Friday, March 31, 2006

This weeks rambling

Well, I have to rethink last weeks no loss/no gain - maybe it wasnt a plateau, maybe it was a lovely long lunch with friends on the Sunday which I tried to be good at but went over my points (by quite a lot) and spent the rest of the week playing catch up with points.

This week I lost a kilo! Cant say anything much was different. I thought that last Sunday (bbq lunch with Mum and Sunday night drinks) might have done me in again but no. Im not complaining but I dont really understand.

It looks like Jess will be in the June intake into the police. She is soooo excited and I am soooo apprehensive. I will miss her as she has been so happy lately. She has met up again with the girl she was a buddy with in Year 5 (the peer support scheme). This girl is a lovely girl but has a few problems and Jess has taken on the task of being her mentor again as this girl has cried out for help (sort of a big sister).

DS dislocated his shoulder again at soccer training just running so it was off to the sports doctor on Tuesday and he is booked in for a MRI on next Tuesday and probably a shoulder reconstruction.

DH has had to have his pancreas checked out via a blood test this week and will get results tomorrow. Could just be something to do with eating too much (dont care how skinny or how fast your metabolism is - overeating will get you in the end). He actually didnt eat all the fat from the lamb chops last night which despite my constant nagging would be the first time ever.

As for me, in this house of crocks, all okay with foot. Bone has regrown again. Plate will stay in foot. Have to wait 3 or 4 months for new orthotics as foot is still swollen and it will take 6 to 12 months for the swelling to go down. Strenuous walking or beloved running will have to wait a bit longer I think - damn.

Finished walking France a while ago and have joined the 10,000 steps a day.

Have given up trying to resolve family problems. They wont discuss it together and it just degenerates into "she said, no she said, etc etc". When Mum was trying to tell eldest sister about latest argument with other sister, she just kept saying "I dont want to know". I am going to adopt that attitude too. They can fight among themselves but I am not going to listen anymore - it is not my problem and they are missing out on each other. Am ringing middle sister today as I have not spoken to her since she hung up on me last week although she has sent me a lot of long emails justifying her position. (Am going to enact one of the four agreements about not fuelling gossip.)

Off to the rugby tonight and then a normal weekend of tai chi, pilates, walking Lucy, grocery shopping etc etc.

Have just received my notifications for the renewal of Oprah and Notebook. While I love both these magazines might give them a rest for 6 months as I am having trouble finding the time to read them. I know this should come into me time but there are quite a few books I want to read too and there are just not enough hours in the day.

Did anyone see Biggest Loser on Monday night (what a silly question). Isnt Wal a spunk. Cant wait for when they all come back at the end to see how far they have progressed. I reckon if either Shane or Adro fall beneath the yellow line tonight they are gone. The girls have formed a strong alliance and I feel that they will be the final three - the guys have let themselves become outnumbered and therefore left themselves open for elimination. Kristy has immunity, Fiona has a 1kg advantage and they are very protective of Ruth. Cant wait to see their weights this week although someone has put on weight this week (I think I saw that in the promo).

Made Mary's Tomato and Basil pasta on Wednesday night as a side dish and it was well received. Nice change from noodles, potato or rice as the carb part of their meals.

Have a great weekend everyone. Hopefullying this post will publish. Something strange is happening to my blog lately but it may only be on my end.

Friday, March 24, 2006


No not really. There was no loss and importantly no gain this week and it has been a busy week. Mark thought it was good that I hadnt put on weight after last Sunday when we had 6 friends for lunch. Anyway I know I also havent been as careful as I was previously so I will have to try to get back on track.

One of the couples who came to lunch have just bought a motorbike. They are not novices as bike riding and the reaction of their children was hysterical. They got quite a lot of lectures and have been told they are not to ride it in the rain. I had a ride around the streets (pillion only of course) and it brought back a flood of memories and I felt 18 again. Although I did have a bit of a problem getting on and off the bloody thing LOL.

Family problems bubbling along and they have just about worn me out. Had one sister hang up on me the other day although she had sent me a number of emails since.

Dont know whether I mentioned it last week but Jess has passed her physical for the police force and now is just awaiting placement in CSU I think. She is so excited and I must admit, a pleasure to live with at the moment.

Lovely autumn weather in Sydney at the moment. The nights are getting cooler making it easier to sleep.

One thing, the post prior to this one is no longer showing the number of comments. The comments are still there but not being shown on the post page. Does anyone have any idea why?

We are off to the rugby tonight at Aussie stadium. Meeting Mark at the pub for dinner before. Keep your fingers crossed that I make good choices. I always have good intentions. I have been hungry lately but dont know whether that is to do with the cooler weather.

Also a bit fed up with the fact that most of the weight I have lost has seemed to come off my top half which is fine except now people are saying I look a bit gaunt with only a little coming off the bottom half. Its a pity we cant pick the spot where we would like to lose weight from - it would make it a lot easier.

Have a good weekend everyone. :o)

Friday, March 17, 2006

Another weigh-in down

What an incredible morning it has been. A soft, slightly cool, autumn morning but the sun is now rising above the hills and its probably going to get humid again but it was a nice preview of what is to come - hopefully soon. I'm so over the humidity.

Anyway - I have lost another 700gms this week. I am nearly in the 65s. Woohoo - I havent been there for yonks. You never know I may even fit into my jeans again comfortably. I fit now but there is a lot of muffining going on above the waistband which isnt a pretty sight LOL.

Had a slight disagreement with the WW meeting last night. I mentioned that I live in a house with three people who dont really have to watch what they eat - (a) because their metabolism works really well and (b) because they are not gluttons like me. It was suggested that since I am the primary food buyer that I dont buy food that I shouldnt eat thereby removing temptation from my life. Yeah right. My argument was that my family shouldnt have to miss out on the things that they like just because of me and it is something that I am going to have to, and am, confronting every day wherever I go so why not start learning about control at home and working at distractions like taking packets of WW nibblies to drinks on Sunday night so I dont feel that I am missing out.

The other good news is that my gym has got all new cardio equipment ie bikes, treadmills, steppers, crosstrainers, rowers each with individual TV screens. Mind you we will all have to be taught how to use them again but it looks really good.

Anyway must get back to work - have a good weekend everyone.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Calmed down

Had a long talk to oldest sister. Told Mum to stop fuelling the feud between sisters. Other sister has gone away for the week so will catch up with her on the weekend when she gets back - luckily I have calmed down somewhat. Thanks for all your kind thoughts.

Had a moment today - yesterday while lifting potting mix out of trolley into boot of car I pulled the muscles in my lower back yet again (will I never learn). Pain pretty much immediate. Midway through last night thought I would take some digesics so that I could get some sleep and got up, took two and went back to bed. When alarm went off, hadnt been asleep much but felt okay, got up had shower and then it hit me. Dizziness and nausea. Would lie down for a minute and feel okay and get up and the same feeling would wash over me.

Could drive so couldnt go to work so rang and said I may be in later. I felt really strange. Around 11 a.m. worked it out - I had taken two really really strong pain killers instead of the digesics and I guess that was where the reaction was coming from.

Ended up driving to work because they were having problems but within ten minutes felt dreadful again and somehow managed to drive home again and went to bed and straight to sleep. Feel okay now although back is starting to ache again.

The interesting thing was when I felt sick I wanted to eat all the bad foods and six weeks ago I probably would have even though I know it doesnt really help but today I made a conscious decision not too. I am so surprised with myself - this would be a first.

Off to have my hair cut again tomorrow as a little reward/distraction for my achievement. It is getting a bit curly (read boofy) on top and I liked it really short so may have to have a trim every 4 weeks to keep it in check.

Anyway off to bed to read for a bit. Hope everyone's week is going well. Will try to catch up with blogs tomorrow at work.

Thanks again, your ongoing advice and support is so appreciated. Reminds me of the YaYa Sisterhood. Take care....

Friday, March 10, 2006

Pissed Off

An extra post - Ive just gotten home and found evilness permeating my home. A telephone message from my mother (and I use that term loosely) about not coming to my sisters 60th birthday weekend as it had all "gotten out of hand" and then an email from my eldest sister filled with utter crap. I am so angry at this moment. I have emailed both sisters and said that I am going to sort this out one way or the other and I will deal with Mum tomorrow.

I am past caring about their feelings and am just glad that Dad isnt alive to see this all.

What in the hell is wrong with my family. Thank God for Mark and the kids - they help keep me sane.

Still on track

Was a bit worried last night when I went to weigh in. I have, as mentioned earlier this week, been fighting the demons in my head this week.

They have been telling me the reason why I am tired is that I am not eating enough (couldnt have anything to do with working hard sleeping little).

We talked about it last night at WW. About distracting yourself and I guess I have been trying to do that this week - semi successfully. I need to drink more water because it really does get my mind of the "hunger" and it makes my skin so much better.

Anyway, I managed to lose 700g this week which was a little better than what I was aiming for and I was so relieved. I cant remember the last time I have been under 67kgs - certainly over 2 years ago and this weight it fully clothed with sneakers at 6.30 at night so I guess my morning after shower weight is a little less.

Am trying really hard not to weigh myself at home yet as I know if I know that I have lost weight during the week I will give in to the little extras as I did last night when I got home from the meeting.

The other problem is that bloody foot again. It has been quite sore this week, so much so, that Jess made me sit the other afternoon and iced it for me and made me a cup of tea so I must have looked bad. I think I may have pushed myself a bit too hard on the treadmill at the gym so I am scaling back the cardio as of today.

Am going to do a little bit of warm up on the bike and then weights and exercises and that's all.

My cardio for the next couple of weeks until I go back to the doctors will just be walking Lucy which I wont mind because it is such a lovely time of year (a bit hot today). Anyway, that's the plan.

Am trying to organise a weekend away for my sister's 60th birthday later this year. Other sister has already emailed me that she will not be coming as they are still not communicating. So I sent her a reply stating "build a bridge and get over it" but I hope I said it nicely. What is wrong with people!

Busy day again today at work and off to the rugby at Aussie stadium tonight. Meeting Mark at pub at Central around 6 and then bliss - a weekend where we actually have nothing else on except of course Sunday night drinks. I have a day of gardening planned for Sunday which I am so looking forward to reclaiming my own private piece of jungle.

Have a great weekend.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

6 Week Crash and Burn

Was reading the other night about the 6 weeks crash and burn syndrome and it wasnt really sinking in until I gave it a bit of thought. Hey, that is where I am! That is what is happening to me.

Still tracking but the sneaky sampling has snuck in. A jatz here and taste there, it is all adding up.

I think I feel that I deserve it because I have been doing so well. But if I dont keep doing well I wont feel good. I actually think, no I know, it is just my mind trying to sabotage me.

I'm a little off colour, work is hectic etc etc etc. So many reasons and none really valid to warrant giving in to my demons.

This is a lifestyle change and it will not have to be this rigourous forever but I need to get some control back into my eating.

I want my waist back
I want my rear to disappear
I want my tummy flatter (this one may be a lost cause)
I want the tops of my thighs to stop rubbing together

So many wants and there is only one way to get there (at least for me) - track, watch what I eat and drink water.

My questions from weight watchers last week were:

Q: What would I like to see when I step on the scale next week?
A: Another 500g gone.

Q: Can I do it?
A: Yes.

Q. Am I willing to commit to my weight loss effort?
A: Yes - I have to.

Q: What steps do I need to take to help me achieve next week's desired outcome?
A: Dont give in to the little mean voices in my head who tell me it is okay to just have one taste - for me its not okay. I need to track honestly, drink as much water as I can and move more.

I didnt realise that I had such a sedentary job but since wearing my pedometer every day I see I hardly move at work at all. So I will have to incorporate some more movement into my day at work even if it is just a walk around the building every hour starting tomorrow.

Foot has been playing up a bit but I will sort that out in a couple of weeks when I have it xrayed again and go back to the surgeon.

Anyway I hope you all are having a great week. Weigh in tomorrow night.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Weigh-In No 5

After a really hectic week (anniversary and 4 days away in Kiama socialising) I somehow managed to come in at the end of the week only slightly over in points and when I weighed in last night had still managed to lose 500g. Was happy with that because that is what I am aiming at every week.

Am a bit frustrated that I havent been able to catch up with everyone due to work and housework commitments.

I used to post at work (probably not ethical I know) but find because it is still chaotic here (though getting better - except for me spilling a full cup of coffee all over my desk on Tuesday MAJOR STRESS OUT) but I havent had time and I really miss catching up with everyone in blogland.

Mary - bought the book "The four agreements" - probably tenets I need to apply to my life.

Am enjoying reading AJ Rochester's books.
Interesting point, which I have read a lot lately, about it taking 21 times to create a new habit but she also points out it takes 42(?) times to break a bad one.

Everyone home now although Gareth does not seem well. I think his asthma may be playing up but being a typical male wont go to the doctor to renew his medication.

Jess has not heard from the police force yet but should know yay or nay within the next 10 days.

Off to the rugby on Saturday afternoon to watch the Waratahs play the Sharks. It is an early afternoon match so that, heaven forbid, the rugby crowd doesnt get caught up in the Mardi Gras.

Mums' birthday on Sunday. Middle sister already stressing out about having to spend time with Mum so probably will not be a terribly enjoyable day because of tension.

Anyway I hope to catch up with you guys soon. Must update my stats and take some new measurements. Am well along on my walking tour of France but need to pick up the step count a bit.

Have a great weekend.