Life moves on

Found out what is wrong with my back: a herniated bulging disc. Three options:
Learn to live with the pain
Try injections again
Have an operation to cut away where the disc is bulging and pinching the nerve.

I guess the next step is an MRI. Have to ring and find out about having one with sedation because of the claustrophobia(?).

Anyway am surviving with minimum amount of sleep and eating everything in sight.

My sweet little canary, Spike, died last week. He has had a number of strokes over the past couple of years but always managed to survive and recovery but I guess this time he didnt. He looked very peaceful, I actually thought he was asleep.

We have removed our slow combustion fire from our loungeroom and replaced it with air conditioning. We have had the fire for over 20 years and it was lovely but its use by date was up and I must admit pushing a button is easier than trying to light a fire everynight. DH keeps muttering - "its not as warm as the fire".

Children have all settled into their respective new homes. DD came home last weekend (only to shower and trash) and we met the boyfriend for the first time. He was nice and it was so funny watching her be all soft and sweet. DS spent last week in Queensland at a conference. I dont think Brisbane will ever be the same.

DH very kindly gave up the option of watching the second match of the Bledisloe live this Saturday to go with friends to see Doug Parkinson and have dinner at the local Thai. We will tape it and watch it when we get home. Hopefully it will be a better result than last time (for the Wallabies that is - sorry to all the All Black fans).

Am getting back into the swing of things at work but as usual the days are not long enough. Roll on summer
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I dont know what's wrong.....

Thank you for comments and emails.

I dont know why but I am sad today. Cold and sad. Im tired of the pain. Seeing surgeon on Friday and hopefully he will know how to fix me. I try to walk Lucy a couple of times a week and I cycle at the gym but I know that is not enough for me. I used to do so much. I feel bad.

Yesterday I went to a conference and heard a motivational speaker who was wonderful and she made me feel wonderful too. But today I feel sad - a bit like a sugar spike I guess.

Did I mention that I am married to a simply wonderful man. Im surprised he hasnt mentioned trading me in on a new model as I feel like I am wearing out rapidly and he is so patient. If it is not one thing it is another thing wrong with me. Damn damn damn!

Children are fine. They visit or call often. Everything seems to working out well for them. DD loves the police training and DS has gone to a conference in Brisbane this week.

Hunter was nice. Lots and lots of kangaroos. Probably too many due to drought. I spent my morning walks stepping over dead ones on the side of the road. Saw two foxes (alive) as well. Nice wine, good food and met new people.

Sorry if I am depressing anyone. I have been dodging posting because I have felt like this for a while. Havent been checking my emails. Guess it will pass in due course. No it is up to me to get over this. Im off........

Finished walk finally

Hooray, Ive finally finished the North half of Bibbulmun track and I am off to Africa for a safari. I honestly thought that I would never make the end of the track but I did. Honestly, it is one of the few things keeping me motivated at the moment - now if I could just remember to put the pedometer on first thing everything will be great.

Slight disaster with my hair. Remind me never to listen to son's advice again. My hair is now a butter colour. Didnt leave it in long enough. Decision now is to whether to try again to lighten it or go darker. Either way it could be another disaster in the making.

DD has returned to Goulburn after a weekend at home. It was like living with that tasmanian devil from the bugs bunny show. A whirlwind of destruction. But house is more or less back in order and we probably wont see her again for a few weeks unless her boyfriend returns from europe and then she will definitely be coming home.

Have been a bit unmotivated lately and not been using my e-tools for tracking and generally pigging out a bit. Went back into e-tools on weekend and discovered that they have improved it (you can now print out your daily points tracker so that you can read it - or analyze it in my case to find out where I have been going wrong or just to keep me on the straight and narrow). So hopefully I am back on track again although I have the theatre this Wednesday and our holiday in the Hunter commencing Friday. Oh well, will just do my best and try and work some walking in to the mix to help conteract any excesses.

Hope everyone had a great weekend. Am off to the gym shortly to do some cycling.