Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Here we go again

I am having trouble with blogger. I thought about starting another blog and now cant get rid of it. I have gone into settings and deleted it but it is still there. Hovering in the background like a no longer welcome guest at a party. Damnation why am I so challenged.

Tired today. Sydney weather is the pits at this time of year. Hot and humid. Everything is an effort and sleep is nearly impossible. I want M to put in ceiling fans in the bedrooms but he is resisting saying they keep him awake. Comes down in the end to - does he want a cranky tired wife or would he prefer sleep. His choice.

J swam in a harbour swim on Australia Day. 2.2 kms in choppy water. Did it in 35 mins. Her first open water swim in a long time. She is now all enthused and is doing the Cole classic this Sunday and another one in March. She is also booking to do the Kokoda Trail in June/July. Boundless energy.

Now some housekeeping - Linda I will get to your tag. I dont mind doing them but have trouble responding to them but I will try.
Anne I cant seem to get into your blog again. Maybe I have forgotten something. Entirely possible. Will check my emails to see if there is something in there to jog my memory. Faintly remember something.

Had trouble with my knee again in Queensland. I actually think it was because I hadnt been wearing my orthotics as I was in thongs a lot. Became so painful that I couldnt lie on my side with my knee resting on the bed. The only position that was painfree was on my back and that of course let to snoring. Fun times had by all. Dr put me on prednisone as she thought it was an inflamed tendon. Between that and the orthotics fixed itself really quickly. I had put off going to the drs for a couple of weeks as I thought I might end up in hospital again and I dont want to do that. Silly I know, the damage I was doing could have led to greater problems. Still get twinges now and then but generally okay.

Tried to go swimming yesterday. I dont remember if I swam overarm last year after my back operation but the pain that occurred after swimming half the length of our home pool was horrible. I think M thought he was going to have to rescue me. Breaststroke was okay.

Am going back to yoga tomorrow night after fourteen months or more off. Am going to take it very very slowly and not push myself and see if I can last the term this time.

Weight is blah. Goes up and down like a yoyo. Am trying to track using Weight Watchers but it is so disheartening. I am in minus points this week but that is to be expected if you saw the photo of my brunch on Australia Day on Facebook. Even the days that I think I am doing well are not great when I total up the points.

Weight Watchers weigh in is tomorrow morning. I have been weighing myself everyday and recording on an iPhone app I think is called Weightbot. That is a big wake up call. It tells me that for my height etc I am overweight. Nifty little graph which bears the bad news every single day. LOL. Maybe the wake up I need. Don't want but need.

Enough rambling have a great week. back to work I go

Friday, January 06, 2012

Things I Know

Linking up with Linda today and trying to insert an actual link for things I know.

I know that I am blessed with my life although I bitch and moan about weight, health etc. I have a great family, both immediate and extended, good friends and of course my gorgeous little dog. (What kind of post would I do without at least one mention of her.)

I know that I live in the best country in the world.

I know that decisions that I make this year will just be for me and no one else.

I know I want to be more mobile and that means other things have to go for a while. Not for ever, just for a while.

I know that I have to eat slower - meal times are not a race (which by the way I always seem to win).

I know that my two words for this year, courtesy of Nadine (and I can't find that link), will be - BE POSITIVE.

I know that I am going to take steps to stop procrastinating about things and get out there and do things.

I know that with your help I will be focussed and if I'm not, its nobody's fault - least of all mine but I am, as sure as hell, going to try to remain focussed and upbeat.

Happy New Year and may 2012 be everything that you want/need it to be.

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

A glass half empty

We had a wonderful Christmas and a lovely new year, all the food is just about gone, mainly to my hips and middle.

Now as the day of reckoning is fast approaching I have to face the fact that my weight is still inching up - most of my clothes don't fit me and I am not good at tracking or saying no. Not helping is the fact that my left knee gave out on me a couple of days ago and I couldn't even stand up. Liberal application of ice and painkillers has helped and I am trying to rest it. I don't remember hurting it but hurt it I have.

I am definitely in a glass half empty frame of mind. Social occasions coming up are being viewed as another opportunity to fail due to not being able to say no. My prob I know. It is a mindset that I have to get around somehow.

J has separated from her boyfriend* of 6 years. They are taking a break. If it goes further it will be messy and difficult to untangle their lives. They are both dreadfully upset. Just sitting tight and waiting to see what is going to happen. He has become part of our lives and we are quite fond of him. Sigh.

Even though I am on holidays I have to go and do a first aid refresher course this week. If I leave it until I am back at work my certificate will have expired and I will have to do the whole thing again rather than the refresher. I will take a day in lieu in February when we go to Kiama for the rugby 7s rather than use my long service leave.

Summer has finally arrived in Sydney. Gorgeous days, hot, bright blue skies and still not too hot and humid at night.

A funny thing happened the other day at a friends place where we were having dinner. I went to stand up and the pain that shot up from my left knee was unbelievable. I actually couldn't support my self - friends swung into action with ice packs etc and after a while the pain was bearable. I don't recall hurting it, it could be the extra weight I am carrying at the moment. It had been niggling for a couple of days when I was walking - it hurts when I start but goes away after a while. I know I should go to the doctors but every time I go something bad happens so I will rest it a bit and see what happens. Perhaps try some swimming as a non weight bearing activity.

I bought some new Nike sneakers after Christmas. I bought them from US. Even with postage they were cheaper than the ones I bought here. I ordered them on 27 December and they arrived on 30 December. I was amazed.

I have to downsize my spending this year. I am calling it my practice year for retirement but I am not all that sure I am going to retire in 2013. I change my mind every week.

I hope 2012 is a wonderful year for everybody.
*I usually call them partners because I feel that boyfriend/girlfriend doesn't cover it but a couple of times lately people have picked me up on it saying partner is not correct. Whatever.......who cares!