Thursday, March 29, 2007

New Look

Have gone for a new look to go with the new me. Ive got a bit of a green thing going lately. But have lost a few things off my sidebar so will have to try to work out how to put them back in the holidays. I am such a luddite but I am trying hard.

Weigh in today and have lost 600g this week. That puts me back into the 65s and I am aiming to be in the 64s by Easter (and then maybe I might go up again just a little).

Raining this afternoon so Lucy gets out of her walk. I may get the tramp out and bounce around for a bit. I havent really used it since I got it last mothers day because of all the problems I had last year. DH thinks it is just another useless acquisition but I will surprise him.

Starting to plan our trip to Europe next year. At the moment am thinking Italy, France and the Greek Islands with a short stop in London to visit friends. If anyone has any good websites that might be of interest in planning accomodation or places of interest feel free to let me know. Heard about a place called Cinque Terre from one of the guys at work. He has just been there, so that is on the list of places to investigate.

My MS has just found out she has an enlarged liver with lots of fat around it. Her cholesterol and blood pressure are quite high and she is carrying a lot of excess weight. So, no alcohol anymore which may be a challenge. She cant get in to see the specialist for two months but I think she will put that two months to good use by watching her diet etc. I wish I was closer so I could bully her (did I say that out loud).

Am going great guns with my walking with attitude. Am walking around New Zealand at the moment and have even reached an all time high of 14 in the standings. Woohoo! It is so nice to be able to walk again.

School holidays start next week and aside from the dentist and doctor visits I have a few lunches and dinners to contend with. Plus I am planning a major assault on the gardens. All this rain we have been having has made everything grow so quicklyand lushly including the weeds. So I am going to divide the gardens up into segments and do a bit each day (my new job) plus visits to nurseries at Galston, Ikea and Officeworks. So many things planned, so little time.

Went out to lunch last Monday and actually had a salad sandwich with no butter on brown and a skim flat white. Surprised myself. Then went to a network meeting and took my own green teabag and didnt eat the biscuits. Surprised myself again. Actually I am continually surprising myself lately. In the last three weeks have only had 2 glasses of wine and exercised daily and watched what I have eaten. Please all join hands and pray that this keeps up. I am like a woman possessed!

My ES wants to meet me in Melbourne in late May for her granddaughters 18th. I think I will, it will be a rush as I will have to leave work and head for the airport to get there in time but why not. DH hasnt committed yet to going but I am going with or without him. May even only fly down the Friday and fly home on Saturday depending on other commitments.

Anyway hope everyone is having a good week.

This week I am going to:
Exercise as much as possible
Eat well but sensiblely
Not remind my DD that it is time she moved out
Be more patient (need lots of help with this)

Friday, March 23, 2007

Me again

Im sort of back on track. You'll have to excuse any typing mistakes. Im wireless now so I can watch the rugby and sit in front of the TV and type.

Am back at Weight Watchers again and in the first week back lost a whopping 2.3kg but last week only managed 100g although I followed the plan again. The only explanation I can think of is that my body has gone into shock and is now squirrelling away any food that comes its way. Well I have news for it - its gonna have to give it up sooner or later.

Am exercising nearly everyday - either a gym session, a class, swimming or walking with Lucy. Even if it is only 30 minutes we do it everyday. Actually ran a little bit yesterday but it was a bit hard trying to run and dragging a very reluctant 8kg dog with me. She actually sat down at one stage and refused to move.

Am going to only go to pilates once every two weeks now as the class is being shared by two teachers and while I like both of them one takes our class straight after she has finished teaching a pump class and I think she is actually deviating away from pilates and more into balance and just plain exercising. Anyway, so I've decided to switch between pilates and body balance. Am also going back to tai chi next term.

DH has just come back from a 3 day golfing holiday with mates to the Sunshine Coast. Apparently he is planning another one in September to the Murray - 7 days 7 golf courses. I wondered why he was collecting allthose brochurs when we were down at

DD and I went to see "Music and Lyrics" or is it the other way around. Hugh Grant may be old (look who's talking) but he is still gorgeous and I enjoyed it in a very relaxed sort of way. It was a great brain drain.

One of my sisters has found out that she has an enlarged liver with lots of fat around it. Have googled it and it sounds very worrying. She cant get in to see the gastro guy until June but she is talking about modifying her diet and giving up alcohol now so that is good.

That's about it for the moment. Am still having problems at work, I cant remember whether I have mentioned anything but I am feeling very undervalued and looking forward to the Easter holidays.

Rugby not going well - DH is getting more and more upset. He wouldnt come with me a couple of weeks ago he is so disillusioned with the Waratahs. DS had to come with me which was a nice mother and son outing. But I doubt whether he will come with me again. I'll probably be the last Waratah fan at Aussie stadium and I promise to turn out the lights.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

So sorry

If I knew how to turn off comments I would. I really dont want people to comment on this post.

I dont know how to verbalize my feelings at the moment but I know I havent checked in for a couple of weeks or read blogs or answered emails.

I am in a bad place at the moment regarding food. I am eating too much, but I have put a plan into motion to hopefully help me get over this problem.

I cant seem to say no to food - it is like an addiction. It makes me ill, literally. I cant eat this stuff but I also cant stop it. It has happened before and I know it will probably pass but I am filled with self-loathing at the moment.

Hey, how's this for a depressing post!

Had bad experience at work. You think you know people but you dont really, ever.

Im tired, overweight but still exercising slowly (a small positive).

Im a sad mess. Please dont worry about me, I am being self indulgent and I will move on. I need that switch to be triggered.

Here's hoping............................