Saturday I was going to try and get to pilates but Jess needed a new tyre on her car and for some reason was stressing out about having to do organise it. I dont understand her sometimes. Anyway visited one tyre shop and they didnt have it in stock but gave her a price and then came home and I rang around until I found the best price and who also had it in stock. Made appointment for Saturday morning before pilates thinking this wont take long. An hour and a half, two new tyres and a wheel alignment later all thoughts of pilates had disappeared. Oh, and I also paid for them as this was not in her budget. She is good with her budgetting so suggested she might see what she could put away for car maintenance in future.
Went to the rugby on Saturday night. Another lacklustre game. I dont know whether it is the new rules or what but Super 14 rugby is appalling and boring. I cant believe that I made the effort and trust me it was a big effort considering the state of my ankle to go and watch them again but I have decided that we are going to save ourselves $600 odd dollars next year and not bother. We can watch it on TV in the comfort of our own home.
Because of all the unwanted exercise I spent yesterday in bed. And it was a great day to spend in bed too. Raining and blowy. Actually I can hear the rain hitting the deck roof now but unfortunately I have things to do today. So up the painkillers and off I go. Might just finish my rereading of an old favourite book first.
Winter seems to have finally thought about arriving here although it is not that cold. Might dig out the long sleeved tshirts today.
Have a marvellous Monday.
Saturday I was going to try and get to pilates but Jess needed a new tyre on her car and for some reason was stressing out about having to do organise it. I dont understand her sometimes. Anyway visited one tyre shop and they didnt have it in stock but gave her a price and then came home and I rang around until I found the best price and who also had it in stock. Made appointment for Saturday morning before pilates thinking this wont take long. An hour and a half, two new tyres and a wheel alignment later all thoughts of pilates had disappeared. Oh, and I also paid for them as this was not in her budget. She is good with her budgetting so suggested she might see what she could put away for car maintenance in future.
Went to the rugby on Saturday night. Another lacklustre game. I dont know whether it is the new rules or what but Super 14 rugby is appalling and boring. I cant believe that I made the effort and trust me it was a big effort considering the state of my ankle to go and watch them again but I have decided that we are going to save ourselves $600 odd dollars next year and not bother. We can watch it on TV in the comfort of our own home.
Because of all the unwanted exercise I spent yesterday in bed. And it was a great day to spend in bed too. Raining and blowy. Actually I can hear the rain hitting the deck roof now but unfortunately I have things to do today. So up the painkillers and off I go. Might just finish my rereading of an old favourite book first.
Winter seems to have finally thought about arriving here although it is not that cold. Might dig out the long sleeved tshirts today.
Have a marvellous Monday.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Best not talk about it
Went to weight watchers last night. Recorded loss of 100g but I manipulated the figures. I usually wear my sneakers but I wore thongs instead. I have probably put weight on but we wont talk about that. I miss exercising so much especially now that the weather has turned autumnal (that may be a made up word).
Last night was not a good night food wise again and the wine wagon fell on me again. I am either going to have to go to bed at 7 or work out a strategy to get me through this time of night. Suggestions welcomed.
My google reader count is steadily going down. It was up to a massive 198 but now down to well under 100. The only thing that stops me is that it keeps playing up and signing me out so after a while I give up for the day.
A friend called in yesterday and I was talking about my efforts to reduce the number of magazines lying around the house and how I didnt seem to be able to just recycle them. I had to flick through them again and pull out recipes, hints etc that "might come in handy". I am going to have to now go through this pile again too as it is growing quite large. She was the same but she also said that it had dawned on her that she could probably find a recipe on the internet so why was she clipping recipes. Good point.
I emailed the builder about the extra project we wanted done. His wife said he was lying in the corner of the room in a foetal position sobbing. Apparently he has more work than he needs which is great for him but not so good for me. I may have to kidnap him.
Spoke to my resident handyman about changing my study around and lowering benches. Seems willing to comply. Of course I would like it to happen this weekend but I think I have Buckleys. I have decided that I have just about finished folkarting. I have a couple of projects to finish and that will be that but I dont want to give up the group. So I may take my embroidery with me sometime and just sit and sip tea, sew and chat.
Further jobs accomplished yesterday - glass jars to pickle lady at local markets, box of surplus mugs to Lifeline and clothes that had been bagged and dumped in lounge room months ago finally sent to charity bins and of course, more mags disposed of.
Another beautiful day here - planning gym session with the weights and grocery shopping and coffee with Jess. She is working at the Show this afternoon. Pilates tomorrow morning (new instructor) and rugby tomorrow night.
Have a good weekend.
Last night was not a good night food wise again and the wine wagon fell on me again. I am either going to have to go to bed at 7 or work out a strategy to get me through this time of night. Suggestions welcomed.
My google reader count is steadily going down. It was up to a massive 198 but now down to well under 100. The only thing that stops me is that it keeps playing up and signing me out so after a while I give up for the day.
A friend called in yesterday and I was talking about my efforts to reduce the number of magazines lying around the house and how I didnt seem to be able to just recycle them. I had to flick through them again and pull out recipes, hints etc that "might come in handy". I am going to have to now go through this pile again too as it is growing quite large. She was the same but she also said that it had dawned on her that she could probably find a recipe on the internet so why was she clipping recipes. Good point.
I emailed the builder about the extra project we wanted done. His wife said he was lying in the corner of the room in a foetal position sobbing. Apparently he has more work than he needs which is great for him but not so good for me. I may have to kidnap him.
Spoke to my resident handyman about changing my study around and lowering benches. Seems willing to comply. Of course I would like it to happen this weekend but I think I have Buckleys. I have decided that I have just about finished folkarting. I have a couple of projects to finish and that will be that but I dont want to give up the group. So I may take my embroidery with me sometime and just sit and sip tea, sew and chat.
Further jobs accomplished yesterday - glass jars to pickle lady at local markets, box of surplus mugs to Lifeline and clothes that had been bagged and dumped in lounge room months ago finally sent to charity bins and of course, more mags disposed of.
Another beautiful day here - planning gym session with the weights and grocery shopping and coffee with Jess. She is working at the Show this afternoon. Pilates tomorrow morning (new instructor) and rugby tomorrow night.
Have a good weekend.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Cold roast potatoes with spicy tomato sauce....
Cold roast potatoes with spicy tomato sauce, 2 slices of pumpkin seed bread, orange slice and shortbread cream. Yesterday or more importantly from 6 pm onwards was not a good day and my stomach didn't think so either. Am still paying for these indiscretions. Enough said!
Went back to GP. She couldn't believe what had happened to me. Quite comical now. Results of monthly blood test show that I am anemic (although I was taking 2 iron tablets a day), low sodium and low protein levels. Have to eat more protein because protein reduces swelling apparently and have to get my iron levels back up somehow or I may need a blood transfusion when I eventually make the operating theatre.
Actually got into the garden for a little while yesterday. Just doing some judicious pruning. Not sure whether it is the right time to be doing it but looks tidier.
Visited the gym. Just did strength training - upper body plus some stomach crunching and stretches. I think it was the gym session you have when you aren't having a gym session - a Clayton's gym session.
More magazines hit the recycled bin. Even though I did tear out a few more pages yesterday than previously have done will go through those pages today and probably cull. I always have good intentions about these articles or recipes but in all fact life is usually too busy to revisit them and I forget about them.
Finished the Demon crossword in this month's Lovatts BIG Crossword book.
Had coffee with Jess.
Got rid of some clothes in the charity bins. Still more to take but Mark has stuffed them in a big big bag which I can hardly lift so will have to make some smaller bags.
As you can see, life is very slow and fairly relaxed at the moment. Boring to some but to me it is really bliss. I am normally so busy and so tired that I can barely function so I am enjoying this time immensely. My sister wants me to come to Queensland, my girlfriend wants me to come to the Gold Coast but I have thanked them all for their kind invitations but I am going nowhere. I am happy to be at home and since I am briefly back on my meds, even Mark has remarked on the fact that the permanently pained look has gone from my face. Mind you it will be back next week when meds stop again in preparation for surgery but I am determined to take it easy. I am not going to jeopardise another chance. Slippers or sneakers is my mantra now.
Happy days to you all.
Went back to GP. She couldn't believe what had happened to me. Quite comical now. Results of monthly blood test show that I am anemic (although I was taking 2 iron tablets a day), low sodium and low protein levels. Have to eat more protein because protein reduces swelling apparently and have to get my iron levels back up somehow or I may need a blood transfusion when I eventually make the operating theatre.
Actually got into the garden for a little while yesterday. Just doing some judicious pruning. Not sure whether it is the right time to be doing it but looks tidier.
Visited the gym. Just did strength training - upper body plus some stomach crunching and stretches. I think it was the gym session you have when you aren't having a gym session - a Clayton's gym session.
More magazines hit the recycled bin. Even though I did tear out a few more pages yesterday than previously have done will go through those pages today and probably cull. I always have good intentions about these articles or recipes but in all fact life is usually too busy to revisit them and I forget about them.
Finished the Demon crossword in this month's Lovatts BIG Crossword book.
Had coffee with Jess.
Got rid of some clothes in the charity bins. Still more to take but Mark has stuffed them in a big big bag which I can hardly lift so will have to make some smaller bags.
As you can see, life is very slow and fairly relaxed at the moment. Boring to some but to me it is really bliss. I am normally so busy and so tired that I can barely function so I am enjoying this time immensely. My sister wants me to come to Queensland, my girlfriend wants me to come to the Gold Coast but I have thanked them all for their kind invitations but I am going nowhere. I am happy to be at home and since I am briefly back on my meds, even Mark has remarked on the fact that the permanently pained look has gone from my face. Mind you it will be back next week when meds stop again in preparation for surgery but I am determined to take it easy. I am not going to jeopardise another chance. Slippers or sneakers is my mantra now.
Happy days to you all.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Holidays - Bliss
You can tell I'm on holidays - I have lots of time to do stuff. The days are beautiful (sometimes still a bit too hot and humid - it is April after all) and I love being at home.
Have deferred all my deferrals for a couple of weeks until next attempt at operation.
Yesterday's baby step was okay. A couple of very thinly sliced homemade bread with a little bit of butter was my biggest sin. No wine - Day 2.
Lots of little jobs done:
More magazines into the recycling bin
Light bulbs replaced and glass covers washed
Kitchen benches tidied up so I have more room to spread out when I am cooking
Pencil/pen container near phone cleaned out (the stuff that gets shoved in here is mind boggling)
House generally tidied and things put away.
Finally sent our tax papers back to the accountant
Things I would like to purchase this holidays (but maybe not):
A dehumidifier for the house
A new sewing machine
A small camera
A new computer (working on the powers that be for this one)
Have a happy day!
A
Onwards and upwards today.
Have deferred all my deferrals for a couple of weeks until next attempt at operation.
Yesterday's baby step was okay. A couple of very thinly sliced homemade bread with a little bit of butter was my biggest sin. No wine - Day 2.
Lots of little jobs done:
More magazines into the recycling bin
Light bulbs replaced and glass covers washed
Kitchen benches tidied up so I have more room to spread out when I am cooking
Pencil/pen container near phone cleaned out (the stuff that gets shoved in here is mind boggling)
House generally tidied and things put away.
Finally sent our tax papers back to the accountant
Things I would like to purchase this holidays (but maybe not):
A dehumidifier for the house
A new sewing machine
A small camera
A new computer (working on the powers that be for this one)
Have a happy day!
A
Onwards and upwards today.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
A Baby Step
After three days of trying unsuccessfully to get myself back on track I was finally successful yesterday. I felt good that I managed it but I physically felt sick. Now this may sound strange but I know it was my body trying to trick me again. Whenever I feel nauseau I eat carbs and everything settles down. I dont know why it happens and I dont know why I do it but it is a cycle I have fallen into. Anyway I survived Day 1 - here I go on Day 2.
Have worked out my meals for this week and hopefully will be able to follow it without too many spanners being thrown into the works.
Am going to have to sort out all my deferrals from the gym and weight watchers. See if I can defer the defferals for a couple of weeks.
Sore on foot is healing well and should be gone by time of next appointment with surgeon. I am afraid I am a sneaker and ugg boot girl from now until I reach hospital except for the wedding in a couple of weeks where I will wear my skiboot thingey to protect my foot. I am now officially paranoid.
Am using this time to sort out a few things. Have finally signed my tax and all ready to be posted off today. Getting rid of magazines that I have kept for years. Being ruthless. Still having a look through them before trashing but am pulling less things out. I love recipes but know I will never get to cook half of them so what is the point and nowadays there is always the internet.
Have told builder what we would like in the bathroom. Awaiting his response. We may have to defer this project a couple of weeks too as cant quite comprehend foot in plaster, crutches and no bathroom.
Happy Easter Tuesday everyone. Many many moons ago (and I am showing my age now) this used to be childrens day at the Royal Easter Show. Have a great day.
Have worked out my meals for this week and hopefully will be able to follow it without too many spanners being thrown into the works.
Am going to have to sort out all my deferrals from the gym and weight watchers. See if I can defer the defferals for a couple of weeks.
Sore on foot is healing well and should be gone by time of next appointment with surgeon. I am afraid I am a sneaker and ugg boot girl from now until I reach hospital except for the wedding in a couple of weeks where I will wear my skiboot thingey to protect my foot. I am now officially paranoid.
Am using this time to sort out a few things. Have finally signed my tax and all ready to be posted off today. Getting rid of magazines that I have kept for years. Being ruthless. Still having a look through them before trashing but am pulling less things out. I love recipes but know I will never get to cook half of them so what is the point and nowadays there is always the internet.
Have told builder what we would like in the bathroom. Awaiting his response. We may have to defer this project a couple of weeks too as cant quite comprehend foot in plaster, crutches and no bathroom.
Happy Easter Tuesday everyone. Many many moons ago (and I am showing my age now) this used to be childrens day at the Royal Easter Show. Have a great day.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Update - Bad News
Hey guys
Bad News
Arrived at hospital today at 6 a.m. for operation. They couldn't do it.
Had a sore on my foot from my foot being so swollen that shoe rubbed skin off. Not worth the infection potential to my ankle.
I was so disappointed and in tears but I knew deep down it was the right decision. Shit I need this ankle so that I can at least start walking again eventually.
The hospital staff was wonderful and of course my surgeon was diligent. Anyone in Sydney area needs a good foot and ankle surgeon let me know. I can recommend one.
My daughter drove me there this morning and has stayed with me all day. God how did I manage to have such a wonderful person.
For a while it looked bleak (and might still be). Surgeon is booked out until after June but he is trying to arrange "out of hours" surgery time, maybe on Saturday 2nd May. Foot will be hopefully healed by then. Slippers are the derigeur footwear from now till then.
I have a wedding to go to but Jess and I discussed it today and I am going to wear my skibootie thingy to protect my ankle and foot and a normal shoe on the left foot.
I have been slack as far as the diet has gone but as of tomorrow I will be back on the wagon again. To use an Oprah phrase "I think the wagon fell on me" during the past two weeks. I am going to weight myself tonight so I once again have a starting point. I had suspended my weight watchers membership but will give them a ring on Tuesday and try on work it out. Also my gym.
I was at work until some ungodly hour last night organising everything for the next month but the way things stand at the moment after the school holidays I will work a week and then have a month at least off.
Anyway, just an update. Am going to take it easy and will catch up with everyone soon. Expect a lot of comments on old blogs. I have a lot of reading to do.
Love to you all.
Bad News
Arrived at hospital today at 6 a.m. for operation. They couldn't do it.
Had a sore on my foot from my foot being so swollen that shoe rubbed skin off. Not worth the infection potential to my ankle.
I was so disappointed and in tears but I knew deep down it was the right decision. Shit I need this ankle so that I can at least start walking again eventually.
The hospital staff was wonderful and of course my surgeon was diligent. Anyone in Sydney area needs a good foot and ankle surgeon let me know. I can recommend one.
My daughter drove me there this morning and has stayed with me all day. God how did I manage to have such a wonderful person.
For a while it looked bleak (and might still be). Surgeon is booked out until after June but he is trying to arrange "out of hours" surgery time, maybe on Saturday 2nd May. Foot will be hopefully healed by then. Slippers are the derigeur footwear from now till then.
I have a wedding to go to but Jess and I discussed it today and I am going to wear my skibootie thingy to protect my ankle and foot and a normal shoe on the left foot.
I have been slack as far as the diet has gone but as of tomorrow I will be back on the wagon again. To use an Oprah phrase "I think the wagon fell on me" during the past two weeks. I am going to weight myself tonight so I once again have a starting point. I had suspended my weight watchers membership but will give them a ring on Tuesday and try on work it out. Also my gym.
I was at work until some ungodly hour last night organising everything for the next month but the way things stand at the moment after the school holidays I will work a week and then have a month at least off.
Anyway, just an update. Am going to take it easy and will catch up with everyone soon. Expect a lot of comments on old blogs. I have a lot of reading to do.
Love to you all.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Apologies
Hey guys, I can only say sorry for not blogging or reading lately. I am so focussed on losing weight (not always successfully), trying to fit in exercise, bringing all at work uptodate and more, getting my house in order before I go into hospital that there are just not enough hours in the day.
Anne I hope everything is going well with Peter.
Zanna, everytime I hear something about RioTinto I worry about you.
Suzy, you caring makes me smile.
Jen, I hope your son is behaving himself and everything is fine on your side of the country.
Molly, I miss your photographs.
Linda, I hope you have found your dream job.
The good news is I will soon have unlimited time to catch up and read. Expect lots of comments. I will be two weeks in plaster and then back into my big skiboot. I am so looking forward to being about to lie around for a month. Mind you nothing will get done at home and not sure how we will survive food wise but I dont care at this moment.
Must be off, boss has just rung in with urgent email to go now.
Anne I hope everything is going well with Peter.
Zanna, everytime I hear something about RioTinto I worry about you.
Suzy, you caring makes me smile.
Jen, I hope your son is behaving himself and everything is fine on your side of the country.
Molly, I miss your photographs.
Linda, I hope you have found your dream job.
The good news is I will soon have unlimited time to catch up and read. Expect lots of comments. I will be two weeks in plaster and then back into my big skiboot. I am so looking forward to being about to lie around for a month. Mind you nothing will get done at home and not sure how we will survive food wise but I dont care at this moment.
Must be off, boss has just rung in with urgent email to go now.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Patience
Sorry I have been a bit slack lately but I have been catching up and reading lots and lots of blogs. Interesting blogs, old friends blogs, about food, about weight loss, about life. I dont always comment but I am there. Probably could be classed as lurking but I try not to.
I have been busy at work trying to get everything done before I go into hospital. Only four weeks to go now and am looking forward to the rest. Trying to keep up with friends, exercise and doing the bare minimum in housework, keeping up to date with the ironing and washing and the biggest loser. My Foxtel IQ is chockablock full of programs I have recorded but not had time to watch.
Weight loss has slowed down but still happening and that is my fault. Too many social engagements where I cant or dont say no. Enjoying the Weight Watchers meetings and am making an effort to stay after I weigh-in as I like the leader and I find the people (wont say women because there are a few men there too which surprised me) inspiring.
I have to understand that it is going to take time to get this small amount of weight off. I have to have patience. I also have to get into the mindset that I am worth it. I am not depriving myself by not eating junk food (chippies hmmmmm) or drinking wine (have switched to low alcohol). I am making a choice or at least trying to. My body doesnt need it - my mind does.
Latest hurdle is waking up in the middle of the night hungry. I drink water, have a half a cup of warm skim milk and sometimes eat a biscuit or a slice of bread or some potato chips. (I didnt bring that last temptation into the house for obvious reasons.) I know I dont need it but I do it anyway. And then..... I get annoyed with myself. Move on I say, but it will happen again tomorrow night and the next and the next. Maybe my hormone meds need tweeking.
Enough whining more wining - damn no, that's what got me in this little mess in the first place and I havent even mentioned my love of cheese.
Wandering off into the sunset......
I have been busy at work trying to get everything done before I go into hospital. Only four weeks to go now and am looking forward to the rest. Trying to keep up with friends, exercise and doing the bare minimum in housework, keeping up to date with the ironing and washing and the biggest loser. My Foxtel IQ is chockablock full of programs I have recorded but not had time to watch.
Weight loss has slowed down but still happening and that is my fault. Too many social engagements where I cant or dont say no. Enjoying the Weight Watchers meetings and am making an effort to stay after I weigh-in as I like the leader and I find the people (wont say women because there are a few men there too which surprised me) inspiring.
I have to understand that it is going to take time to get this small amount of weight off. I have to have patience. I also have to get into the mindset that I am worth it. I am not depriving myself by not eating junk food (chippies hmmmmm) or drinking wine (have switched to low alcohol). I am making a choice or at least trying to. My body doesnt need it - my mind does.
Latest hurdle is waking up in the middle of the night hungry. I drink water, have a half a cup of warm skim milk and sometimes eat a biscuit or a slice of bread or some potato chips. (I didnt bring that last temptation into the house for obvious reasons.) I know I dont need it but I do it anyway. And then..... I get annoyed with myself. Move on I say, but it will happen again tomorrow night and the next and the next. Maybe my hormone meds need tweeking.
Enough whining more wining - damn no, that's what got me in this little mess in the first place and I havent even mentioned my love of cheese.
Wandering off into the sunset......
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